12. Breakup
Ashley's POV
Although Michelle hasn't said anything to me about breaking up with my girlfriend but I know that she's already running out of patience by the way she acts although she's trying to play cool but I know her well by now she's so bad at pretending, I promised to breakup with pecky my supposed girlfriend four months ago but yet I haven't done anything about it I just keep prosponding it, I know y'all must be thinking that I have changed my mind or I want to keep the both of them to myself well hell no! I love only Michelle and I want to be with only her! It's just that pecky was once my friend before we became lovers and I know breaking up with her will cause a lot of damage to our friendship gwashh I'm really confused on the order hand is Michelle if I keep prosponding this shit one of these days she will run out of patience and call her quits and I really don't want to loose her she means the world to me, I really need to talk to pecky maybe she is tired too because really long distance relationship ain't easy maybe just like me she doesn't know how to call it off, maybe she will understand my situation after all she was once my friend.
It's a weekend and Michelle has asked me out for dinner lols y'all must be thinking it's a date well actually I wish it was a date anyways it's just dinner according to how she said it because we aren't dating yet, personally I actually wish that we could just date till I gather the courage to breakup with pecky but Michelle puts way too much importance to dating, relationships and love stuffs lols don't get me wrong it's not like I don't put importance into them I do but I think Michelle's own it's just too much well I have to respect her wish, I just kinda feel guilty because I'm the one hindering our progress can you imagine she hasn't even touched me properly gwashh only if she knows how much I have been yearning for her! Damn I'm sex starving I fucking need her but she's not even making advances and I don't even know how to start up these kinda stuffs I'm used to being the follower not the starter sometimes I feel like I don't look sexy enough for her, can't she just forget her principles for once and just touch me! She's driving me crazy arghhh! I really need to breakup with pecky soon I really feel frustrated about all these that I forgot to lock my door on my way out and I had to turn back and race to the door before my brother gives me an ear full once I got back.
As I reached the venue for our dinner which she detailed me about she was already there seated with her legs crossed she was on a dark blue plain trousers and a sky blue t-shirt damnn she looks so hot I have never seen her look so dashing and responsible lols don't me wrong she always look good but seems like she put more effort today cause she braided the middle of her hair and left the rest of the parts to flow down which she has never done since I met her, she always ties them in a bun but gwashh this is a perfect sight I could feel my knees melting and I forgot that I haven't entered yet and I was still standing on a spot till I noticed a lady walk to her and I guess she was tryna flirt and the bitch is smiling back at her what a bastard! I got so angry I didn't even realize when I walked to them and grabbed the lady and almost pushed her to the floor but Michelle the dumb cute bitch! held her and handed her over to her friends which already stood up to defend their friend but of course I ignored them and faced my bitch "calm down babe it's not what you think she was just greeting me" she said while holding my shoulders trying to calm me down I could feel that hot tears where about to spill from my eyes, I could feel my chest tightening , I was feeling pain.. is this what jealousy feels like? Damn it hurts, she has to be mine and only mine! I can't bear to see her with someone else, hot tears started spilling from my eyes and she took me in for a hug and tamed me, while taking in her scent and clinging unto her tightly I could feel the ache in my heart slowly erase and I stopped crying she's my pain killer, my addiction, she has to be mine and I will make her mine soon I thought to myself as she led me out of the restaurant yea I ruined our dinner I feel terrible for that lols well at least she should know better than to smile at other girls that smile is meant for only me to see duhhh, we had to go to another restaurant and ate dinner silently while I thought about breaking up with pecky tonight.
As Michelle dropped me at my lodge kissing me goodbye I went in and took a quick shower lucky me my brother wasn't in probably went to a friend's place or whatever, I took out my phone and texted pecky " heyy babe we need to talk" I waited for about five minutes before she replied "sure hun what's it about?" She asked, if this wasn't important I would have ignored her for the next five minutes just like she did to me but since I want this over and done with soonest I will put my pride aside for My Michelle lols yea "My", "we need to breakup" lols yea that was too straight forward but this is me I just feel like things would be a lot easier and better if people were always blunt or straight forward with what the have in mind instead of beating around the bush, "your kidding right?" This time around she replied immediately and why the fuck will I kidding about this, is not like I have joked with her about this before she should know me better by now well I guess she doesn't "actually it's no joke I'm serious, I have thought about it a lot and I have decided I'm tired I can't keep leading you on and wasting my time too, so please let's accept this without staring up unnecessities" I really do feel bad about this but i need to be straight forward unless I won't be able to breakup with her tonight, " looks like you already made up your mind,lols seems like you found someone new well it's all good wish you the best" wow it was alot more easier than I thought I personally think she wanted this too " thanks, wish you the best too", gwashh finally,I really can't wait to tell Michelle about this.