Episode 19

Ava's Point Of View,

"Surprise, surprise", mom walked into the room with a tray in her hands. I smiled at her but she was already smiling at my little baby.

"Wow, chocolate pastries and cookies", Luke said with excitement when he saw the mom with the tray. He got up from his seat and started jumping on the bed with his clapping hands.

"Luke slow down baby. You will feel like that, Slow down", I said but he shook his head and clapped again.

"Your Mumma bring it for you", mom told him and he looked at me with his cute smile.

"Mumma, you bring it for me", he asked me and I nodded my head and he just jumped on me and hugged me so tight with his tiny hands.

"Thank you so much, Mumma, you know how much I love them, they are my favorite", he said as he licked his lips and then he licked my cheeks and I just pulled him close to my face and kissed his cheeks.

"I know baby. I know you love them. That is why Mumma brought it for you. Do you want me to feed you", I asked him and he quickly nodded his head with excitement. I just took the tray from mom's hands. My mom was about to leave when I called her.

"Mom, I am so sorry for the last night. I really did not mean to make trouble for you, I know that it is not your responsibility and I was careless too, so I am really sorry for this", I said and she just came close to me and cupped my face like she always does.

"Ava, you know how much I love you and Luke. You do not have to say sorry to me. You are my family and I am so happy with him so you do not have to feel guilty about it. And it was the very first time when you did this, so I can not really blame you for this. I am sure you could have stuck with some work", mom said and I was just looking at her with wide eyes.

Why she is always nice to me? She never complains about anything I do. She is always understanding. I am blessed with everything in my life except love. That is the only pain I have.

"I love you, mom. I just love you so much. You are the best mom in the world", I said to her as she caressed my hair with love in her eyes.

"No Mumma. You are the best mum in the world", Luke said in his baby voice while I fed him the pastry. Mom and I both laughed at his cuteness but stopped instantly while he was glaring at us.

"Of course Ava. Luke baby is right. You are the best mom in the world", mom also acted up for him as he smiled at us and we both also smiled at him, after feeding him.

Mom left with the tray and I just do not know why but I was feeling so tired. I feel like I need some good rest. So I think I should not go to college today, so I thought that I should call the college and ask for a leave.

I pulled my phone out from my bag and I was about to dial a number but my phone started ringing with the same number, it was the call from the director and I just picked it up right away.

"Hello, good morning sir, I was about to call you", I said and got cut in the middle.

"Good to hear that miss Ava, but I would really like to ask you why you are not at college. The college needs you right now. The staff is vacant today, so you need to show up here right now", he yelled somehow and I just took a deep breath.

"Yes sir, sorry for the late. I will be there soon", I said and he hang up. I just laid on the bed and Luke just jumped on my stomach, but very gently. He knows that sometimes I feel pain.

"What happens, Mumma? Are you tired", he asked me, and I just do not know what to say about this but I just love his baby voice. He is so damn cute that sometimes I feel that what I will do if something happens to him.

"Yes baby, Mumma is really tired but have to go to work, college is calling me", I said dramatically and he just laughed a little.

"Then tell them that you are tired. How you will work when you are tired", he asked me as he cupped my face and then kissed my cheeks. His small lips cover my whole cheeks and that feels so cute.

"Aww, my baby. You know they pay me for work if I will not go, they will not pay me, and money is a really important baby. I want to give you the best future, so Mumma needs to work hard", I said and that is when I realized that what the fuck I am saying. How could I say such things to him?

"Mumma, that means you get tired because of me", he asked me and I instantly got up and picked him in my arms, and shook my head.

"No, no, no baby, that is not true and right now Mumma was talking nonsense, so ignore what Mumma said just now, okay? Mumma gets tired because Mumma is lazy and does not want to work, but you know we should work hard daily so that we would be fit and healthy when you will grow up.

You will also need to work hard to get your goals. You understand that baby. You are the love of my life", I said to him as I placed a lot of kisses on his cheeks and his head until he was laughing so hard. Soon he falls asleep in my arms and I was just looking at his cute and angelic face.

I am so blessed to have a baby like him. I was so messed up when I got to know that I am pregnant. That was the toughest time of my life. I was alone, having him in my belly. I did not have any idea what I am gonna do now, but god already planned everything for me and I am really happy that I did not give up on him.

"Ava, what happen, honey, you look tensed, is there anything bothering you, you know you can tell me", mom asked me. I just covered Luke with a quilt and got up from the bed and shook my head.

"Do not worry about me, mom. I am fine", I said and she was just looking at me.

"You do not look, fine honey. Tell me what happened", I just know it is pretty hard to hide anything from her. I know she could catch me anytime, so I just have to act like real.

"Mom, I am just tired and I need sleep but just got a call from the college and they said that they need me, so I just have to go now there", I lied to her and she caressed my hair.

"Aww, you chose to work there Ava. Did not I say that you are free to do anything and even I said that until Luke grows up? You can stay home but you said that you do not want to be a burden on me so you want to work, but here I am your mom and I am saying to you again that you can take a good rest at home. Just apply for leaves for some weeks and spend a good time with Luke and me. what says", she was looking at me with hope in her eyes but there is no way that they will give me leave for weeks, and also I do not want to feel the pain. If I will be free at home, then I will think about him and my heart will cry for him again. So for this time. I need to work so that I could forget him for a temporary time at least.

"Mom, you know that I started working there just a little time ago, do you want me to lose this job too, and also after college I stay with Luke and you? So there is no need to take leave. You know that I need a distraction. So let it be mom. I just love you so much and I love Luke, and I am happy with it", I said. I saw that wave of sadness in my mom's eyes but I did not say anything to her.

I know she would be feeling sad because I did not do what she said but I really want this. I am doing fine with what is going on, so what mom said is really not necessary. I saw mom sitting beside the sleeping Luke and slowly started caressing his hair.

I just took my clothes and made my way to the bathroom. I took a hot shower. I looked at myself in the mirror. Once again my whole body was covered with the marks he gave me the last night. I really did not expect that I will get them anytime soon.

I touched a mark and I moaned in pain. I felt like he was still touching me and kissing me. It is like I could still feel his touch. It is crazy, right? I had sex with him after four fucking years. I did not let any man close to me. And now I let him fuck me when he is the reason for my pain. I know I messed up big time, after what happened last night. I am very sure that he will not leave any single chance to come close to me. And I just really do not know how I will manage it.