CHAPTER TWELVE: Living with Lila

Ryan POV

'You don't have to take up all the stress I'm getting a nanny' dad announced in a tried voice, I don't know why but something uncertain started boiling up inside me. It felt like a mix of anger, anxiety, fear and more I couldn't place a finger on.

Is he planning to move on?

As much as I hated mom leaving us, I hate dad trying to forget her and move on with another woman, God knows where she come from.

'Why? Nanny? Is that a cover up name for bringing your girlfriend home to live with us?' I said, I didn't expect it to come out ash but it did so I would just go with the flow.

'First of all, she isn't my girlfriend, though we dated back in highschool till first year of college, not my point, she could to help us out with the female stuff and Michelle is growing everyday' dad said, it made sense but I wasn't ready to see another woman that isn't mom around the house.

'I'm fine taking care of Michelle, at least I know a thing or two about girls periods through science class' I defended.

'You knowing it isn't enough, she needs someone with experience and you need someone to lean on when I'm not around' he said coming closer and placing a hand on my shoulder. Thankfully the sitting room light were off so wasn't able to see my facial expression melt at his touch.

'Who said I will be leaning on you' I scoffed slapping his hand off my shoulder. I would be lying if I said I didn't want him to hug me, it has be ages since I had received a fatherly hug.

'Do whatever you want' I said turning towards my room.

'I'm just telling you so you won't be surprised in a month time' dad said increasing his voice a bit so I could hear him.

'Whatever' I said waving my hand in dismissing the topic before entering my room.

I wasn't so surprised the day the nanny came but that opposite for Michelle. She was surprised about seeing a stranger at the front of our door and the stranger being introduced as the nanny. Michelle being Michelle was cheerful around her while I was cold and distant I even made it clear that if she was to be the nanny she remain that and she shouldn't think of replacing mom. No matter how I push her away she still come around or doesn't she get the hint.

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'Mom are you really back?' I asked as I met her in the kitchen preparing bacon

'Did I ever leave?' she asked thinking I was joking,

'Ryan, Ryan, Ryan' she called, the voice started to change from mom's voice to someone else voice. I opened my eyes feeling a bit sleepy to make out the figure at my front I thought it would be Michelle and her usual disturbance. When my eyes were clear enough I saw that it was Lila, the nanny.

'Ryan, Ryan, wake up' she called shaking me a bit while kneeing with a foot on my bed to support herself.

'What the hell' I said jolting up from my bed stunned to see her in my room, noticing everything was a dream waking up to mom absence.

'You slept in, get up and prepare for school break fast is on the dinning' she said standing straight

'What's the time?' I asked

'7:55' she replied

I really slept in, I was surprised but I quickly hide the expression as soon as it came.

'I'm coming, can you see the door?' I said coldly and sh didn't mind she smiled and left,

"Something about her smiles always seems fake."

After school was over I didn't feel like going home these days. Usually I get home earlier than Michelle and I have the house to my self, making it my solitude but now it's invaded so I try to stay out till evening, I sometimes stay in the park watching other kids play and teenagers go on dates or hang out at Lucas, my best friend. Michelle didn't seem to have problem with Lila, she even brought our nextdoor neighbor, Charlie over so that Charlie could see Lila.

It took a while but I started adjusting to been around her but I don't let wait up for dad to come back that's what I do even though dad complains about me having an healthy sleep. I can't let Lila wait up, she here as a nanny let her be a nanny not a wife.

Lucas, my best friend since I came to city comes over but I don't let him come when Michelle is at home, I don't want the kind of car of my best friend likes my sister. Michelle is gorgeous but I dare not say it to her face because she is still my ugly sister. I wish that she did have crushes but I guess that she is still waiting for Terence. Her best friends writes every week and takes turn in writing, my childhood friends writes once in a while.

I thought that I was the only who noticed it but Lucas has noticed it that trying to get close to dad, of course, ex. The ex has leftover feeling for her ex. It was obvious for us to notice the way she offers to make dad's bath, make him a plate and even do his laundry or did I get the meaning of nanny wrong, does it mean second wife but I'm glad dad has a way of nicely turning her down when she tries to get intimate. Lila is so easy going with Michelle and has helped her a lot, dad was right she needed someone with experience and sometimes I feel bad for suspecting her, I can't help it but if my fear becomes true she should know that she wouldn't only lose her job but also the love of her life the second, which I thought