What do you do if you have been in love with your bestfriend for as long as you can remember. Well that's what happened to Mya Matthews, she has been in love with one of her best friends Alexander Carlos. 
What happens when her world comes crushing down and she sees no light at the end of the tunnel? Can she find hope where she least expected it?

If only love

We walked most of the journey in silence. Mostly cause of the pep talk I kept giving myself. Was I really ready to allow him in all in one day. 


We had just started approaching the hotel near the café when I realized I wasn't ready and I needed to talk to Jean tonight. I turned around to face him. 


"wait. I can't" I looked down ashamed of doing this. 


"I'm not ready. I thought I could but I can't yet." I was too ashamed to even look at him. 


"it's okay. But how do I know where to find you maybe we can meet tomorrow." I could see that he had so many doubts and didn't trust that I would show up. I totally understood just that I really wasn't ready to tell him all that I have been through during this healing process. 


"we can meet at the same cafe tomorrow." 


We exchanged numbers and said our goodbyes. I turned sharply after thinking of something. 


Chapter twenty