Chapter 15: It's My Fault
Xander's POV
I couldn't care less that I was still in my lycan form which I didn't really have the time to admire but I was going to do that next time, right now I need to get a healer for Diana. Walking through the palace hall I hear more surprised gasps just like the ones from the guards outside, they know it's me because of my scent so they didn't try to stop me but their eyes don't leave me until I leave their line of sight. Walking towards the East wing of the castle I bump into Mary who just stands in front of me staring at me in a daze "Mary could you help me get Wendy over, tell her it's important" I mind linked her not knowing if I would be able talk like in the stories. Finally taking her to my room I lie her gently on the bed before turning back to my human form.
"Hang in there my angel" picking up her cold hand I kiss the back of it before placing it back down and deciding to change into non shredded clothes.
Wendy comes in a while after putting on good clothes but I'm already agitated because Diana was getting paler by the minute "Your Highness-" she starts but I cut her off "Forget about the formalities, do something about her" she bows and rushes towards my mate, taking her hand to check for a pulse before her hands hover above Diana's chest.
Two days, I've been waiting for mate to wake up but she doesn't, Wendy said her body just needed time to get over the shock but isn't two days a little too much. I have barely left the room in these two days staying by my mate's side only leaving when I want to take a shower or meet with my father. "It should have been me" I say stroking her cheek lightly "I can't lose you too" I whisper and place a kiss on her forehead, I miss those green eyes that sought for adventure "Please come back to me, I'm so sorry. This is all my fault"
Diana's POV
I can hear everything he says, feel every touch he gives but I can't open my damn eyes. I sob quietly in this dark place, I have been here for I don't know how long but I miss Xander, the only person to keep me company here was Ava but she has gone quiet. I just wanted to get out of here, wiping my tears I stand up "I want out!" I shout the words echoing around this endless space "Let me out of here, I want to go back" I whisper the last part and soon a light starts shinning in front of me, it gets wider and brighter. I look at it for a while before shrugging my shoulders mad moving towards it.
Everywhere is too bright, I blink a few times for my eyes to adjust and I see I'm back in Xander's room, 'Xander' I try to sit up quickly but whimper and do it slowly, wanting to raise my left hand I felt something heavy on it looking down I see Xander sitting on a chair fast asleep holding onto my hand. My heart aches when I see the dark bags under his eyes "It's all my fault" I touch his cheek gently trying not to wake him but he jolts up with a jerk. His eyes open and when they land on me he freezes, releasing my hand and resting his palm on my face.
He pulls me in and hugs me tight hiding his face in the crock of my neck. My body relaxes as I enjoy the tingling sensation of the mate bond until "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I'm a bad mate, I couldn't save you in time. Please forgive me" I feel something wet touching my shoulder, 'is he, crying?' I wrap my hands around and move it around comfortingly "I'm okay now, it wasn't your fault". He suddenly pulls away making me whimper missing his touch "I will get someone to bring your food up" he says in a weird monotone, he has spoken like that before to his father and brothers but not to her it made my heart aches.
He walks into the bathroom and shuts the door 'You've messed up big time smart girl, you better fix our mate or you will never hear from me again' Ava scoffs in my head and I know she is sad 'Why don't you try to talk to him like he did during dinner?'
'And how do you expect me to do that? I don't know how that works'
'Oh why don't you just say what you want to, I'm sure he can hear you'
"Xander" I call out to him but he doesn't answer I get off the bed and take a few steps forward on my shaky legs before I fall to the ground with a soft thud. I hiss from the pain erupting from my knees and the next second the bathroom door is open and Xander is standing in front of me "Are you okay? You just woke up, you were not supposed to get out of bed yet. Does it hurt anywhere?" I look at my mate, at the concern that is written all over his face. I nod "Where?" I point towards the left side of my chest "Right here" even when my knees hurt like hell 'And you say I'm the drama queen' Ava whispers in my head as if afraid that someone will hear her. Xander looks at my chest and then my eyes confused because I had already moisturized my face with my tears, he cups my cheeks and uses his thumbs to wipe the tears. He places our forehead together "I'm so sorry Diana, I'm sorry" I am stunned, what is apologizing for? I place my hand on his cheek and pull away from him, he puts his hand on mine and speaks first to break the silence "We are going back to the pack tomorrow"