“You can call me when you’re lonely. I’ll be your temporary fix.”

Those were the words that he said to me and it was plain simple, he wanted nothing but s*x and I wanted nothing more than to.

I was the kind of girl who was too scared of falling in love again because I feel like there is something more in life than being mournful over a guy who never actually gave a hell. I deserve something more than pain and misery over a stupid heartbreak. Since then, I got too scared of commitment that I no longer wanted to be in one. I wanted fun and I wanted to feel like I am alive again.

He was the kind of guy who was too busy for permanent relationships. The superstar that all women wanted to bang with. The kind of guy who would have any girls kneel in front of him because well, he is that kind of guy. He was a guy with a hectic schedule, sold out world tours, drinking champagne in private jets, holding a mic in one hand, and conquering all over the world in the other.

Maybe I needed someone to show me how to live again and he needed someone to show me how to love.

You Can Call Me

　　When my last class finally ended around 6PM, I hurriedly went out of the room and rushed out of the building. I just wanted to go home and sleep right away. I was thinking about having pizza for dinner but I'm too tired to buy. I've been having lack of sleep and my head is always hurting too. We've got loads of major exams these past days and I'm failing most of it.


　　We still talk to each other but not as much because I'm trying to distance myself from him since that day even be said he was hanging with Nadine and her friends. It's pretty absurd and pretty unfair for me to do this to Gage but I just can't help it. I'm still mad because he hang-out with Nadine and I'm denying it to myself that I hate her because I know I shouldn't hate her.


　　EdwardBlack1794: awe, you poor thing. why don't you go home and get some rest :)


CHAPTER38 "New York" 2