Does he hate me this much?

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Crina pov

"Thank you so much for the visit." I finally said to Julius as I finally saw him leave the house. He was such a big accompaniment to me and surely he was able to rise something in me which I in fact did not know that still existed with in me.

I was feeling so many things which were in fact not easy for me to describe. However with all that I was still able to describe one thing and that was The kind of excitement that I was feeling at the moment. It was something that had gone way completely the moment my lover walked away from me and chose some one else.

However at this moment, it was like Julius had some how triggered something in me which I had no idea how it had come so suddenly like that . I did not expect it to turn out that way but it was already like that.

Unconsciously, I found my self smiling along with my hands touching my lower lips in fact anticipating about how it could be to kiss him… 'Are you even hearing yourself speak.' My subconscious questioned me but of course I did not have an answer to that question at all.

It was just s feeling in me which was so new and so it was going to take some time for me to figure out what it was exactly.

"Bravo!bravo!" the next thing that I heard was the voice of Ryder who was in fact clapping his hands as he approached me. I did not need to first look up at him to see that he was iin fact being sarcastic in his speech.

I turned around to his direction as he walked on the stairs coming towards me. He was only in his shorts and did not have anything upstairs . This meant that his abs were on total display for me . I fpund myself looking specifically on his chest as he took steps nearer to me .

With in just a nick of time, he was right next standing to me. In fact only a few inches away from me. At this point , I looked every where but his face . I don't know why I ended up behaving in such a manner.

This was never me at all.

Of course, it was not me until he started to kiss me and all that . I was a totally good lady who minded about only one thing and that is the up bringing of my son until of course he kissed me . I up to this point wonder what was really wrong with him when he did that .

But then all that has happened and so there is nothing that can be done other than just trying to live with that and then see the way forward as we are now going to see.

"I see you are all smiles." he said provocatively . I could see that he was that way because of that smirk that formed on his face. He was actually acting like he was those days before I got an accident ,

'Come on , Son . of course I have to smile .Don't tell me you don't tell me to be happy . I ma your mother and children are supposed to be happy for their parents." I had a reason why I said that and indeed was going to wait and see how he was going to react to this.

I was now going to begin playing along with him . I mean he was getting more confusing with all the time that went on.

'Damn it ! I know that ." he was almost fuming out but he some how managed to control himself . looked at him keenly . I knew he was dying to have so many other things to say but he was actually just trying to push himself back and not do it.

"Okay, I think now you need to know that I am your mom and I know each and very decision that I make. I in fact know when a decision is wrong and I know when it is right. You know have to stop pestering me like that ." I knew that if I continued to give him so much freedom, he was finally going to make me get into trouble which I could in fact regret later.

The best thing that i had to do was prevention which is further better than cure.

"Oh , so that means that you are now going to use that as an excuse to whore around with first man that comes your way . I can now understand the reason why dad left you."

I felt my head spin. I felt so distressed . I felt so much at the same time. I tried to swallow but even saliva was so hard for me to swallow. I was still figuring out the words that my own step son had said to me.

He knew …yes , he knew very well that that topic was the most sensitive one in my whole life and I therefore did not want to talk about it as that. Did he hate me that much that he had to even say such to me?

My eyes were burning with threatening tears that were actually in dare need to fall from my eyes but at the same time I was not willing to cry. I was actually not going to cry. He was my son and he was not going to see my tears no matter what.

I felt like slapping him but I remembered what I had vowed not to do in my life and that was to slap my son. I was not some one who believed in that kind of brutality towards children.

With that in my mind, I just went upstairs to my bedroom. I actually had to use the sides of the stairs to get to my bedroom as I felt my legs were so weak and they could not properly support my whole fame.

The moment I got into my bedroom, I full right on the bed and that is when I yelled out a cry. In fact it was a very loud cry but even with that , I felt like it was actually not even enough for me at all.

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