False Affections

Flina's POV

She looks for the book first thing we got home from the banquet, the cold weather finally turns to a rain, as it showers down immediately we got home.

"Here, read it out loud" she hands over the book Relita Ul Nutre to me,

"Zulia... but I thought you clearly said i shouldn't touch the—" she cuts me off

"Are we going to keep turning a blind eye to what we clearly need explanations for?, our powers", she pauses.

"Are you not scared of what may come to be?, Batria must have gotten to Neodessa by now, Toketa will make a move soon, knowing we are here... we need... no I need to get stronger".

Zamora taps her shoulders smiling,

"Toketa would have gotten here by now if she wanted to attack right away" she says to Zulia.

"But ... sitting here and doing nothing won't protect us, we have to learn more about our powers and most importantly know how to use and control it". Zulia panics.

Zamora signals me to open the book, I opened it flipping through the pages, trying to find a spot...

"Yes I found it". I read it out,

"Control the core, withstand the pain force it out but not together, together be destroyed, control it separately" I read it out.

"It makes no sense... Read it again" Zulia says.

I read it but it still made no sense, I kept reading until I got to this part,

"To control the core find the inner you, unlock it, face it, be it and it shall be controlled or you shall be controlled".

Zulia snaps her fingers,

"I finally understand, we have to control it or be controlled by our powers, I control my powers by defeating Lial and if I don't defeat Lial I'll be controlled".

"I'll try it out now—".

I stopped her, there's a forewarning.

"Force it out but not together, together be destroyed, control it separately".

Zulia paces around, she looks impatient and confused.

"Seems we have to control it separately, I'll be back by dawn" Zulia storms off,

Zamora walks to her room quietly to rest.

Today has been a tiring day.

I heard a loud bang sound coming from the outside, i walked to the window and peeped through, it was too cloudy to look through due to the rain, I went out as I saw Ivan standing under the pouring rain, I ran out with my scarf and covered his head with it.

He stares at me blankly, drenched under the rain, he immediately jolts backward when he realizes it was me... I notice his teary eyes, it saddens me.

he takes a step forward and wraps his arm round me, he bends a bit and places his head on my shoulder, his wet hair makes me cloth cold, I wrap my arms around him, I gently pat his back, he slowly cries making a sniffing sound.

Under the night sky, surrounded by rain drops, listening to his quiet sobs... this just makes my heart hurt.

He finally releases his arms around me, he walks back into his house not giving me one look, all I saw was his back as the distance between us grew.

I clenched my palms as I followed him, I won't let him go.

"What happened?, what made you so sad that you had to cry?", I held his hand.

"Why won't you let me be?". he yanks my hand away,

"Because I love yo—"

"Enough!.. Enough... Enough..." he pauses,

"Enough with that false affection, it's all a lie, I'm tired of listening to your petty words, fake care... it's enough".

"But I truly love you"

"The only one who truly loves me is... ME!!!" he yells in a frustrated tone, he stares at me fiercely, but with his tone quivering, he is hiding his pain.

"Leave now!!" he points at the door. I walked closer to him gently.

"Iv... Ivan, listen, for I have shown you no false affection but all you see and feel is my pure sincerity towards you" I held his hand as I pecked his fingertips, he watches me silently, deep down I know he can feel it.

I let go of his hand as I walked towards the door, I turned back smiling as I waved at him.

"I'll be back again ... soon".

He gave no response as I walked out, the street feels lonely yet peaceful at this time of the night, i looked up but could barely see the moon as the rain pours down my face, I walked home enjoying every bit of cold wind that blew my way.

I feel hurt, and my chest feels tight with the squeezing sensation.

"What should I do now?".