Chapter 34

The expression on his face was full of confusion. His eyes glanced outside of the room but became focused on me.

"Can you lower your voice?" He asked.

I scoffed "Lower my voice? What your afraid your friends are going to hear that your going to be a father? Why the hell didn't you tell me?"

He took one step towards me "I tried to tell you" His tone sounding serious "I tried telling you this morning but you wouldn't let me. You were out the front door before I could even get a word out"

I looked at him as I took a swallow "I shouldn't have to hear it from someone else. You should've stopped me"

He continued to look at me confused "Who told you?"

"That doesn't matter, point is you should've been the one to tell me" I glanced away thinking about it, taking it all in "Is this baby really yours?" I asked looking at him.

He took one more step to approach me. He grabbed my hand "I don't know, but we are going to get through this"

"When did you even sleep with her?" I asked.

"I don't, really remember"

"How do you not remember?"

Jay sighed "We were broken up and I drank a lot that one night"

"Great, so we break up and that gives you the excuse to sleep with someone, that someone being Maddie?" I took away my hand from his.

"Cassie, just listen to me" Jay said trying to take my hand again.

I pulled away from him again "Just don't" I could feel the tears beginning to emerge "Please" I turned my back.

I opened the door and quickly walked out before anyone could stop me.

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"I'm sorry to crash your place, I just didn't want to go home" I said as I lay on his couch.

He sat on the opposite end with my feet sitting on his lap "It's fine. You know it's never a bother when your here"

I was fiddling with my fingers "Yea"

"Are you hundred percent sure that baby is his?"

"I don't know, it's looking like it is"

"The same thing happened with Renee. Just make sure you really look into it before making accusations"

"Which Renee?" I asked.

Kelly chuckled lightly "Come on"

"It's just, I don't know where to go from here. If the baby is Jay's than I would feel disappointed and betrayed. And if the baby isn't his I would feel some sort of relief but also some disappointment"

"I know you two just had a fight but I would say talking to Jay would be best, maybe even talking to Maddie"

I scoffed "If I even see Maddie again I will rip her head off"

"Okay, maybe not the best idea"

"Maybe I just should've just stayed in Indiana"

He was softly massaging my ankles "If you would've stayed you wouldn't have met Jay, or spent more time with me"

I looked at him as I fiddled with my fingers "Yea" I whispered "I don't regret meeting Jay at all. But I can't talk to him right now, I can't even look at him" I said I'm a sorrowful tone.

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Kelly was sitting at the Squad table in his chair with his feet up resting on the table. He was reading a magazine as the rest of Squad sat at the table.

"Hey Lieutenant" Capp said.

Kelly picked up his head to look at him. Capp nicked his head behind Kelly. Upon taking his feet off the table he turned his head to see Jay walking towards them as he was being to approach the trucks.

With a small light sigh Kelly put the magazine down and stood up from his chair. He began walking towards Jay.

"You have som real nerve showing up here" Kelly said the closer he approached.

Jay stopped walking as he held up his hands just below his shoulders "Just hear me out. I've been trying to call Cassie but she won't answer me"

Kelly stopped once he approached him "Yea there's a reason for that. She doesn't want to talk to you"

"Please Kelly, Ive tried to explain to her and I'm not going to give up"

Kelly wasn't happy to see him "Well you should, your not going to talk to her"

With that Kelly turned his back to walk away from him.

"I love her Kelly. And I'm not going to give up on her"

Severide lightly balled his hand into a fist as he turned to face him "Listen to me, my sister has gotten her heart broken by you before. And I'm not going to let that happen again. You stay the hell away from her"

The intercom suddenly came on "Truck 81 Squad 3 Ambulance 61 car accident 1452 Walnut Avenue"

Kelly gave him a look before turning his back and walking towards the truck to hop into his gear.

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"You really do love him don't you?" Carly asked.

I sat on the bed as we were FaceTiming on my laptop "I do. But I'm so wildly disappointed"

"Are you 100 percent positive he's the father? Just because the bitch says it doesn't mean he could be the father"

I shrugged my shoulders "I don't know, I don't know what to believe"

Carly let out a long sigh "I can't believe this, you just don't deserve this"

I looked up trying to hold back the tears "Yea, I know"

"Could you take off work and maybe spend a few days over here?" She asked.

I lightly shook my head "I can't. Though I don't feel like I should really run away from this"

"Okay" She nodded her head "If there is anything you need you know I'm always a phone call away"

I smiled at her "Thanks Carly"

She blew me a kiss before smiling at me "I'll talk to you later"

"Okay" I blew her a kiss back before we hung up.

I put my laptop aside before laying down on my bed. I cuddled underneath the blanket as I lay my head on my pillow. I blinked a few times as a tear began to travel down my cheek. Just the thought of losing Jay was breaking my heart. Another tear fell followed by another. I slowly began to close my eyes before drifting off.

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