Longing

"Viole, you have gotten even stronger than last time. Your speed of improvement amazes me every time. If it were upto me, I would already give you the title of a Slayer and not a mere candidate."

"...Hmm.....ye..ah."

Fuck, Master is crazy strong. And I have been beaten again by him, not like I will stand a chance against this old monster for a good while anyway. Plus I wasn't even using Black Hole Sphere Shinsu Control, I will only use them against Irregulars and not others unless my life is threatened. This is to bring my overall ability up. After all that Shinsu Control is just cheating.

"So I heard you took in a girl from the Yeon Family in your team?"

He asks me with a suggestive smile on his face.

"So what? Are you going to disapprove of it?"

I answer in a cranky manner and ask for his opinion.

"No I won't, after all I want you to live as you want but I just wanted to make sure that she wasn't a spy because that would put you in danger."

"While I can't say it's impossible but I don't think she is spy material if I am being honest. She is too stupid for that."

I say that while getting up.

"You say that but that might be just ploy to let your guard....but since you have Hwaryun, I don't think you have to worry on that front. I still don't get why she suddenly became so loyal to you? Maybe it's love?"

Master quickly changed his tune when I frowned a bit. So he changed the subject to Hwaryun. I mean it's quite clear to Master how devoted Hwaryun is to me considering she has fought with him many times (verbally), when she thinks that Master is doing something unnecessary that might cause harm to me. I don't know if it's love or not, it definitely isn't from my side. I just desire her at the moment.

"Who knows?"

I just say that after I fix my clothes and then stand next to Master.

"Anyway whatever it is, it doesn't matter to me but I just hope that you don't regret your actions."

He says that with an uncharacteristically serious voice while looking me straight in the eye.

"Also, you should still be a bit cautious of that Yeon girl. This Floor is ruled by her family after all."

"It doesn't really matter that much since I know that Yeon Family Leader is said to be virtuous woman."

"Viole you shouldn't trust information that easily, anyone who lives for as long as those Family Leaders, have their own thoughts on how to do things."

Yeah I know, but that was just a lazy excuse from me to get out of that conversation. I already know that girl wouldn't oppose me unless I do something truly evil. Also she is my student now, since I am teaching her how to control the flames.

I just nod at Master and leave the gymnasium like place where we train. After leaving, I reminisced a bit about the last month.

Ehwa begged me to become my student and said she would do anything for it, so I accepted her offer. This made her blush at the time since she must have thought something perverted, probably. Anyway she joined my team and I started training her brutally.

Hwaryun came to my lodgings after a few days with a small bunny girl named Xia Xia. She joined the team as a Light Bearer. And then we quickly cleared the qualification tests for the Floor Advancement Test that is scheduled for tomorrow.

Xia Xia's skill as a Light Bearer is above average and that's good enough for me since I don't really need it but some tests need greater number of teammates. So she is good teammate to fill the numbers. Her looking like a cute bunny is just a plus. She is also a gold digger....probably.

I wonder what will happen tomorrow. Will I face Urek or will something be different?

While thinking all these things in my mind, I reach my room and enter it. There is no one inside and I just jump into bed while thinking about a certain person.

This person just keeps popping up again and again in my head.

I miss her a lot.

Sakura...

I know I shouldn't think like this and avoid this mental torture. But there's just something missing from me for the last almost 6 years since I have been here. My mentality is devolving, I get easily irritable and even kill easily if no one stops me. I suppose this is what Master was talking about. But I have no cure for this. I haven't had this feeling for anyone else than her. Not Medea. Not Medusa. Not Rin. Not Hwaryun. Just her.

I wonder if this feeling is love or just some mental disorder? After all, I am pretty sure I am not completely sane or at least am not the most healthy person mentally.

It's been such a long damn time but I still remember her shy glance, her blush, her hair, her breath, her breas-*cough* I mean her beauty.

System is quite cruel to me even if it gives me so many benefits.

[Host could still operate both incarnations at the same time.]

Yeah I know, but it just doesn't feel right to me. Unless I am fully focused on someone, it just isn't satisfactory.

Oh well, there's no use in much moping around.

As I was getting lost in my thoughts, I heard a knock on the door.

"Yes?"

"Teacher Viole, can you explain this part of Flame Control to me?"

"What part?"

I came out of my room in normal clothes to find Ehwa in some nice clothes with her flower hair accessory being made prominent.

"The part you taught me yesterday."

"Very well, come inside then and I will teach you."

After that I cleared her doubts and did nothing sus with this 19 year old girl in my bedroom, believe me.

=====Chapter End=====

I might have developed a headache while writing this chapter.