You are different

Mary said that she was a little dizzy because of the crowd, so Maw Oo let her lean on him and left the party. After resting for a while, Mary asked him.

"Why did you agree to marry Lyan Lyan?"

Mary asked without looking at him. Maw Oo had no answer as he never asked himself before.

"You could deny it, wouldn't it? Even before that night, you asked me to go out for a date. But what made you change suddenly?"

Maw Oo didn't change his facial expression. No matter who it was, it was not important for him as he didn't have time to spare a second for a relationship.

"I just accepted the outcome. There's no special reason."

Lyan Oo Nway was like his shadow that he couldn't leave behind. He was still following throughout his life.

"Then what about me?"

Mary looked at him with eyes full of hope and asked him.

"Do you love Lyan Lyan?"

"There's no love or hate. He is my spouse, that's all.

"So can you accept me too? I know it was a little lack of modesty but I like you. I don't mind being the second one. How about you?"

"I won't cheat on my spouse"

He didn't want to be like his father. He wouldn't cheat even if he didn't love him.

"You don't love him, do you? It's tiring to marry a person you don't love."

"Cheating is not related to love and hate. It's about someone's morals. I decided to have a relationship with him, so I won't cheat on him even if I don't have feelings for him. Everyone is the same for me. You and Lyan Lyan are no exception. I have no time to worry about it."

It hurt to hear from a man who was so straight forward. He said everyone was the same. How could he say that? She had been trying so hard for a long time to be the most suitable person to him. She never thought that an ordinary boy who was nothing would be the first to possess him.

"Ah… the same? I've tried a lot to get close to you. If I was shameless like Lyan Oo Nway, it wouldn't end up like this."

After she said that, she saw a boy walking behind the back of Maw Oo Yan. In a high-class clean outfit, Lyan Oo Nway looked especially beautiful and handsome at the same time. However, a raven cannot become a peacock just by wearing a peacock feather.

She hung her hands around Maw Oo Yan's neck. But there's no response from Maw Oo. It's okay. If Lyan Oo Nway gave up first, Maw Oo Yan would become hers as Maw Oo said he was okay with everyone.

She noticed Maw Oo stepped back when she touched his lips with hers. But as a gentleman, Maw Oo didn't make her shameless. He didn't push her. There was a serious business relationship between them, so some things shouldn't be solved in a certain way.

Maw Oo noticed her kiss and stepped back a little to make their body apart. He controlled his behavior and gave his hand to hold her in a polite way.

"Let's go back to the party"

Mary took his hand and turned back to look at Lyan Oo Nway.

"Oh! Lyan Lyan is here."

Maw Oo Yan turned back to look at the boy who was in a dress that he had never seen. It looked like his father brought him to the party. Although he felt confusions and guilt, he controlled it back well.

After that, he went back to the party together with Mary. He didn't look back again to Lyan Oo Nway, who was standing in disbelief. Body contact was nothing special to him, so he didn't regard it as a kiss either. He also didn't want to think about Lyan Oo Nway's feelings.

"Please consider working with my company again after the project."

Dpar Oo didn't want to come to the party but he did and sat down boringly. Maw Oo invited him to work in his company as Dpar Oo was signed only for a project. But Dpar Oo raised his middle finger up. The only reason he was forced to do this project was that Maw Oo found his little secret. It was that he was deeply into Min Say. It's the truth he couldn't change and he didn't want to let Min Say know about it.

Although he didn't get a specific answer from him. Maw Oo already knew that Dpar Oo had no chance to deny him. So he didn't force him at all. As the party lasted longer, there were a few drunk people. When he was greeting the shareholders, he saw Lyan Oo Nway who was sitting in the corner.

"Isn't he your husband?"

Min Say asked him by moving closer to him. He answered with a nod. Lyan Oo Nway didn't try to come near to him and he didn't either. They didn't talk to each other for a whole party time.

"Bring Lyan Lyan with you to go back"

As Mr.Maw Soe told him to, Lyan Oo Nway was with him in his car after the party. There's a silent situation as they couldn't find any words to start a conversation. After staying quiet for a long time, Lyan Oo Nway gave a short sigh.

"Do you love her?"

Two people asked him the same question. But he didn't have any answer.

"No"

Lyan Oo Nway smiled bitterly.

"You touched her and kissed her. Now you are still denying that you don't love her. Is it because you feel guilty for me?"

Lyan Oo Nway was shocked with his own words. Where did he get the strength to say Maw Oo Yan these words? Maw Oo's coldness had broken his heart little by little since his marriage, until it began to bleed.

"Didn't I treat you the same?"

Those words hurt his heart. Of course, Maw Oo Yan kissed him and touched him too. Even though they had tossed and turned in bed for most of the night, Maw Oo was still cold and hard to him.

"Is she the same as me?"

That's the last question he wanted the answer the most. Maw Oo pulled up beside the road as he was impatient with him.

"I have no idea what you are hoping for. But let me be clear, it's best for you not to expect anything from me. You are not the same as her. She is she and you are different."

Moistness took place in the eyes of Lyan Oo Nway. Why did he ask this question? How did he compare himself to someone like Mary? Maw Oo's words were true. It's not like saying something to hurt him. But why would his heart be so heavy and painful? No matter how much he changed, no matter how much he prepared, he was just a passer-by for Maw Oo Yan.

After removing the seat belt he fastened, he leaned on Maw Oo's neck and let his lips touch his. He wanted it too. He would go to the end until he got a clear decision from Maw Oo.

Maw Oo separated him by holding his shoulders. Then he looked straight into his eyes.

"It's enough. Stop doing meaningless things"

Maw Oo said that and drove the car down the road. Sitting on the side of the seat, Lyan Oo Nway sat with his body shriveled and tears were falling down on his cheeks. He wanted to be a girl for the first time in his life. To the point where Maw Oo couldn't feel ashamed for going out with him. To the point where he can brag about marrying him. He loved Maw Oo Yan to the extent that he even hated himself for being him.

When he got home, he didn't want to do anything. He hid his face above the bed and wept bitterly. Almost the whole heart was nearly bursting. He should have given freedom to Maw Oo from the beginning.

After a long time, Maw Oo entered the bedroom. Lyan Oo Nway turned to the other side and was quiet. As he laid down next to Lyan Lyan,he heard a dried voice.

"I love you. You might probably already knew it, I just wanted to tell you by myself"

The bedroom fell silent again and even the sound of the breath couldn't be heard.

"I.."

"I knew you didn't love me. As I won't ask for your love anymore, you don't need to be confused about that. I just… just want to let you know."

Maw Oo Yan gazed at the back which was trembling as he cried again. But he didn't say anything after all.

"But you let her touch you, why can't I touch you then? Will you divorce with me just like they say?"

Maw Oo turned to lie on Lyan Oo Nway's side and rested his head on one hand, looking at the small back, his mind became confused. The figure of Lyan Oo Nway was pitiful. Therefore, he held him by the shoulders and turned towards him. Then he met with the eyes that were filled with tears.

He covered those eyes with his one hand as he didn't dare to face those loving eyes.

"You are overthinking it."

"Then tell me. Didn't you want to marry me from the beginning, did you?"

Maw Oo Yan kept silent. There was no question that was difficult for him to answer before. But he couldn't answer his questions.

Lyan Oo Nway bit his lower lip and controlled himself as he was about to shout for crying. But the upper lip was touched by the moist and soft lips of the person who was in front of him. When he began to kiss him intoxicatedly again, he automatically followed where Maw Oo Yan led him.

He flinched slightly as Maw Oo's hand touched his chest as he had no big breasts like a woman. Every place on his body Maw Oo touched felt incomplete and he was nearly to shout out not to touch him.

After a round of pushing and pulling, they both sunk into passionate kissing and felt they couldn't get enough of each other. Maw Oo Yan pressed him down and kissed him continuously. He was like a doll which could fill a man's desire. No wonder that Maw Oo Yan had such a desire as he was a healthy young man. As Maw Oo Yan said he was okay with everyone. He felt such a relief that the one who was able to fulfill his desire was still him rather than others.

Maw Oo Yan bit along his neck with force and it made Lyan Oo Nway to moan in a low voice. Maw Oo Yan tried to have intercourse with him until his body got tired and weak. He just wanted to see him but Maw Oo covered his eyes with his hand. He could only feel Maw Oo's ragged breathing and his strength on his body.

When Maw Oo Yan finished what he wanted, the bed was empty again. Lyan Oo Nway kept his eyes on him as he left the bedroom after getting dressed. The aching heart was filled with hundreds of wounds of swords and blood. Even though his body didn't want to move an inch, he picked up the scattered clothes and put them in the basket where dirty clothes were to be washed. When he took a shower, only the marks left by Maw Oo Yan remained on his body. His eyes were lifeless like a doll.