“You can call me when you’re lonely. I’ll be your temporary fix.”

Those were the words that he said to me and it was plain simple, he wanted nothing but s*x and I wanted nothing more than to.

I was the kind of girl who was too scared of falling in love again because I feel like there is something more in life than being mournful over a guy who never actually gave a hell. I deserve something more than pain and misery over a stupid heartbreak. Since then, I got too scared of commitment that I no longer wanted to be in one. I wanted fun and I wanted to feel like I am alive again.

He was the kind of guy who was too busy for permanent relationships. The superstar that all women wanted to bang with. The kind of guy who would have any girls kneel in front of him because well, he is that kind of guy. He was a guy with a hectic schedule, sold out world tours, drinking champagne in private jets, holding a mic in one hand, and conquering all over the world in the other.

Maybe I needed someone to show me how to live again and he needed someone to show me how to love.

You Can Call Me

　　I spent a few hours watching and listening to the music videos played in MTV. After a commercial, Silver Spade's?Best Song Ever?came on and of course I wouldn't want to miss watching it. I remember how Monique used to laugh so hard watching this when this music video first came out.


　　"Can I just say what HUGE fans we are of you guys!"


　　"Huge! Nathan, Lewis, Peter, Gage, Zack-"


　　"Sure. Whatever you say big guy."


　　A few more conversation goes on with the boys as they sit on the couch and these handsome men can totally act. And I'm truly amazed how Lewis and Nathan's faces looked totally different from their normal face.


　　"We want to introduce you to our marketing guy. Marcel! Marcel!"


CHAPTER 70 "Indonesia" 2