Chapter 3: Damon

I went back inside the house closing the door so that she wouldn't have any chance to peep in through into my room, I was contemplating, what should I do now, am out of options, should I go and help her, then come back and commit suicide or should I just end everything right here, I already told her that I will be there in a minute but I too know that if I ever leave this room to go and help her with her stuffs, then am probably not killing myself because the courage to do it is no more, even right now, the longer I take, the more courage I lose.

No, I shouldn't, I have to give myself some time to think this again, few minutes ago, I believe that I can't go on with this life but now I believe that I might find a way through, only God knows why whatever that happened right now to happen, he still wants me to remain alive, I don't think this should be the end yet, I almost put shame on my father's face if not for the girl at the doors intervention.

I don't even know her name yet because I never asked, that wasn't even the question on my head then, I don't really know why she was looking at me at that manner, did she look right through me, maybe she knows what I was up to, maybe suicide is written all over my face, something scared her, I was holding a rope on my hand, after untying my hand before opening the door, I didn't remember to leave the rope back inside, I made the mistake of taking it with me outside.

Only God knows what she is thinking right now, or did she know who I was, oh my God, she might have seen me somewhere, maybe she knows that I was the son of the Mafia lord in the next town, am very tired, I have nowhere else to hide, I have been running all this while, this school has been the best hiding spot for me, why did I have to open that door, something really scared her and I don't know what, I knew my eyes never changed when I was with her, there wasn't any emotional feeling running through my head when I opened that door, despite not being able to hide from my eyes.

I know that I never opened that door being afraid of anything, I looked at the door again, she is still outside waiting, there is still close to twenty minutes before the end of lectures and I don't think that she could wait that long for me, I wish she would see another person that would give her a hand, I looked up the roof of my room, the rope is still hanging there but isn't tormenting me again like it did before, I got up on the chair as I untied the rope from the ceiling hook, I hid the ropes inside the bag where I keep my clothes as I opened my room so that I can attend to the mystery girl.

I have carried everything of hers up here, she carried quiet a big load here, when we was still carrying her stuffs up here, I started a conversation with her by asking her what her name was, she told me that her name was Cleopatra but I can call her cleo in short, I never wanted our time together to be something I might regret later, when I carried her first bag up here, we never said anything to each other, it was on the second time we was coming upstairs that I decided to ask her about her name.

I have never been the type that chat with girls, not just girls but people, I don't know much people in this school apart from my roommates, two friends who usually comes back late at night, most at times drunk, I always pretend to be fast asleep whenever they return and leaves the room before they wake up, I have never been part of there lives in school, though I once had a conversation with them too.

The told me that there names were John and Chris, we didn't speak much but I think they introduction between us did all the work, me and cleo didn't speak much too but at least we have got to know each other, we can at least say ( Hi) to each other whenever we come across, " Thanks", she said to me as I was about to leave " You are welcome ", I said to her with a smile on my face as I turned around to leave again.

" Wait, okay am sorry, I thought I saw something, I guess we can see each other again sometime", I gave her a nod as I headed back downstairs, the hostels were divided with girls living on the first floor and third floor while the guys lived on the second floor and fourth floor, their were five different hostels for students to live in, this hostel is the hostel C, where I am placed, when I got to my room, I noticed that I have got a smile on my face, what has been the reason for this my happy mood, was it because I spoke with a girl or what, I was about to sit down on my bed when my eyes looked at the mirror, my eyes were now light Blue in colour.

Oh my God, what just happened, I haven't seen this particular colour on my eyes for forever now, is that why she stopped me when I was leaving, maybe she noticed something in my eyes but pretended like it was nothing, I don't have to make a Sudden conclusion by deciding that she saw my eyes change color, I have to speak with her indirectly someday concerning my eyes if she might have noticed something, or I would never try to meet with her again so that she would forget anything about me, that's the only options on my head right now, if not because of my eyes changing color continuously, I would have been trying my best to go out and have fun a bit, I have managed to train myself of staying at home and it has been paying off.

The door to my door opened, " Hello bro, it's quite funny how you always make it back home before us", John said, he just came in right now that means today's lectures are over, I just smiled a bit then lied down on the bed, it was still five in the afternoon, John came back early today, I have never seen him return back from lecture so early.

" Looks like you are not going for a drink today ", I asked him. we definitely have nothing to talk of but they are always okay with that, both him and Chris has never complained about me being lonely everytime but my question now surprised him a bit, " Are you for real or am I dreaming right now ", he pretended to clean his eyes a bit before speaking again, " Sorry about that, I am just kidding but are you really the one asking me this?".

I understand why he is behaving this way, the smile I have always been giving them has been fake but right now I felt like smiling, I turned my face to the wall of my bed and laughed " Don't be shocked John, I am the one asking ", I closed my eyes pretending to fall asleep, " Yeah, we are but we wish to come back here first before moving out, want to go with us?", I opened my eyes replying him quickly " No, no, I am not going, you guys can go have fun ".

Hmmm, he exhaled as if he was exhausted, " Am not forcing or pressuring you but can we go to tonight's party, it will be fun bro ", I know they want me to do things together with them, I can tell but due to my status right now, I don't think going to a party will be a good move for me, I am definitely putting myself in a great danger if I decide to go, I shouldn't hide forever, I know that, hiding won't solve the whole issues but if I decide to fight, then the family will never get together in the future and I have higher chance of losing because my brother has many followers, a legion of them when I have none with me, I am all by my own.

If I keep hiding, I think one day he will wish for my return but for now, going out isn't the best option " I will think about it, before you guys will leave, I will give you my answer ", At least I can deceive him with this my answer but I am not going, I don't believe it's a wise move for me to make.