HEART WRENCHING SIGHT

He was that amber eyed, ugly towel thief bastard. Why his eyes are always wide open whenever he sees me. You sure are drooling over me! What if he spreads false accusations about me all over the university. His nature doesn't looks like a gossiper's. He seems like a serious person but still a cringe. Well, whatever. I realized, I don't even know his name yet, so yeah, towel theif he is.

I catched my breath after getting out of swimming room, standing behind its entrance doors and unfolded my shorts. I felt my inner thighs all soaked. I went to the washroom, the mirror gave me a horror. My cheeks were burning red and my body was radiating heat. It was my call to get laid just now. I wonder what Aston would be thinking of me after seeing me like this. I cleaned myself and felt my surroundings being calm after a while.

"Hey, join us!" I heard someone shouting while I was sipping my margarita, sitting in the front of the gymnasium. I raised my eyes, a red-haired pale guy who seem tall and with moderate muscles looking at me with puzzled expressions.

"Are you talking to me?" I shouted so my voice could be heard by him as I was sitting in the top row seating.

"Yes, you! Lets play together." he said persistently. Archery and me? I rehearsed last time in high school. Never was I good at it.

"No, I'll pass!" I said awkwardly.

"Com'on, it would be fun! I need an opponent and you seem free" said the red-haired guy. I stood up and reached him.

"Well, I'm not good at it. You'll win continuously. Trust me!"

"It's fine. I'll teach you! By the way, I'm Smith Jasper!" said Smith and brought his hand forward.

"Okay, I'll try it. I'm Emma Stone!" I shaked his hand.

"Yeah I know your name!" said Smith with his eyes widened. Sure! The drama made me popular already. I forced a smile and we went to the court. Smith stretched his muscles. I realized he sure got best of his hormones which made him so tall. He passed me a bracer and a bow. I drew the string. My hands were stuttering as I held it firmly in my right hand.

"Let's start, one-two-three!" said Smith. We released the strings and my aim predictably was poor. I felt dismayed.

"See, first you have to hold the bow depending on your eye dominance, then draw it with.." My eyes captured Aston making his way inside the gymnasium, laughing hysterically with John as if he was the only hot funny guy left in this world. It was so freshening seeing his eyes crinkle at the corners. Never have I ever seen him laughing so wildly.

"So, you got my point?" said Smith. I looked at him and percieved I didn't hear a word he said.

"Ah! I'm sorry. Can you explain again?" Suddenly, Aston saw me. His expressions turned serious, dark and fishy as if a black cloud roared over him.

After getting some teachings from Smith. I drew the string.

"Hey Emma! Yo go girl!" shouted John. I passed him a smile. My hands were shaking because Aston was gazing at me with crossed arms. You can do it Emma! Fuck Aston. Don't think about him.

I released the string in awe. My expectations hurted me conventionally. I didn't have the nerve to face Aston. John came to me.

"It's fine! We are real buddies. I am no good at it too!" said John and pressed his lips with disappointment. I glared at him. I couldn't stop denying my body not to look towards Aston. I averted my eyes and he mockingly smiled towards me. Who are you to daunt me? My body was burning up. Is he good at it?

MERILYN'S POV:

The serene air hugs back my composure. The coffee felt unusual. I placed the coffee beside me on the bench. What bad did I do to even get a resentful coffee. The day no longer feels on my side. I keep crumbling everything I pass to.

"Can I sit?" said someone.

The voice was sweet and a lot familiar. I raised my eyes, Luna? I was so happy to see her talking to me again.

"Yeah, sure. The bench is all free for you."

Am I exaggerating? I couldn't gather my thoughts when Luna sat beside me.

"Luna, first of all, I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt your feelings.. I.."

"Merilyn, don't be sorry for your sexuality. I should've talked to you instead of being indignant towards you. The thought of you being bi-sexual never crossed my mind. I always thought you were just.." said Luna as she slowed down her voice.

"The fact is that I never knew it myself too."

Her eyes widened.

"Then we shouldn't let it come between our friendship. I am grateful to have abundant of memories with you. Let's be just friends but I need some time." said Luna and took a deep breath. I could feel the holes striking her heart with every of her words trying to comfort me.

"I am glad to have a friend like you too. I totally understand if you want some space." She passed me a heartfelt smile and I smiled back at her.

After resolving my relationship with Luna, my heart wasn't heavy. I felt free of stress. The only thing that breaks me is when I don't sort out with someone. It was almost 6 in the evening. I felt hungry so I got up to make some snacks and just then I heard a notification on my phone. I grabbed it. I was shocked, John texted me!

'Let's meet, we need to talk!'

My heart started racing after reading his text. Every of our sweet childhood memories flashed before my eyes and then our kiss at the club. We used to be great friends. How did we come to this? When did I start feeling for him? What would I tell him?

'I'm waiting outside your house'

What the hell, John? I ran towards my window and saw his black ford parked. He didn't even give me time to dress or to decide if we should meet. Asshole! I was wearing my usual's, the tight fitted white camisole and black leggings. I started typing,

'Give me a minute'

I wore a white net shirt above my camisole and reached the door. I locked my house and turned around just to see John was staring at me the whole time sitting inside his car. I sat in his car.

"Were you instructing or asking me to meet?" I scowled at him. He raised his one brow with amuse.

"Well, you just obeyed my order! Isn't it?" said John. His voice was heavy and I found it sexy. His eyes were nostalgic, whom I've forever stared since a child, cuddling me up.. He always made me do things I didn't want to do. He was my triggering amulet, a total dumbass but always leaving a cheerful impression on my soul.

Bit by bit he was drawing nearer, this feeling was soul-stirring and felt so beautiful. I realized I was just an inch away from his lips. I suddenly straightened myself back on seat. He coughed, maybe to get rid of the tension that piled up between us. I took a deep breath to release the awkwardness.

"Ah, so where are we going?" I asked when my hands were shaking potentially.

"Where do you think?" said John.

What does he mean? How would I know?

"No.. seriously?" My heart elated that he still remembers our place. The place where we used to go whenever we fought or were extremely depressed.

"Yeah-hhh" said John loudly when we both were laughing like retards.

"M-Jace!! Huh? I miss that already"

"I miss it too maynn! Do you remember how we came up with this name? M-Jace! Were we right in our minds back then?" John said while laughing.

I remember that day, we were 12 when my parents fought for the first time that it scared me to death and his parents just got divorced. I couldn't stop crying nor him. So, we held our hands, walked and kept walking until we found a corner in the street surrounded by trees but two of the trees had a little space between them, illuminating light. We went in, it had bright green glittered trees on the both sides and a stone made bench in between. In front, the whole lake was reflecting the sun setting down and we both looked at each other and smiled. We sat on the bench.

"This is our place from now on" said John.

"Yes, no one can come here except us but brother can join us sometimes."

"Yeah, Aston is fine. What should we name it?" asked John while pouting.

"Our place" I screamed with joy.

"Our peace place!" screamed John with happiness while correcting me.

"No" I said thinking its too basic.

"Merilyn, John peace place." I screamed with thrill but I didn't know if he would like the name.

"That's Great! So, we call it M-Jace!" said John smiling broadly with his fingers joined to make victory gesture.

"Yeah I remember, John. We were a little crazy back then. But you haven't changed!"

"You have!" said John. I wonder what change is he talking about.

"You've gotten.. uglier than the childish you!" said John and laughed.

"Fuck you John!" I said loudly.

"Are you offended?" asked John.

"No, at least I don't have a big nose like you!"

John laughed and stopped the car. He looked at me and kept gazing quietly with darkness hidden in his eyelids. He seem more mature than he used to be. His face turned out pretty attractive. I found his stare evaporating my soul, never have I felt like this with him.

He suddenly held my face. I felt my heart ending, devastating inside me, beating excessively. His thumb pressed my lower lip.

"Well, I meant you've gotten more prettier and jolting hot." said John while sliding his thumb over my lower lip.

I leaned closer, without giving a second thought. The pressure I exerted over his lips was the only thing that kept me hanging. He passionately kissed me as if he was giving me his whole authority. We kept sucking each others lips as if the previous one was not enough. He got back, breathing heavily. I tilted my face, breathing aggressively. I looked around and noticed that we reached our place.

We got out of the car, went inside the trees and sat over the bench. The lake was sprinkled with little shinning balls reflecting the sky and the full moon was surrounded by ethereal glow as if the sight could bring about never ending peacefulness to the one who captures it. He held my hand, it brought warmness within my whole body. I gripped his hand tight as if we stroked hardly to all the sorrows we brought into this place.

"I loved you since I was 5, but I never wanted to be loud about it. I just wanted us to go through everything naturally." said John. His words curled me up with tenderness.

"I was never sure of my feelings. Never! But I always had a place for you inside me which I knew no one could take away, John."

I laid my head over his smooth shoulder and we stared at the heart wrenching sight for long.

TO BE CONTINUED...