Chapter 8

lei call incoming.

lei! she answered

yes! morning D! how are you? he asked

what do you expect? she asked.

I was just asking your head, I know your heart isn't.; he answered.

she sighed, I feel like my heart is empty, and another time I feel like am carrying a heavy rock in my heart. I don't know this heart of mine for real. ; she answered crying.

tell me the voice you getting in your head; he asked

am hating myself even more; she answered sobbing

can I ask you for something D? he asked

I got nothing in my hands right now, I feel helpless lei; she answered.

ok let's do this , get a bath, and prepare yourself then I be waiting for you outside your house . I promise to make you feel better; will you do it. please; he asked

let's see what gets out of it.; she answered

I will be waiting. ; he said

she did as she promised him and got dressed quickly, got out of the room and headed to the gate.

"am here" she called him on the phone.

am driving off to your house in a minute wait a little.; he said , what are you wearing? he asked again

a black big shirt, shot and a sport. she said " wait a second" you bringing the car with you? she asked

yes , I wanna take you far from here. maybe it can help.; he said.

ok, where are we going? she asked

I don't know either.; he answered.

hey don't tell the beautiful girl in front of me is you D? he asked teasing

c'mon lei! he said hanging up the phone.

he got out of the car and opened the door for her mentioning her to enter the car. she entered the car. and he opened for himself and entered the car too , and started driving. after some minutes without talking, just listening to songs . she decided to break the silence.

will you keep driving? or you will stop the car ?. ;she asked.

ohhh do you want me to stop the car.; he said smiling at her. tell me, you wanna look me in the eyes or you wanna hug me.? ; he asked her trying to annoy her.

she opened her mouth to say something but she didn't know what to say.

why did you call me ? she asked ignoring what he just said.

to check on you, to see if you doing fine. ; he answered

why would you even bother doing it.? she asked. it's ain't in your responsibility. she added

yes it is my responsibility, D, am your friend, we did talk about this. remember? he asked

so that's how friends do? hmm feels uncomfortable. ; she said.

yes this is how they be , but don't worry you will get used to it. he said comforting her.

how about I don't wanna live till when I get used to it? she asked

what do you mean by that D? he asked parking the car.

"don't you see this world is bitter than pig's shit"; she said almost yelling. she turned to face him, "am I happy to live this life like this lei? , this life was meant for people who got everything from it , what about me ? why am i still living anywhere? hmm ? "; she asked tears felling down her cheeks.

calm down D , time will tell , and am sure you will get that happiness you craving and everything and things you want from life. he answered

yeah offcourse! you know , hmm , you telling me those words out of satisfaction you got from this life, please stop playing with me am done with this , lei am tired.

so you telling me you wanna end your life ; he asked having tears in his eyes and yelling at her.

yes lei I wanna end this hurting , I wanna end this pain and this miserable life of mine. ; she said yelling back.

he drove off without saying anything and took her in the mountains where they go for hike. she opened the door for himself and got out of the car and opened Dana's door as well. "get out" he ordered

what place is this? she asked

just get out of my car; he said again harshly

she got out of the car and stood on it's left.

follow me; he ordered again.

to where? she asked

he grabbed her arm and made her follow him by force, she removed her arm from his hold

." let go of me lei am not one of your dogs , you treat as you wish"; she scorded

look down there; he showed her pointing under the mountain they were standing on .

and ? she asked

and then jump , didn't you tell me you don't wanna live anymore? he asked

she looked at the height of the downfall of the mountain, it was very far she couldn't even look down very well. she didn't say anything or do anything she just stood there looking at lei.

why are you looking at me? I thought this was what you wanted, I thought this would help. he said yelling at her. why don't you jump D? .

she didn't answer him she just looked down to her hands.

he held out his hands and took her hands in his , and made her look in his eyes.

"do you know why you can't do it" ? he asked

she shook her head saying no , looking down.

look me in the eyes ; he asked this time

she lifted her head up and looked at him .

"you got no strength to do it". he said . do you know why? he asked again

because you don't hate your life. he said

she lifted her head up and looked at him questioningly.

" the problem is you don't know how to live it" he added.

and how should I live it? she asked in the soft voice and a sad one making his heart to melt.

he loosened her hands and held her head in his hands.