I am not gay, I like just him !

And we left for the court.

I know he have something going on in his mind and he'll ask me.

But I couldn't keep my finger at it.

And he didn't made me wait too long and on our way to the court, he asked me what was bugging him !

" By the way tell me something, how do you feel when some guy hits on you ?

I mean like.... "

Jules said uncertain of his choice of words.

" Hmmmmm.

Someone is getting curious, huh ? "

I said.

So this is what bugging him !

" Cut the crap and tell me. "

Jules said getting impatient.

" Well, it feels good.

I mean who doesn't likes to be admired ?

And when someone so beautiful and so handsome hits on you, you feel proud of yourself !

I mean in the surrounding full of so much more attractive people, someone finds YOU sexy !

Boss that's the thing you must be proud of yourself. "

I said with a smirk.

He didn't said anything just smiled at me.

" Few of them are so handsome...

I feel like....

Doing something nasty ! "

I said winking at him meaningfully.

" Have you done it ? "

Jules asked curiously.

What ?

Does he knows about it ?

Why is he asking that ?

" What ?

No, no !

Ofcourse not.

I am not into guys Jules, you know that !

Then why would you... "

I said getting uneasy at the thought of getting caught.

" Tell me the truth, drama queen !

You can lie in the court room, but not infront of me !

I promise I won't tell anyone. "

Jules said seriously.

Yeah, I know that !

Shall I tell him ?

Or....

May be I can trust him a bit.

" Ok, fine !

I have kissed a guy !

Just kiss.

And that too because I was drunk and he misused the situation ! "

I said telling him half lie.

" Is that so ? "

He said and cocked his head uncertainty.

" You are still lying, Lauren !

Tell me the truth.

I may be the judge but I promise, I won't judge you on this ! "

Jules said genuinely.

Yeah, I know that too !

Ok, I'll tell him.

" Ok fine !

You know that Mathew is gay, right ? "

I started the story.

" Uh-huh, yup. "

Jules said getting curious.

And here it goes...

" He is the member of the Rainbow gay club !

Once he took me there.

And I was curious about it so, I went willingly.

There we mate Charles.

And man, he was handsome !

He was pure beauty.

He had his body hardened naturally and not in gym, like us !

He was working with a small metal recycling company, which breaks the Iron things with man power and then use the machines. "

I told him slowly.

He noded acknowledging my words.

"When I entered the club, I had in my mind that everyone there is gonna think I am gay just like them; except for those who know me and that was only Mathew !

Charles came towards us and started talking to Mathew.

I was enjoying my drink.

He offered me a drink and I didn't refused it.

Mathew told me he was hitting on me and if I don't wanna get me ass sore or something like that, I shouldn't accept his offer.

But I actually kinda developed a short and quick crush on him, so I didn't listened to Mathew and accepted his drink.

While we were talking, I told him me not being gay and came here just out of curiosity.

He was ok with it. "

I said remembering the moment.

" After a few drinks, he started flirting with me. And you know like I said, I have grown used to talk using cheesy names and softly.

So, when he started flirting with me, I flirted back unintentionally.

And I was kinda started liking it.

We were chatting when, Mathew found someone who he wanted to bang for the whole night.

So he asked me, if I want to leave with him ? "

I said.

Jules briefly looked at me.

" I was about to say yes, but Charles kept his hand over mine and made a puppy face for I leaving him so soon.

He promised he won't do anything off the limit with me and so I asked Mathew to leave and I'll leave after sometime ! "

I said.

Jules's sparkled at my words and excitement flooded his face to know what happened.

" Then what happened ? "

He asked.

He talked for the first time after we left the home. Curiosity got the best of him.

" We were talking and I craked some lame joke, none of you laughed at !

But he was laughing at it with his whole heart.

So I craked another one.

I didn't realised that, he was coming closer with each joke.

At the final one he came so close, I could feel his breath on mouth.

He was smelling great.

His smell was driving me crazy.

His natural scent and not some perfume !

He locked his gaze into my eyes and held me there without any rope.

He grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me a bit closer and pressed his lips to mine. "

A paused for a bit and closed my eyes and sighed at the memory of his soft lips.

Jules wanted to know the remaining story.

" Don't taste my patience drama queen !

Just tell me what happened then ? "

He said impatiently.

I am proud of my storytelling skills !

" He then, pulled away and was observing my reaction.

I was so shocked, I couldn't think anything.

I didn't know what was happening.

And it felt good.

It wasn't disgusting as I thought it might be !

He caressed my face and leaned in again and kissed me.

My heart started beating fast and I could hear it in my ears.

I gave up and returned his kiss. "

I said.

My lips curved into a smile on their own at the memory.

This time though Jules was impatient, he gave me a moment of mine to enjoy the memory.

I opened my eyes and continued.

" But then, he started to reach for my pants and my brain suddenly restarted and I pushed him away and ran out ot the club.

I never went back there.

But yes, I do miss him sometimes ! "

I said.

And I am not lying at missing him part !

" Hm, interesting !

Are you still in contact with him ? "

Jules asked.

" No.

I feel guilty.

I should have stopped in the beginning itself.

But I let him go on and then ran away !

I should have at least wished him a proper good bye, he deserved that.

But, me ?

I ran away like a coward.

Why ?

Because it became too much for me to handle it ! He deserved better, much better. "

I said.

" Yup he did !

Is this why you don't have any girlfriend ? "

Jules said suddenly.

" Excuse me ?

If I started to tell you the names of the girls I have been with, you'll forget the counting, dude !

Ha ha. "

I said.

" I was talking about girlfriend; not about the fuck toys you and Derek bring home every night. "

Jules said seriously and getting upset.

" What's the difference in that ?

In the end all of them end up in the bed getting fucked like the toys !

Then.. "

I said proving my point.

" You are wrong, bro !

I am talking Girlfriend as in partner.

Someone who, shares everything happened with her in the whole day.

Someone who, takes your worries away.

Someone who when, keeps her head on our chest makes us feel like you are holding the world in your arms.

Someone with whom, you can share your deepest and darkest secrets without any fear of being judged.

Someone whom you never want to loose ever. Someone when you look at her sleeping, your heart feels full by just having her next to you and your eyes shade tears because of it; without even realising it !

I am taking about that kind of girlfriend. "

Jules said explaining himself.

" Oh my god, Jules !

Are you some kind of poet ?

Those were very beautiful lines; but darling I don't want that kind of girlfriend !

I love myself more than anyone in this world.

I can't have someone in my bed to look at her, I can't have any head on my chest at all.

I don't like the layers of make up on my chest !

I don't cry bro, ever.

And you know that !

I don't trust anyone other than myself for my secrets.

And boy, I am not at all interested to listen to some nonsense babbling of some stupid girl about what happened with her !

I have much more important things to do than, to listen to her.

Like, tearing her clothes and sucking at her..... "

I said imagining the scene.

" Ugh !

Enough !

We are here. "

Jules said almost disgusted with my thinking.

" You are talking that, because you haven't came across the right girl yet, Lauren.

And I promise, when you'll find her, you'll remember my words !

And this applies to Derek too, bro.

Just wait for the right girl and you'll feel all of these.

Now, get the hell out of my car and don't show me your face till it's time to go home. "

Jules said shoving me away.

I got off the car.

" Yeah, yeah whatever.

Bye bye, love.

I'll wait for the day to end. "

I said winking at him.

He is definitely out of his mind !

That's never gonna happen in my and Derek's life; ever !