15. Selfishness and Reality

"The water is crazy clear." You whispered as you kicked your feet in rhythmic movements.

"Do you...hear the melody too?" Luka's voice was gentle and completely hesitant as he sat with you on the ledge. He hadn't been back here since the night he took Marinette, but something told him this would be the best place to make things right with you.

"I do." You had a small smile on your face as you sat with your eyes closed as you listened to all the sounds of the area around you.

"I'm sorry that I pushed too far." Luka's sighed.

You shrugged, "I overreacted. I was also a bitch, I'm sorry." Your eyes opened and you glanced over at him with a bashful smile spreading across your lips.

"Both true." He chuckled softly and his face immediately shifted to appear defensive when you glared over at him, "Hey you said it first."

You bit your lip as you tried to hold back your smile. "Yeah, well, I'm allowed to say it."

"I simply agreed with you."

The two of you fell back into silence. The water moved rapidly with the wind, as it was steadily growing later into fall.

"What's your favorite season?" You asked and he looked over at you with a confused expression.

"I don't really have a favorite. Each season brings something. One gives me more creativity musically, another inspires me to craft instruments." He spoke as he shrugged once more, like he could continue listing off reasons.

"Valid." You responded though you could only think about how similar he sounded to Marinette's indecisiveness.

"What about you then? Just to continue on with your random questions." He snickered and you resisted the urge to smack him.

"Fall." You answered immediately.

"Well you must be happy now then."

"You wanna know why? Since you had your justifications ready I may as well give you mine." You grinned at him and he nodded simply, not picking up on the playful tone you threw back at him.

"Go ahead."

You blinked as you paused but then nodded. "You can see the stars the best during the fall. I don't understand why truly, but they are the brightest during this time of year."

"Why do you care for the stars so much?" He questioned.

You smiled softly. They had always reminded you of all the places you wanted to go because the stars looked over everyone. For a few years, stargazing was the best way to connect with Marinette...and there was also Adrien who always reminded you that your heart was in the stars. "They're beautiful and hold an incredible amount of meaning." You decided to keep the answer simpler.

"I agree but I guess I'm also not the type to focus as much on the simpler things in life."

You looked at him with a baffled expression. "You don't think so? That's surprising with how calm you are, I'd think you would like everything to be simple." You snorted.

"I'm calm on the outside Y/n, but my mind and my heart are always raging." With the way his eyes lit up when he looked at you, you couldn't help but wonder if he wanted to finish that statement with 'when I'm with you.'

**

The two of you stopped at your door.

"I really am sorry again. I can't control my stupid ass temper sometimes." You spoke, embarrassed.

Luka's smile widened. "Or your mouth." He squished your cheeks together and you batted his hand away.

"Go home you little fucker." You stuck your tongue out at him and turned to reach for your door. Luka grabbed your wrist, making you stop with your hand hovered over your doorknob.

"What?" You asked with a shaky voice as you felt your cheeks begin to slowly flare from the nervous feeling his touch was giving you.

"I was just wondering if you were coming to our birthday party?" He asked and let go of your wrist.

You furrowed your eyebrows. "Jules may have mentioned that?" You spoke with a higher-pitched voice, "But I've been completely caught up in my own bullshit so I haven't thought much about it. I'm such a brat." You laughed.

"You should come."

His voice was serious which made your heart begin to pound again. "Okay." You whispered and you couldn't believe how quickly you said yes. "Only for Juleka though." You replied with a wink, sounding much smoother than you had previously sounded.

Luka laughed. "I wouldn't expect anything different."

You wagged your finger at him teasingly. "You better keep thinking that way, Couffaine."

"Goodnight Y/n." He still was smiling as he waved to you before walking back to his house.

You felt as if you fell through the door as you walked inside.

"Did you make things better dear?" Your mom asked as she noticed you walk inside. She didn't know the complete details of the argument the two of you had, but you wanted to be honest with her when you told her where you were going earlier.

"I think so." You nodded assuringly, "So about a birthday party...."

***

"Morning Y/n." You turned and your eyes were immediately met with his shimmering green ones. You felt heat rush to your face and you smiled shyly.

"Morning, Adrien."

"How did things go with Luka? I hope you guys made up." Adrien smiled brightly like he always did. You felt your heart pound against your chest at the mention of Luka, and simply having a conversation with Adrien. It was all getting to be a lot.

You waved your hand in front of your face in attempt to cool off. "It went really well." You beamed as you looked up at him, "Thanks for encouraging me to talk to him."

Adrien nodded. "I just want you to be happy Y/n."

"Is you-know-who with you?" You asked with a cheeky grin, also trying to avoid the flustered feeling his response sent soaring through you.

"Y/n! We're at school!" He whispered, though his voice sounded almost like a hiss.

You waved your hand at him dismissively. "That's why I used his code name! I miss my buddy." You winked and he looked incredibly nervous.

Adrien grabbed you by the wrist and dragged you into a corner of the courtyard. You stumbled behind him. Once you were settled into a corner, he slightly opened his shirt. "Here, say hi, quickly." He nervously looked around. You laughed internally, it looked like he was selling you drugs very poorly.

"Y/n!!!" Plagg whisper yelled excitedly. The two of you did your small little hand shake.

"Adrien giving you trouble?" You asked, continuing to keep your cheeky grin plastered across your face.

"Always."

Adrien, frustrated, closed his shirt and shut up his kwami. "Anyways!"

You noticed he sounded like he was about to speak again, but you saw your sister roll into a recycling bin behind him. "What the hell is her problem?" You raised an eyebrow.

"Who?" He asked, eyes not moving from your face. You lifted your hand and gently pushed his face in the direction of your foolish sister.

"Why is she in there?" He asked blankly.