Episode 18

Ava's Point Of View,

I am feeling so bad for Luke. I mean I should not have done that, so I just went to the bakery. I have to make it up to him. I know he would be really upset and mad at me. I just bought his favorite chocolate pastries and cookies. He really likes them so much. So I know if I want him to forgive me, these pastries are the key.

I smiled when I thought about him. I took a cab and made my way to my home. Soon I reached my home. My new home. No one knows my new home, or maybe some people know now but I know how to keep a low profile here.

So I am not really social with people here. Anyone barely knows me here. I do not talk to any neighbors but Luke and mom do not listen to me. They both have friends here, and I will not lie. I also have a friend but he is not from here. He is from my work and he is really like a true friend to me.

He always helped me out no matter what. He did not complain to me ever about anything. There was a time when I was so angry about myself and I used to be rude to him, but he did not get upset with me. He was always there for me to help and that is why I really love him as my best friend.

I just do not know what I would do if I would not meet him. I paid the cab driver and pressed the bell. Soon mom opened the door for me and thankfully she did not ask me where I was. Or else I just do not know how I would be able to lie to her face.

"Thank god you are back. He is awake again and crying for you", mom told me and I quickly removed my shoes and washed my hands, and made my way to my room before giving bags to my mom and asking her to serve them into the plate for him. I saw him on the bed, his hands were folded to his chest, his tiny hands. And he was looking down and I could hear his sobs and my heart cried in pain when I heard my baby's sob.

"Hey my baby, see, mom is back. Why my baby boy is crying like a girl, huh", I asked him and I was trying my best to encourage him, but I really do not know how he will react coz in all these four years.

I never left him alone for the night. It was the very first time when I was left alone at the night. He was so angry that he did not even look up. I slowly made my way to him and picked him in my arms. He is now four years old and I picked him in my arms a thousand times, but still, I feel magic every time I pick him up. This motherhood made me so different. I glow differently when he touches me.

"Luke baby, look at me. I have something for you, a surprise, remember how much you like surprises", I said and this time he slowly looked up and I saw tears in her cute, small eyes and I really felt so bad. He does not cry often, but when he gets hurt. He can not control his tears. He is just like me, seems like my genes are working with him already.

"I do not want anything from you, Mumma. You know that I do not sleep without you, but still, you left me alone. You know I was so scared and I called you so many times, but you did not pick up your call. I will not talk to you now", he said in his baby voice and honestly. I feel so blessed when he calls me Mumma. I feel like thank you so much, god, for giving me a cute little diamond. And no matter what will happen. I am willing to protect him to death. He is my baby after all.

"I am so sorry baby. Mumma was stuck somewhere, Mumma is really sorry. Can you please forgive Mumma this time", I tried to act like him. I know that he is so sensitive and his heart is so soft like mine. He will not stand it for long, he will be happy soon.

"But why you did not pick up my call Mumma, if you would have told me that you are stuck then I would not have cried for you", he was talking like an adult. He is sensitive by heart but he is actually smart. His teachers told me that he is smarter than other kids of his age and he asks questions sometimes teachers are not able to answer him. I am so glad that he is like this. I know how to make it for him.

"Baby, Mumma is really sorry, Mumma could not get time for calls, but now Mumma is promising Luke that she will not do it again. Now please baby. Forgive Mumma, or else Mumma will also cry like you", I tried to act like I am gonna cry now and now he was looking at me with his cute, teary eyes and I wiped his face.

"Mumma, you have to do a pinky swear", he asked me and offered me his tiny finger. I really want to laugh at his cuteness but my baby does not like it when someone laughs at him. So I controlled my laugh and offered my finger too.

"Done baby. It is a pinky swear. I will not do it again, and if Mumma will have any work then Mumma will call Luke and tell him that Mumma is busy. Then Luke will stay with grandma, okay? You also have to promise Mumma that you will not cry and play with grandma while mum would be at work", I just tried to do this because now he is growing up and I have to make him learn to stay without me sometimes if I am busy at work.

That does not mean that I will ever leave him alone. He is my heartbeat and there is no way that I could leave him alone ever. He did not get the love of his dad, but there is no way that he is gonna lose his mom. I will give him a lot of love that he will never ask about his dad. He will never know about it.