Out of the world proposal

I was so worried that, Jules saw me and Dominic kissing this morning.

He locked himself in his room and that sacred the hell out of me.

I tried so hard to make him open the door, but he didn't !

Later he brought me coffee and was acting normal like nothing happened.

And even at the dinner table, he talked with Dominic as usual; I guess more than he usually does.

But when, we went to my room, he was clinging to me more than he ever does.

He usually doesn't like touching unnecessarily, like the others !

But his behaviour was a bit different; not that I disliked it but it was different.

He wispered he loves me while he was making love to me so softly and gently.

I was shocked.

Not that I haven't thought it would come to this someday, but I don't have any answer or anything particular to do or say.

What should I say to him ?

He said he loves me many times and asked me to tell him that I love him as well and that he knows I do, just want to listen it from me.

I couldn't say it and I told him so !

He suddenly started saying weird things to me.

I was silent till he brought my Mom between.

He didn't had to do that.

Why would he insult my Mom by calling her a whore ?

He was suggesting that word for ME then, why bring my Mom ?

He have no right to insult her that way !

What does he know about her ?

She did what needed to be done, to survive and try to get my custody to her !

He insulting my Mom got on my nerves and I lost my mind.

I pushed him away and out of my room...

THEIR room.

This isn't MY room !

They gave me this out of SYMPATHY for a homeless poor girl who has by attacked by a bastard again and again !

After throwing him out of my room, I jumped on the bed on my stomach and cried out loud.

I was feeling so insulted and hurt !

Out all of them, I least expected this from JULES ! He is the one who was always there for me, nerve doing anything to hurt me, even without knowing.

He was always there for me, taking my side everytime !

And HE did this to me !

It really broke my heart.

He didn't made love to me neither he fucked me, he was PUNISHING me for being in bed with other guys as well.

He called me a whore !

How could he...

And if he did, why am I feeling INSULTED ?

Didn't I considered that word for myself earlier ? Haven't I even told this to Mom ?

Then when, he said it why do I feel insulted ?

I sat up on the bed and wiped my tears.

I thought about it.

I have been betraying everyone one of them !

Though, he said they all know it, but it isn't ME who told them that !

Either I should tell them that; which I have no GUTS to admit it to them or...

I should leave !

I know it is running away from the problems rather than facing it, but I don't have the courage to accept it and face them !

I better leave.

Today it was Jules who confessed his love, FOUR more to go !

What would I do when they too would expect me to tell them I love them as much as they do ?

And I can't...

I can never choose any ONE of them !

I love them all the same !

If they asked me to choose any one of them, I'd rather die than choosing any one among them !

I can't do that.

How could I choose to have any one point of the star I hold dear the most ?

I want the star to be whole and soul !

The star won't shine if, it is incomplete !

And I can't live with the incomplete star.

If, somehow I managed to choose one, which I can never; I won't be completely happy with the one I've chose !

I would miss the others as well and this would be unfair for the one I chose.

I can't do that either !

Best thing, leave right now !

Now that Michael is dead, there is no fear for me to wander around.

I'd call Mom and ask her to take me with her.

Determined, I got up and packed a bag as fast as I could, taking only the most important things with me.

I have a little amount of savings, as these guys didn't let me spend a penny when I was with them ever !

I took it and I decided to go to my friend for the night and first thing to do in morning would be calling Mom to come here and take me with her as, I don't have that much money to purchase a ticket to Russia !

It's pretty early in the morning and I am sure, everyone would be sleeping and I can leave without making any noise.

I left a note at my dressing table, telling them that I am with my Mom.

She wanted me to stay with her and I couldn't deny.

And I'll miss them all so much.

And thanking them for whatever they've done for me.

It would had been difficult for me to leave if, they were there when, I left so I had to leave without telling them in person !

When I reached down in living room, I was shocked to see everyone present there as if, they had sensed that I would leave like this !

" What are you guys doing here this late ? "

I asked shocked.

" Before that, answer me where do you think YOU are going this late with this bag with you ? "

Cole asked.

I hid the bag behind me.

I know it is useless to hide it now they've seen it yet, I hid it.

I looked into the room.

Everyone was present there, except for Jules ! Suddenly a horror crept me !

I was so scared not to see him there,

" Where...

Where is Jules ? "

I asked horrified.

" What do you think ? "

Derek asked coldly.

" You...

You did not hurt him, did you ? "

I asked more horrified at Derek's reply.

" Again, what do you think ? "

Lauren asked coldly.

" Stop asking such stupid questions in response to my questions !

Answer me, where is he and have you hurted him ? "

I asked impatiently.

" Yes, I did ! "

Cole said with anger.

There was no regret in his voice, which sent cold shivers down my spine !

This was dangerous.

Did he...

No, he can't hurt him to...

But the look on his face is telling me that he could have !

" Where is he ? "

I asked.

" You still are worried about HIM ?

After he insulted you and your Mom ?

After he hurted you emotionally and physically ? "

Dominic fumed.

Fuck !

Jules didn't told this guys EVERYTHING, did he ?

Is he insane ?

Why did he had to do that ?

How badly Cole might have beaten him after listening to that !

" What ?

You...

Don't taste my patience guys, tell me where is he ?

I need to see him ! "

I said impatiently.

I almost chocked on my words while imagining what could he had done to him ?

Because I know when it comes to me, Cole becomes the beast he pretends to be; for real !

Dominic took me to his room and everyone followed us.

Dominic opened the door and Jules was laying on his bed.

Seeing him like that, my senses became slow and the bag from my hand fell on ground on it's own. He looked at me and turned his face away, the guilt visible on his face from distance !

I almost ran to him.

I ran my hand over his head and he slowly turned towards me, with tears in his eyes, like he was crying for a very long time.

He sat up on the bed wincing at the pain with every move he made.

I reached my hand and barely touched his wound at his face and he hissed with pain.

I immediately pulled my hands back.

Watching him cry, I was crying as well.

He wiped my tears.

I again reached my hands to cup his face, but the thought of hurting him made me stop mid-way. He grabbed my hands and placed on his face.

" I am...

I am so sorry, honey.

Please forgive me... "

He couldn't talk properly as he was crying.

He was badly hurt, but he was in better condition than I thought and that was a relief for me !

" Don't you forgive him, kitten !

He doesn't deserves it ! "

Cole said trying to provoke me.

" I know, I don't deserve it !

But baby, you have to forgive me.

Because if, you didn't I'd die without you ! "

Jules said crying.

" Doing such a horrible thing to her and still expecting...

No DEMANDING forgiveness from her ? "

Derek said disgusted.

" I am so sorry for behaving like an animal with you, honey.

I didn't do it on purpose !

I didn't intended to hurt you...

But I got very possessive about you and I... "

Jules said embarrassed for what he did.

" Don't fall for his honey trap, love.

He is trying to manipulate you with his tears and emotional speech ! "

Lauren said getting mad.

" I know me telling you that, whatever I done was very impulsive and wrong, I wasn't being myself, I had lost my mind; none of it can justify what I did.

But trust me, darling it's the truth !

Please, please, please baby, please forgive me.

I never intended to hurt you in any way possible.

I assure you, it'll never happen again.

Please give me one last chance and I shall not let you regret it !

One last chance honey, please ? "

Jules said helplessly pleading me to forgive him.

He was crying so much.

Though, I was feeling very bad for him, yet I was feeling amused seeing him like this.

I wanted to grab him and hug him very tight to me.

But I need to leave before I get overwhelmed !

" I forgive you, Jules.

I was mad for a moment, because you insulted my Mom.

But I am alright now and I've forgiven you.

Now, stop crying. "

I said.

I wiped his tears and kissed his forehead and stood up and grabbed my bag.

As I was about to leave the room someone caught my arm,

" Where do you think you are going now ? "

Derek asked.

" I am leaving...

Leaving this city and your lives to make you happy.

And...

Don't worry, I won't come back and...

Make any one of yours life difficult... "

I said choking on my words as my eyes were starting to betray me.

" I am going to slap you so hard if, you ever said anything like that again !

And I won't even care how bad it would hurt you then, understand ? "

Cole said.

" No, I don't !

And I don't even want to understand.

But you guys try to understand what I have to say.

As you have beaten him this bad and I heard relative words, I am assuming you know exactly what happened and what he said to me !

And considering that, I don't want this to happen ever again !

I don't want anyone else among you to be at the place where Jules is right now !

Because, I can't...

I can't choose any one of you...

So, better...

I leave ! "

I said.

" Shut the fuck up !

What do you think of yourself, huh ?

You would enter our lives.

Shake it inside out.

Make us a whole different person and leave us like we are some trash ?

No, miss !

Not happening.

Never ! "

Lauren said crossing his arms.

" Why don't you guys understand ?

I can't be you guys anymore.

I don't want you to be fighting over me !

You guys are together since forever and I don't want your bond to be disturbed and worse, the reason being ME !

I'd rather die than... "

Dominic placed his fingers over my lips from stopping me to say anything anymore.

" Shut up !

You are imagining things and taking decision accordingly !

Nothing would happen to our bond... "

Dominic said softly.

" I am not imagining things, Dominic.

I've experienced it !

Everytime any one touches me, the others get jealous !

And if I continued to stay here, this is going to get worse.

I want to be with YOU; but, I want you ALL TOGETHER and that's not possible ! "

I said finally what was on my mind and bothering me for forever now !

Anyway I am leaving so, better tell them what I feel for them; all of them.

" Why not ?

Why is it impossible to stay together ?

Aren't we staying together like forever now ? "

Cole said.

" And what's the outcome of it ?

Jules becoming possessive and wanting to keep me all to himself ?

He...

wanting me to confess as he did ?

You...

You beating Jules this bad ?

What else do you want to happen, because of... me ? "

I couldn't stop my tears and my voice was shaking and I was chocking at my words.

Cole took me into his arms and tried to calm me down.

It was feeling safe there, but I must resist the temptation to hug him back, as I won't be getting this form now on.

I got out of his embrace,

" Guys, you Have to let me go !

This can't work between us ! "

I said sadly.

" We'll make it work together, kitten !

Don't give up like this.

You are a fighter !

We'll fight together. "

Cole said encouraging me.

" Against WHOM ?

One another ?

I love you !

I love you so much and not like you love all of your friends, Cole.

I love you all like a lover.

I can't live without you !

And the problem is, I can't live without ANY ONE OF YOU !

I need you all or I won't be with anyone; because I can't choose between you guys !

I love you all the same.

I really can't choose any one of you and leave the others.

It'll kill me !

If I chose any one among you, I would be happy; but I'll still miss the others.

Because, you guys are like my DRUGS I can't live without them ! "

I said confessing my love for them.

" If YOU love us and WE love you, if YOU claim to die without us and WE are in the same condition then, what's the problem ?

Why are you leaving us like this, my love ? "

Derek said helplessly wanting me to stay.

" Because you guys want me ONLY to yourselves and I can't be with only any one of you !

I need you all or I won't stay with anyone ! "

I said closing my eyes.

" Then we WILL stay together !

You don't have to choose any one from us.

Even we can't live without you baby ! "

Lauren said firmly.

" We all CAN'T stay together guys, why aren't you getting my point ? "

I said getting helpless as they weren't ready to understand what was my point.

" Because, it's pointless !

Why CAN'T we be together ?

Tell me one good reason, any one ! "

Dominic said.

" You guys are possessive about me and get JEALOUS when, see me with the other !

Today it's Jules who wanted to keep me to himself what if, tomorrow someone else would want to keep me to himself ? "

I asked making my point.

" That won't happen ! "

Cole said firmly.

" How could you be so sure about it, huh ? "

I asked.

Dominic went to Jules and brought him to where we were standing.

They all went on their knees and extended rings towards me,

" Because, WE LOVE YOU !

Will you marry us ? "

Unison

What ?

All of them are proposing to me ?

Together ?

I was happy.

I was surprised and I was CONFUSED !

As much as I would love to, how could I marry five men at the same time ?

" You guys...

I...

Don't have words...

But how can I get married to all of you, at the same time ? "

I asked excited and confused as well.

" And why can't you ? "

Jules asked weakly.

" Because it's against the law Mr. Judge ! "

I said crossing my arms.

" Bullshit !

The law says, you have every fucking right to marry the person you love and who loves you back !

Don't you love us ? "

Lauren asked making a puppy face.

" Yes, I do !"

" Wait, wait.

There's still time to say 'I do' !

You need to accept our proposal first and you'll say it when we'll get married.

Not, now silly girl ! "

Derek said teasing me.

I chuckled.

" But, people... "

I said.

" Fuck people !

They don't care what we feel then, we too don't have to worry about what they think ! "

Jules said.

" Yes, but... "

" Why are you being so hard, love ?

Don't you want to get married now ?

Do you need time to think ? "

Derek asked.

" No, nothing's like that.

I was just thinking about... "

" What happened today, right ?

That won't happen ever again ! "

Jules said confidently.

" How you could be so sure ? "

I asked confused.

" Because baby when it happened, you were a girl I loved !

But after we get married, you would be our lawfully wedded wife !

And none of us would have a right to be a barrier between you and your lawfully wedded husband without your permission ! "

Jules explained.

" Yes but... "

" Getting married is the only option to keep this, sweet kitten !

Right now you are someone, who HAVEN'T confessed your love for any one of us !

That's why we would fight to claim you and keep you to ourselves and that is completely natural ! But once we get married, we can't ask you to stay away from your husband; unless you want to ! "

Cole explained.

" But.. "

" No if's no but's !

We'll really die if, you leave us at THIS STAGE, love.

Do you want us to die missing you ? "

Derek said pouting as if he'd cry now.

Drama queen !

I shook my head.

Happy tears flowing through my eyes.

" Say yes, already !

My legs are already hurt, honey ! "

Jules said barely managing to sit on his knee.

We all laughed at his statement and his poor face.

" Yes !

I will marry you all ! "

I siad crying happily.

But my happiness didn't last long !

They all raised up and the struggle started to put the ring on my fingers !

The only relief was, they haven't brought the rings for same finger !

They were almost ready to fight again, as they couldn't decide who would put the ring on first !

" I'll do it ! "

Derek said.

" Why can't I ? "

Lauren asked.

" I am the one to do it ! "

Cole said raising his voice.

" This was MY idea so, I'll go first and put on the ring ! "

Dominic said.

" This all happened this early because of ME so, I'll put it on first !

It's my right. "

Jules said.

They were arguing and I was standing there holding out my hand to get the rings on !

When I suggested that I would put them on myself, they yelled a big fat NO in unisonn !

I was getting irritated now.

" Stop it !

Stop it !

Stop it ! "

I yelled my lungs out and they all went silent.

" Just now you guys said, you won't fight over me !

It isn't been even few minutes you said it and you guys started fighting already ? "

I said in disbelief.

" We are sorry.

You tell some solution then ! "

Cole said softly.

" Let's do one thing, let's go alphabetically.

So, there won't be any fights !

Ok ? "

I suggested.

" Ok "

Unison

Cole put the first ring in my little finger.

Then Derek on ring finger.

After that, Dominic put the ring in the middle finger.

Jules slide the ring in my index finger.

And last but not the least and sad Lauren put the ring on my thumb !

We all hugged then.

It was still early to wake up so, we decided to go to sleep.

Dominic took Jules to his room and gave him some painkillers and some sleeping pills as he couldn't sleep because of the pain.

I denied entry to everyone in my room before the wedding now !

Everything changed from what I have planned, but one thing.

The first thing to do tomorrow is, I am going to call my Mom !

But the reason isn't the same.

I am going to call her to come her, but won't ask her to take me with her !

I am going to call her and Pavel for our out of the box wedding ceremony !