9. She lied
Michelle's POV
As I left Ashley's place thoughts of her getting in trouble because of my visit filled my head I couldn't help but worry About her I just hope she sorts everything out, it's just really too soon for me to put her in trouble already and I guess I have already ruined my chance of having a relationship with her damn I'm so full of bad luck I kept muttering to myself that I didn't notice when I bumped into someone and when I looked up it was my ex boyfriend Clinton gwashh I almost forgot that he leaves around here today is really not gonna get any better tsk I mumbled to myself but I guess he heard me cause he chuckled a little what an asshole gwashh his so annoying I really don't want to believe that I was once in love with him lols yea I was in love with him actually I'm bisexual although Clinton is the only guy I have actually dated and it was all my friends doing lols that's one of the many reasons I detached myself from them, well Clinton is actually a nice guy except for the fact that he used me by extorting money from me always well I was in love and it didn't mean anything to me if I helped the person I was in love with lols most times love can make you do stupid things,I actually don't regret spending on him well he was kinda worth it but i just hate to think that he was giving my parents money to someone else lols yea my parents money I'm just a student after all, well I don't hate him I just find him silly and we are still cool cause he apologized. As he kept staring at me with creepy smiles I was forced to return the gesture so I don't seem rude I don't want him to feel like I still have something against him which I don't I'm just going through a tough time now I kept thinking that I forgot I was standing on a spot and he was standing in front of me till he snapped his fingers and brought me back I just smiled at him and tried walking away till he grabbed me by the hand "where are you coming from?" He asked and I thought for a while like wtf will you ask such a question and how's that his business I thought to myself, I was almost getting angry but I tried to be calm I'm used to Clinton being this way but for goodness sake we have been done for over a year now, I pretended not to hear his question and released my hand from his grip and walked away and I could only imagine the look on his face he must be feeling terrified now lols well that's what he gets from being a poke noser lols.
Immediately I reached home I took off my shirt and my pants and lay on the bed I really need to get some sleep I was tired mentally and emotionally and I needed to escape from my thoughts for a while and yea I actually stay with my elder sister Kylie but she kinda stays with her boyfriend "clingy much" lolz, As I was about to fall asleep my phone rang and I groaned I was annoyed like who tf is that now I really wanted to ignore it but what if it's really an important one I reached for it to check the caller and it was Ashley and I clicked on the answer button immediately gwashh thank goodness I decided to check the caller, I wonder if she has settled the problem with her brother I thought before she spoke" hey babe are you back yet?" Ohh yea I'm back I said without thinking and then I just realized that she just called me babe but I had to confirm it " what did you just call me?" I asked and she chuckled a little and said " I called you babe do you have a problem with that" and my breath seized for a moment and the butterflies swam freely in my stomach and I started feeling giddy all of a sudden, lols yea this is funny someone calling me babe is no biggy like literally every girl does that but why does it feel so different with her like it's some big deal, shits getting real serious I think I'm losing my mind! Thoughts kept running in my head I forgot I was still on call till I had her voice asking if I'm okay " ohh yea I'm cool" I barely said but I guess she heard me clearly " uhh my brother just came in let's chat" she said and hung up immediately which I found it very rude like damn bitch you can't order me around that should have been a question, on a second thought maybe she was really in a hurry to hang up cause of her brother that she didn't have the time to ask well whatever I will still come online either ways she has my control switch now lols.
As I came online we started chatting about random things till a thought came into my head and I decided to try my luck " what if I asked you to be my girlfriend what will you say?" I asked and she took time to reply this I guess she was trying to take in whatever I said and she finally replied " actually babe I would love to be your girlfriend but it's just that my relationship status is really complicated right now and I don't want to complicate it any further " and I thought for a while like I don't think her relationship status is that complicated isn't it just about her friend that she shared intimate moments with but she never told me the agreed to date so she's as good as being single, there's really nothing complicated here unless she's hiding something and I was too curious to know what that was and I asked " how complicated is this situation if you don't mind sharing" and she replied immediately " promise me you won't get offended if I tell you?" And I wondered how bad the situation might be that she thinks I might get offended I'm scared for my heart cause it might break any moment from now I could feel it and talking about getting offended I'm not someone that gets angry easily but I have limits but I don't have any rights over her yet so even if I get angry I will try to hide it so I told her to go ahead without promising her anything and she replied after awhile " I have a girlfriend but the problem is that she stays far and we barely see each other except it's through video call that's why I tried keeping a friend that I could share intimate moments with without feelings, I'm really sorry for lying to you hope this doesn't change the way you feel about me I really like you" I felt my heart break into tiny pieces I should have known better she was Racheal's friend after all it's almost impossible for her to fall far from the tree I sighed and clenched my teeth "okay" I replied cause I really didn't know what else to say, I bit my lower lip to stop myself from crying but that didn't work as tears escaped from my eyes, I'm in pain I could feel my heart breaking into tiny pieces, my heart has made the same error again! How many times will I have to feel stupid before learning my lessons!! I should have known ..I should have known better than to let myself fall again without getting to know each other properly I'm such a fool! I couldn't control my heart!! I kept muttering to myself till my eyes closed from crying a lot and I fell asleep.