Chapter 10

Everything was a disaster, the world seemed to be turning gray, her mouth tasted like vomit and sweat ran down her back, she knew she had to leave as soon as possible, that she had to run when the alarm signals sounded in her head, when everything that he had built around that family began to blur and the lines became blurred he had to leave there.

But like always her stupid hope, he had never saved her from her he had never done anything for her, her hope had just broken her in half a bunch of times. And all the memories flew around her, the times she had let herself go, the times she needed a hug more than anything and took it from the arms that were willing to give it to her, that had gotten her into all this trouble in the first place, yes left in Boston with her miserable canned food and alone in that dusty apartment that increasingly reminded her of the mother who left her for an easier love.

"Hey, are you okay? You can go home if you want, Clare told me you suddenly felt sick. You think you can finish the paperwork, if not there is no problem"

The irritating voice of the other secretary made her head want to explode, she didn't want to talk to anyone, she didn't want to see anyone, that stupid paperwork could be thrown out the window if she wanted to; her head just spun around what her mind still didn't make sense of, she kept spinning in her head, like a tornado full of garbage. Since she never saw it coming, it was so obvious and yet so hard to register.

“Grace, I'm going to call the concierge to open the door if you don't get out there soon"

Hearing that, it was as if her entire system rewired again. She made her convince herself to get out of it, maybe she couldn't stay inside a bathroom all her life. Hiding from trouble

“You ran out suddenly, are you okay? I got really scared, it seems like you got the worst news in the world"

Sophia the assistant to the other partner in the firm had launched at her with questions from her as soon as she opened the door to get out of the bathroom. Grace pretended not to hear her and kept walking as if nothing had happened.

“Grace, just tell me something"

"I'm fine Sophie, the worst news I could receive was a month ago, it was just that silly pudding that was expired, but I'm perfectly fine"

"And what would that be?"

Sophia indiscreet as always more involved in the affairs of others than in her life.

"We are curious today, right?"

The girl still seemed eager to continue talking so Grace let her go on for a long time without comment until Sophia said something she thought was interesting enough to get out of the mess in her head and respond.

“Sorry I'm still a bit in a daze from throwing up, which is what you said,” Grace asked innocently"

“Carson was arguing with Roland, the man who came in this morning, and we all saw when Roland walked out of the office with a split lip and Carson left like hell"

So what Grace had heard behind the door was true.

"Well you know Sophie, I'm not okay, I don't think she can finish. I better go home and continue tomorrow.

Grace needed to get home as soon as possible and facing all this with Carson couldn't stay like this"

"You didn't tell me what you believed about that fight.

Sophia seemed disappointed that she didn't have a little more wood on the fire."

"I don't know it could be anything; maybe they are just money problems between both companies."

Grace almost ran out of there, she asked Hannah to go get her, Hannah was there in seconds because she already knew that she had to go get her.

But that was not the problem, the real problem started when I arrived at the Fullers' house and was in front of Carson's office at home, this was like being with a hammer to the hand and broken crockery at your feet, but this time she wasn't the naughty girl, this time she was the angry mother.

He entered without knocking on the door, to which he received a dirty look from Carson.

"What the hell are you doing here Grace? You're supposed to be working, not messing around here.

Well I could be there if I didn't know about your little game with Marianna Martin, Grace thought."

"I heard what Roland said in the office, when I went to get your coffee and he was yelling at me..."

Carson laughed like it was a joke at her and glared at her, her fingers drumming on the surface of her desk.

"Roland never yelled, there was no noise in that office until the end of that conversation, and you can see the result of that noise right here."

He turned her face to hers, her cheekbone starting to turn purple.

"So you were spying? I didn't believe that about you, you came out a little indiscreet, didn't you dear?"

“The point is Carson, that Roland said that he was not going to continue to take care of your mistakes, that you had already ruined his life enough and that because of you he had lived twenty-three years believing that Ian was his son when in fact he was yours"

All grace vanished from Carson's face, and he moved so close to her that he startled her.

"Don't say that again, you never heard in your life little girl; There are things that this family should never bury"

"So Ian is actually Gabe's brother, your son is best friends with his brother and he doesn't even know it, is that why you're always so proud of them both? I even dare to say that you treat him like another son, have you been cheating on Lera all these years"

she laughed in disbelief.

“I am not one of your first slips."

She was angry, very angry, she knew it was wrong to cheat on Lera under her own nose that it ate her up a bit sometimes, but knowing that she was just cheating on the cheat was the most disgusting thing.

This time Carson laughed as if she were telling her a joke.

"Don't think you're special heart, none is"

Grace fell silent and a puzzle began to take shape in her head of how many times he had told her that he was with Gabe at Ian's house or when he left the office early and wasn't home when she came back

"So you're still seeing Marianna Martin, that's why no one should know about Ian and Gabe that would ruin your silly little game."

He looked like a caged tiger now, pacing back and forth. Carson approached her and caressed her cheek, she took a step back she couldn't even look him in the eyes, those warm and perfect eyes that seemed to fill a room with light when he arrived, they were nothing more than a false hook, even so she's stuck there with a baby she didn't want and a life she now desperately wanted to escape.

"You will see beautiful Grace, Marianna was the only person who never fulfilled my whims, she never wanted anything beyond a friendship with me, when I wanted to marry her, she decided that she wanted Roland, so I decided to conquer the only thing that is important to Marianna , the money, it was like everything fell into place, and come here now"

Grace looked at him in disgust, she knew that she wasn't much better than him, after all she had been jumping between Gabe and Carson from the beginning, but Gabe; he was so different so perfect, so easy for her to lose if he knew how much crap she had inside, he would just walk away, losing Gabe that wasn't up for discussion now.

And Carson was everything she had ever wanted maybe that was why it hurt so much to love him.

"You lied to me?"

That had come from Grace's lips as a question rather than a statement, Carson sat on her desk and looked at her again, disappointed? He really did seem sad to see her like this.

"Grace, I tell people what they want to hear, that is the art of being a good lawyer, I don't lie; I only say what everyone wants to hear. I thought you were smarter the truth, tougher, than they never learned to love but you're still not that good at this game Grace, when it comes to what's going on between you and my son you should rethink things before saying what I mean, I can take that little toy away from you with a few words, you don't have the face to say anything nice to me."

Those words managed to open a small gap, he was not going to take away the only person who had loved her a little in years.

Lera hates you, doesn't she? Anyone would, look at you don't look beyond yourself, you abandoned Ian, you let him live his whole life cheated loving someone who wasn't his father, look what you do to your family, to me, you're so selfish that you don't you see beyond your own nose.

"And look who's talking, you don't know what I've put at stake for this family, I owed myself a little happiness, I've left everything for Lera, I did what I could, that's how I am, everyone here knows who Carson Fuller is The only one surprised is you"

He walked away from her and walked towards the office window ending the conversation, Grace got ready to leave there was nothing more to say, Carson didn't love her and there was no need to ask for more explanations from someone who would only continue to hurt her.

"Wait…"

"As for the little problem we have, if it's Gabe's do what you want I'm sure my son is so stupid he'll marry you and all that circus, but if you don't get rid of it as soon as possible, I already have more children than the ones i need"

At first Grace hadn't understood what she meant but then she put her hand on her non-existent belly and she looked at Carson's back again, she didn't understand why, but she wanted to burst into tears

Don't worry, this baby is Gabe's, and I'll be out of here as soon as I get my stuff; so you can continue with your lies and I hope that soon everything falls on you, you deserve it.

She was so fond of lies, but Carson deserved to pay, and she would dig up the truth, for Gabe and for her. No matter who got hurt she had already played the good girl cards for a long time and look where that had gotten her, she was going to destroy Carson Fuller no matter what. No one had loved her, everyone had pushed her aside, now it was her opportunity to hurt her opportunity to hurt her.

Carson deserved to pay for not loving her and Gabe deserved to see the lie she was in for her father, for her. And the one who had all the answers to this great dilemma was Marianna Martin, Ian's mother.

Her front door closed behind her. This was just the beginning of the Fullers' hell.