“You can call me when you’re lonely. I’ll be your temporary fix.”

Those were the words that he said to me and it was plain simple, he wanted nothing but s*x and I wanted nothing more than to.

I was the kind of girl who was too scared of falling in love again because I feel like there is something more in life than being mournful over a guy who never actually gave a hell. I deserve something more than pain and misery over a stupid heartbreak. Since then, I got too scared of commitment that I no longer wanted to be in one. I wanted fun and I wanted to feel like I am alive again.

He was the kind of guy who was too busy for permanent relationships. The superstar that all women wanted to bang with. The kind of guy who would have any girls kneel in front of him because well, he is that kind of guy. He was a guy with a hectic schedule, sold out world tours, drinking champagne in private jets, holding a mic in one hand, and conquering all over the world in the other.

Maybe I needed someone to show me how to live again and he needed someone to show me how to love.

You Can Call Me

　　Later that night, I still haven't asked Gage about his recent and shocking break up with Nadine because he still hasn't answered my messages from him since a while ago. I don't have the guts to actually ask him about it and my mind is so confused. He told me they were never together but now news got out that they broke up.


　　When I got home, after going out with Monique to her doctor, I instantly googled about the recent news that Monique told me. I've read a few stuff and some of it really got into me. I think when he was in Los Angeles, he spend time with Nadine. I think he really went out with her on his friend's party. It was an exclusive party for sure because no pictures of Gage were circulated around online.


　　I've spent the entire night googling about Gage and Nadine. And I've read so many things that actually hurt me even if I know I shouldn't actually be jealous of.


CHAPTER 55 : "Issues"