Making love to me

Oh god, what was that !

Something came to me and I knocked at his bathroom door.

I could have waited but I didn't !

And thank god I didn't !

That was something else and out of the world for me.

He is so huge !

I've never had anything that big inside me.

I know I mustn't compare anyone for anything at all; but Derek is by far the most huge guy to have me !

And I enjoyed my time with him.

The way he entered inside me without letting me think about that was so incredible.

I really didn't felt that much pain what I thought.

He is so skillful.

He remembered what my fantasy was and did the same I'd told him back then !

He fucked my brains out.

He took me up against the wall, on the sink counter and in the SHOWER !

He even helped me talking bath and clean my body up.

I loved the way he took me.

He fucked me but...

He didn't kissed me or hugged me after we were done !

He didn't touched me nor did let me touch him ! What the hell was that ?

He fucked me and left me there like, I was some whore he fucked and left her there without even looking back at her !

Just that, he didn't paid me and didn't threw money at my face or at my feet !

I never felt this humiliated ever in my life !

How could he do tha...

Ohhhh...

Yes sure, he have history with so many girls...

OH FUCK OFF !

I am not like those girls who would stay at his feet and on at his mercy not mattering how he treats them !

He mustn't have done that.

It was so humiliating !

He left me there in the bathroom and stepped out and when I didn't went outside, he came back and peeked in,

" What ?

Wanna spend the rest of the night in here ? "

Derek said sarcastically.

It hurt me so much.

Firstly, he treated me like I was some trash and now he didn't even bothered to take me with him ?

I had to splash handful of water on my face and press my eyes to not let him know they tried to shed tears.

I went out and dried my wet hair.

I was still in my robe and I guess, I have no intention to take it off.

He removed his robe which was hiding his sexy and sinful body and my body betrayed me !

Just now I felt humiliated by this man standing infront of me and now, I am staring at his naked body shamelessly ?

He didn't said anything and layed down on the bed.

After drying my hair, I joined him as well in the bed.

I ran my fingers across his naked torso and felt his body tensing up at my touch.

He closed his eyes and placed his palms beneath his head,

" Go to sleep girl.

You need it ! "

Derek said without looking at me.

FUCK YOU !

I know what I need and it's YOU INSIDE ME !

Who are you to decide for me what do I need and what not ?

He got on my nerves.

Pissed and humiliated, I turned my back on him and tried to sleep, but I couldn't !

And I don't know after how long, I felt something warm and wet on me.

Some sucking sound.

And my body started squirming.

It was feeling so good.

I opened my eyes to see him kissing my stomach and chest.

" Hey sleeping beauty, enough sleep for now. Time to have some fun ! "

Derek said winking wickedly.

My robe was gone and he crawled over my body and kissed me so intensely all over my lips, my neck, my boobs and sucked them getting me ready for him immediately.

His touch made me forget how he treated me earlier and I got lost in his touch.

Once he made sure I was ready, he was inside me !

And it wasn't painful this time.

I was enjoying myself way too much and moaning too loud.

He had to place his hand over my mouth to keep me from screaming too loud !

God he feels very good inside me.

I scratched his back and dug my nails into his shoulder when I released my tension all over him.

We were out of breath when I finished and I noticed, he haven't had his release yet.

What about him ?

I asked him about it and he said,

" Oh, I intend to get my release baby, but not in a conventional way !

And we have all night to us, love.

We don't need to hurry.

It's just after the midnight sugar and my stamina is still intact !

I can fuck you till the sun rise if, you and your sinful body could take it ! "

Derek said smirking wickedly.

His words only were enough to get me ready. And..

Wait...

What does he mean by not in a conventional way ?

As if he got my unasked question, he licked my stomach and flipped me on the bed and pinned me there flat on my stomach.

He massaged my hips and licked and sucked on it.

" I am gonna get my release in your another hole sweetness ! "

Derek wispered in my ear.

What ?

Does he...

Wait...

Does he means to have my ass ?

Oh my fucking god !

His huge thickness doesn't bother me anymore but...

In the ass ?

Is he planning on killing me ?

It hurted so much for the first time.

But there ?

And the only person I had in there is Lauren and he isn't this big !

That hurted me back then, so how bad Derek would hurt me in there !

The mere thought of him being inside of me there made my body shudder hard and I started shaking uncontrollably with the fear.

" Hey, hey love, relax !

I am not gonna hurt you baby.

Calm down !

I know what are you thinking about.

But don't worry and trust me.

I've got you.

I swear we'll stop if, it becomes unbearable or uncomfortable for you. "

Derek said assuring me.

He kissed all of my bare back and lingered for too long on my neck and getting me ready slowly. While he kissed me all over he let his fingers had their way with my ass and started playing with it.

Tracing them all over, pushing them in and out. And when they started moving easily in and out of me, he picked up the pace and fingered me till I got my release.

His fingers felt so good in me.

Much more pleasurable than I thought !

Then he got up and got some bottle with him.

I don't know what it was but when he opened it, a very pleasant and arousing aroma filled my nose. I couldn't see exactly what he was doing, as I was facing away from him.

But from the notices I caught, I think he poured it. And yes, he poured it on his hands and applied it to my hole.

While applying it, he again got his fingers in. And... Fuck...

What the fuck...

Why can't I...

I can't feel his fingers...

What the hell is going on...

He understood my reaction,

" Relax, love.

This is a numbing lube.

It won't let you feel anything at all when I'll enter your tight hole.

And after some time, it's effect will fade and you'll enjoy your fucking ! "

Derek said softly.

What ?

Is he serious ?

But what if...

What ?

He is already inside me ?

How is...

I am not sure he is or not but he grabbed my hips and my body is moving back and forth.

He has his hand on my back and one on my shoulder.

Yes, definitely he is fucking me, I can now hear the slamming sound.

And fuck...

" Oh fuck...

Oh my god...

Ohh... Ohhh...

This feels...

Ohhh...

Incredible...

Oh Derek... "

I moaned.

" Yeah baby, I know...

Ugh...

I've started feeling it too.

Shit baby, you are so tight...

And oh yes it feels like heaven !

Oh...

I don't know how long would I last in here...

Oh baby... "

Derek grunted.

" Yes, yes, baby...

I am close too...

Oh...

It feels too good... "

And after few thrusts we both had our release. When we caught our breath, he turned me around and kissed me all over my stomach and chest.

" Oh, love.

I just love your body.

This tiny lill stomach asks for attention and your boobs...

Fuck they are incredible !

I am always hungry for them baby. "

He said it and started sucking on them for what felt like an eternity.

And I am shocked at my needy and hungry body and the amount of LUST I have for Derek !

I never thought I would be this hungry for him ! After he feasted on my boobs, he went for my neck and at the same time got inside me !

And he fucked me for so long that I orgasmed 6 times in a row and yet he didn't stopped taking me !

It was feeling out of the world and I can't describe the feeling but it was awesome !

And as much as I loved it, my body couldn't take anymore.

And I gathered all the energy left in me to whisper to him,

" I... I... Can't...

I can't...

Oh Derek...

I can't take any...

Anymore...

Fuck... I...

I am so...

sensitive...

Oh my god... "

He understood what I wanted to tell him and he made it quick and has his release as well and finally came to a stop.

My body was shaking too much and I couldn't control myself.

He caressed my face and stomach.

And when my body calmed down, he pressed his lips to my forehead...

Oh god...

I almost had an orgasm with that !

This gesture was so sweet...

My stupid eyes couldn't keep the water inside ! He kissed my tears off my cheeks and kissed my cheeks and nose and chin.

He showered me with soft and quick kisses that felt so so good.

He rolled off me on the bed on his side facing me and pulled me into his strong arms and wrapped them around me and squeezed me.

He then lifted my face to his and kissed my lips so sweetly and softy, it again made my eyes water.

I don't know why was I crying.

He looked concerned and wiped my tears off my face with thumbs,

" What's wrong, love ?

Why are you crying ?

Did I hurt you that much ?

Oh my poor baby...

I am so sor... "

Derek wispered but I didn't let him finish his line and sealed his lips with mine.

He kissed me back and when we pulled away he was looking upset with himself to make me cry.

" I am so sorry, sweetness.

I just lost my mind and got carried away and pushed you beyond your limits and gave you so much more than you could take...

I am such a stupid... "

I placed my fingers over his lips to make him shut his mouth.

I nuzzled my face at his chest and wrapped my arms around him tightly.

" Don't apologize, baby.

I am alright.

You didn't hurt me... "

" Yeah sure and that's why you are crying, right ?

I am... "

" Oh shut up, drama queen !

You didn't hurt me.

I loved every moment of you touching me in every way.

It's just that, it was so good...

I couldn't stop my tears leave my eyes.

It was way too good.

I had never felt anything like that before.

It was so overwhelming and that's why...

By the way, why didn't you kissed me after bathing me ? "

I finally asked it.

" I wanted you to rest well before I do what I had planned in my mind !

And if, I had kissed you or let you kiss me then, I would have ended up taking you again.

And I didn't wanted to exhaust you too much !

You said you wanted to be fucked all night long... and so I decided to give you a short break before destroying you again.

I am sorry, I know I made you feel rejected and humiliated...

But it was necessary for you, sugar.

Please forgive me ? "

Derek said innocently making a puppy face.

" Oh my god...

Such a stupid ass I am !

I am so sor... "

I couldn't say anything anymore and started crying as I remembered what I thought then.

He stopped because he wanted to let me rest and I ?

Oh my god...

What will he think of me if, he get to know what I thought about him ?

Fuck !

" Hey...

Oh please baby, don't cry...

I can't see you cry love...

I am so sorry...

Why are you crying ?

Please tell me the truth.

Have I...

Yeah, definitely I have hurted you and you are so sore because of my animalistic behaviour with you...

What was I even thinking ?

My god... I...

I am so sorry love if you want, I won't ever touch you again and... "

Derek was feeling so guilty thinking he have hurt me.

What ?

He won't ever touch me again ?

And why the fuck he would do that ?

I grabbed his face and kissed him so hard it started hurting my lips, but I didn't let his lips go and he accepted my kiss but didn't returned it.

Oh god, have I fucked up this much ?

I must tell him why am I crying or he would blame himself and really won't touch me ever again.

And I don't want it to happen...

Hell no !

I pulled away and sat up on the bed.

He too did the same.

I faced away from him.

I couldn't tell him what I thought, looking into his eyes !

" Ash, what's wrong ?

Why aren't you looking at me ? "

Derek asked feeling guilty.

He caressed my shoulders.

I wanted to melt in his touch, but my confession was the important thing at the moment.

I sucked in a long breath,

" I need to tell you something, Derek.

I am feeling too guilty and need to confess it to you ! "

I wispered.

" What happened ? "

Derek said confused.

" Please forgive me, Derek.

I didn't thought why would you have done what you have done and I drew the conclusion what I felt ! "

I said embarrassed.

" What are you talking about, baby ?

I am not getting anything at all. "

Derek said confused.

" I asked you just now, why didn't you kissed me after bathing me, because...

I felt something wrong when you didn't then... "

I said slowly.

" What did you thought ? "

Derek asked.

" I... I...

Felt rejected and...

It made me feel like...

You...

You treated me like some...

Whore whom you fucked and...

Left without looking back... "

I wispered feeling embarrassed.

When he didn't responded I apologized.

" I...

I am sorry Derek...

I...

I... Shouldn't have...

But it...

I was... I... "

" Wha...

What ! "

Derek shrieked in shock.

" Please forgive me... "

I couldn't control myself and started crying.

I couldn't say a single word anymore.

I dared a glance back over my shoulder to see him shocked and he was shaking.

Was he that angry with me ?

Why wouldn't he ?

I declared him a Casanova and said that, he made me feel like a whore!

He tried to say something but he couldn't.

I fucked up, so I must try to get it on track.

I turned around and took him in my arms.

I told myself if, he refuses to get touched, you must leave your self-respect at the feet and make him feel good.

And I was sure he is gonna slap my hands and push me away.

But to my surprise, when I hugged him, he pulled me in closer and tighter.

I was so relieved and pulled him even closer to me.

I felt wetness on my shoulder !

What ?

Is he...

God, is he crying ?

I tried to push him away a bit so that, I could see what was happening.

But he didn't let me get away.

And I didn't needed to see his face to know he was crying because, his voice told me everything.

He talked to me and his voice was shaking too much.

" I...

I am so very sorry love, to make you feel that way. I didn't...

I didn't meant to make you feel like...

I am so sorry...

I should have told you...

I am...

Please forgive me, love...

I really...

Trust me baby, I didn't wanted to make you feel that way...

I could never...

I am... "

He was sniffing and shaking.

I didn't found words to console him and so I kept quiet.

" Fuck !

What have I done...

Please, please please love, please forgive me...

I could live with anything but you feeling that way...

I am...

So sorry...

I just wanted you to... "

Derek started crying.

" Please baby, stop crying.

Let me look at you.

Please, I am not going anywhere.

Just let me hold your face, baby. "

I tried to convince him.

I too started crying.

He let loose his grip around me and I looked at him, crying.

I wiped his tears off with my lips.

And he won't look in my eyes !

HE wasn't the one guilty here, but ME !

And he is the one acting like ?

That's too bad !

I grabbed his face in my hands and tried to make him look in my eyes, but he won't look.

And I am not that strong to make him do it on my own !

" Look baby, you are too strong for me to make you do what I want you to !

So, please co-operate with me and please look at me.

Please, Derek !

It's MY fault and I am feeling guilty already, please don't do this and make me feel like shit more.

Please ? "

I said crying.

He slowly looked at me.

And had a very apologetic look at his face.

It broke my heart to see him like that !

And who is responsible for it, ME !

I moved forward and sat on his lap, cradling him with my legs on either side of his hips.

I grabbed his face and wiped his tears and kissed him so slowly.

He grabbed my waist with one hand and placed other on my shoulder and crushed me onto him and kissed me back.

And that made me feel relieved.

He isn't mad at me and WILL touch me again ! Thank god.

I ran my fingers in his hair and moved to his neck and licked and sucked there.

He placed his hand on my neck and pressed my face to his neck more.

I started whispering to him,

" Please, forgive me Derek.

I was so stupid to think that about you.

I know thinking that about you would have broken your heart, but please forgive me.

I can't take you be mad at me and never talking to me again.

I swear, I won't do such stupidity ever again. Please, forgive me ! "

He breathed out on my neck making me shiver and raising goosebumps all over me.

I tighten my hold on him.

He moved his hand back on my shoulder and grabbed me tightly and turned and placed me on the bed and hovered over me.

He kissed my forehead and few tears again left my eyes and I didn't even tried to stop them.

He ran his hand on the side of my face and called my name so affectionately,

" Ashley... "

He dragged his lips along my jaw and rubbed his hardness against me and I sucked my breath hard and closed my eyes in anticipation.

He grabbed my knees and pushed them towards my chest and nailed his knees on either side of my hips.

He slowly and gently entered inside me.

I gasped at his enterence and wrapped my fingers on his shoulders and pressed them hard there.

He started moving very slowly in and out of me. While he moved so slowly and gently, he kept kissing me.

He didn't increased his pace even for once.

And it was feeling so so so good.

He placed his hand on my head and dragged other along my arm and tangled his fingers with mine and placed our hands to the side of my head.

He blew my curls off my face which were blocking his way to look into my eyes.

He kissed me on my forehead and didn't stopped his train of kissing me all over.

He moved to my cheeks and chin and my jaw. Moved to my neck and along the collar bone.

He pressed his lips into the valley between my breasts and then, he feasted on my boobs so slowly and lovingly.

Sucking them, pecking them, nibbling on them making my back arch and feeding them to him even more.

He just knows how to make me feel so good and him as well in the same go.

He still didn't increased his pace and fuck I don't even want him to.

I was enjoying what was going on way too much to ask him to go faster.

He finally came to my lips and didn't kissed me.

Without stopping his slow and deep thrusts he wispered onto my lips,

" Forgive me too baby.

I knew it was gonna make you feel rejected and humiliated and yet I didn't go and tell you why was I doing that.

Trust me baby, you are too precious for me !

I can never treat you like what you thought.

You aren't some one night stand for me to treat you like that !

You are the one, I want to wake up next to every morning. "

Derek wispered softly and lovingly.

Oh my god this was feeling so good.

His slow love making and his sweet confession.

He then, moved his lips off mine and started kissing me between his words all over the available and in reach area of my body to his lips. It was feeling so good I closed my eyes to absorb the feel.

" Look at me, love.

I want you to look me in the eye while I make love to you... "

Derek wispered softly kissing my eyes.

I forced my eyes to open and look into his.

He continued his slow movements in and out of me along with his sweet words.

" I can't explain what you are to me, baby !

I want to keep you only to me.

Take care of you.

Spoil you.

Make love to you and even fuck your brains out !

Sleep next to you and open my eyes in the morning to you sleeping next to me breathing peacefully like a child !

You are too special for me to treat you like trash. I'd rather die than treating you like that, love.

I could never be like that to you...

My love... "

Derek wispered genuinely.

Ohhhh my god...

Fuck...

His words...

I am so close...

And I...

I...

This orgasm is going to be the best of my life !

I am feeling it growing inside and I don't want to scream or yell like the other times.

I want his lips on mine and silently let it out of me.

" Oh Derek...

You are gonna make me cry again.

But this time they would be happy tears !

I...

I am gonna...

It feels so...

Good...

Please kiss me,

Derek...

Mmm... "

I didn't had to ask twice for it.

He kissed me so sweetly and passionately, deep and sucking and nibbling my lower lip in between his lips and teeth.

I felt myself on the edge of bursting.

I dug my nails on his shoulder blades.

He thrusted few times and I orgasmed just as I wanted to.

No screaming my lungs out !

Just shaking in his arms as he kept me closer to him.

I called his name just before feeling the fluid rushing out of me.

And it felt so nice.

He too reached his orgasm and then he kissed my forehead and my lips for a very long time.

He pulled me closer to him and cuddled up with me.

He told me once that he only had fucked girls for his pleasure and nothing else.

the hard and animalistic fucking hard and fast and no softness involved !

He also told me that fucking and making love are two different things !

And just now what he did was making love !

He said we can fuck anyone, but we make love to the only person we love !

So, does that mean, he loves me ?

I was so exhausted, I fell asleep thinking about it without even realising it !