I wake up briefly to Trenton kissing me good bye. It's still dark out so I mumble good bye and go back to sleep.
When I wake up again my middle child is jumping on the bed and now the baby is awake wanting to nurse. Once I get them changed and baby nursed, I start my morning routine.
I start my coffee and then grab the ingredients out of the fridge to cook us breakfast. I grab two pans out of the cabinet and start cooking. I'm making breakfast bowls. Scrambled eggs, southern potatoes, shredded cheese and bacon bits. Kids and I both love it.
Once we have eaten and I cleaned up the dishes, we went to our living room area for kids to play and me to have a moment of down time before the chaos starts. I drift back to my dreams. I feel so guilty but can't stop thinking about that man. I've only saw his face. His eyes, oh my goodness his eyes. He has dark brown hair. His face is nicely shaped and his lips looked full and soft. I see his smile and then I hear my baby crying. I automatically snap out of my day dream and get the baby out of the walker and we play. The day goes by as a normal routine.
Before I know it, it's bedtime again. As I drift off, his face is coming into my view. He's smiling at me. I'm still aware somehow and so I try to control the dream. I want to know why I keep having the same dream and who he is. I need to quit conjuring him up. I have a husband. And I feel so guilty.
I try to ask him who he is but I get no response. He just smiles and looks in my eyes. Oh, that smile. The things this unfamiliar man do to my body scares me.
I feel shivers and I'm already a horny gremlin because Trenton and I haven't been active lately.
Just great.
I've created a figment of my imagination and now I'm starting at him in my dreams. I must be desperate for Trenton's attention and affection. Maybe he's still cheating on me and this is my subconscious telling me.?
I'm crazy, I'm an absolute nut case.
I give up trying to talk or trying to look at him. I'm officially crazy and need to shut this down now. I try to control my dream and leave. Where am I though? It doesn't look familiar so I try to look around but I see only woods. It's obvious that we are outside but where? So, I do the only thing I can think of, I run.
I look back to see if he is still there but his smile has turned into a smirk and his eyes, oh, they are no longer beautiful honey brown. Instead, a reddish rust color is what I'm seeing. Fuck! I need to wake up. Of course I'm being chased by a demon in my dream! I was sinning and now I'm going to die in my sleep.
All I hear is laughter.
Wait? Why is he laughing and chasing me?
I stop, abruptly. This is my dream and I control it, right? I turn to see if he is still behind me. I don't see him anywhere. Where did he go?
I'm going really fucking crazy and I need to wake up NOW.
I turn back around and see him standing in front of me. The fear I felt is gone. It's been replaced by some
feeling of euphoria. His eyes are the gorgeous honey brown again. And he's just looking at me. Then his mouth starts moving.
"I very much enjoyed the chase, maybe next time I will catch you..."
His voice is so deep and my body just shivered while he spoke. I swear his voice sounded so deep and sensual. This is the first time he's ever spoken to me. Is this still a dream? Am I really crazy?
I said the only thing I could,
"Am I fucking crazy?"
He laughed so hard he shoulders were bouncing. He really seemed think my big concern for my mental health was the best joke at open mic night.
He straightened up and begins to speak.
"No, you're not crazy. Although, after I tell you why I am here and have been visiting you, you may think you are."
I look back at him and scrunch my face up, I'm very confused. Why is he visiting me in my dreams? And why is he flirting? And why am I wet from just his eyes and smile? So many why's floating around in my head that I forgot he was still standing there.
I wanted to ask him to explain but I was jerked back into reality by my baby fussing trying to nurse.
What the fuck?
I need to pray, I need to call the pastor tomorrow & make an appointment with my doctor.
I have three options of what has happened:
1.) I have completely lost all my marbles and need help.
2.) Possession
3.) Someone is visiting me in my dreams and dream land is real.... And I've just been eye fucking him and smiling at him for days.
Well, shit. Let's hope for number 1.
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