4. LET IT GO

It was monday morning i was getting ready for university and kate left for breakfast to the kitchen. i was wearing black platted skirt with full sleeves turtle neck top and hairs tied in a bun. i rushed downstairs greeted my parents and jay was having breakfast so i joined him " where is kate?" i inquired " she is waiting outside for tou both" mother answered while serving juice i ate hurriedly and went to the gate kate was in the car talking over her phone i sat on passenger seat and jay was about to open the door when kate said " kids are not aloud" jay said annoyingly " don't you forget you passed out this year before these holidays even you were in school" to this kate was about to say something when i said " stop this cat fight kate drive him to school" the bus behind us started giving horn " oops! seems like gods with me go your bus has arrived' kate said giggling to this jay gave her death glare and slammed the door hard. she started driving " why you always want to fight with him you know jay is the quietest amoung us" i said to kate " tell me one person on earth that you think is bad or wrong? learn to be more practical bae otherwise girls like michelle..." kate said but i stopped her " please kate not again." " okay fine." kate said and the drive was silent for a while. "where are you going so early?" i said breaking the silence kate said " i am going to visit my friend and then for some shopping for high school" she said excitedly.

She dropped at university gate and left as i was about to enter the gaye i saw Krystal's bus so i stopped there she saw me and waved at me she was wearing loose tshirt with some quote on it and jeans. " madam rose on time such a great day today" she said with mischevious smile " stop it Krys i am in no mood to laugh on such jokes" i said as we moved in " hmm i know last night kate called me she told me what happened." If there is any friend of mine that kate like is only krys for her she is best. " and you still make fun of me?" i said looking at her " we need to talk let's go to canteen." saying this she hold my hand and we went to canteen i greeted uncle jacob and sat on the last table. " now atleast you don't lecture me krys." i said keeping my bag aside " even i don't want to lecture you rosy. just listen to me once." saying this she went and bought coffee for us " rose firstly you don't have to be sad because you were never there in this relationship true." said krys " it's true but i felt betrayed by lauren" i tried to make her understand " the fault was yours too rose don't just blame him. He was always there for you but you never tried to approach him even he has feelings rose. Listening to her i was numb for a moment " and that of michelle you were the one who always allowed her to invade your privacy otherwise who ask a her to join for a special dinner prepared by your boyfriend to spend some time with you also always asking lauren to help michelle in dancing , dropping her home even accompanying her to shopping. Any normal person would start getting attracted." i started agreeing to her i was the one who encouraged their meetings but my intentions were good i asked her " i just wanted to help what should i do now" to this krys was quute for sometime then said " you should let it go dear because now their is no trust left between you both and now onwards you'll start doubting him so just forgive them if they wanna be in relationship accept it. This will even help you to find someone whom you actually love." i finished my coffee while thinking about it and said " okay i'll think let's go lecture is about to start." we left the canteen and headed to student locker.

As the classes end i rushed to my home and msg michelle to meet me one hour before dance class to which she agreed. i rested for a while and then prepared for the classes.

when i reached their i saw michelle standing just outside the gate as she saw me she started apologizing to her this action watchman was staring at us.

i asked her to come with me to nearby park and we walked there the path was very silent. we sat on a bench at far distance from usual crowd first few minutes it was complete silence then she said " rosiette i know that what i did was a sin but please forgive me." she said in low voice to this i was blank about how to react i said " so since when this started." she looked at me with watery eyes and said " it's not like what you are thinking rose just liaten to me once." i just nodded and she began " i will be honest with you rose when i joined classes two years back i fell for lauren on the very first day but when i noticed he is always with you i understood he might like you and then even you were so nice to me i was not able to build courage to ask him and days went by and then he proposed you and you agreed. trust me at that moment i decided to burry my feelings but sometime you asked him to drop me, even allowed me to join dinners and shopping i wasn't able to distract myself but lauren really loves you rose. he never crossed boundries and that day when you denied for hangout i convinced him but my intentions were never to go close to him.

even when we went to club he talked about you and was planning for your birthday but afyer few drinks he started feeling tippsy and he excused himself to use washroom but for long time he didn't arrived so i went to search him at time i saw him standing in lobby with support of wall i went to help him when he grabbed me and holded me tight and then he said " i always loved you i care for you but why don't you open up to me why we have this gap between us tell me rose " saying this he started kissing and i just could not control myself and ...." she pauaed.

i was numb for a moment but i gathered myself and said " look michelle i think lauren deserves someone who actually loves him and care for him equally and i don't think i can be same with him now so just convey my message to him that it's over and you can ask him out of you want" to my words michelle gave slight smile with shocked expressions " are you serious rose" she asked " i don't think i am in a state to joke." She apologized again and i ask her to just get back to normal she returned for the classes and i denied her and left to home early.

i was feeling light and now i just wanted peaceful sleep. i had dinner and slept early.