Now what is this ?

CRINA POV

I looked around the one bed room apartment and could not believe it was actually me who was now in this state.

I mean was I right while I was doing what I did in the first place. it was like I just thought about things like that and at the end of it all I moved out of the house without even thinking about what could be the consequences of it all.

I am now in an apartment without my son by myside at all. One thing is that my whole life depends on that boy. In fact I have lived each and every second in my life thinking about that.

Now what was I going to do at this point . Was I going to stay here until when I thought that everything was back to normal .But then another thing was how was I going to know that I was having the normal if I was not being able to face the problems that I was going through with my son.

"God , why did you have to make me go through all these? No , what was I to do in order to over come all these?"

I knew that I was not going to get any direct answer from God but I could not help asking for sure.

I sat down on the bed feeling so exhausted as well as stressed. I was hungry and yet I also still felt the pain from the wounds that were not yet completely healed. What I had to do was to at least treat my self with the medicines that I am meant to inject my self with .

It was such a pain fall act that I surely never liked doing but then at the same time I had to do it since it was the only optional that I was left with to do . I was grateful when I I was done with that .

I had already bought some food while getting in here so I did not need anything such as room service. I ate quietly but what was still fresh in my mind were those words that Ryder accused me about and called me.

It was so hard for me to believe that my own son could come up with those words .i knew we were not getting along but i did not expect he could treat me like that

I thought he was the one who had actually told me more than once to fall in love and get some one . Why was it that at this time he was the same one who did not want to even see a man in my house.

I saw it right from the beginning that he did not like Justin. But that man had been very good to me . He deserved to be appreciated for everything that he had done for me.

Wait , I did not want to even thing about what was going through my mind at that point . no no , I don't want to even mention it since I can't even take it at all. I don't even want to think about it at all.

After doing everything that I needed, I lie on the bed having a sea of thoughts in my head. What had happened to me and how was I going to be able to over come all these things that are going through my head .

I wondered if I could ever be able to go back to the life that I led before. Though it was a bit boring in one way or the other , I can assure you that I did not care most of the time since I had my beloved son by my self.

Now that we were in all these problems and all that , how was I going to be able to get everything back to normal. I tried to sleep that night but it was not so easy . In fact I fall asleep in the weir hours of the morning .

I dreamt when I was back at the house at I was having the best of time with my son. I was actually still in my so good dream until when a knock at the door disrupted me. I tried to concentrate but it was so hard for me to do that with the intense knocking that was on the door.

I sat up in my bed and upon staring on the my phone, I could not believe that it was actually already 10.00am . it was evident that I had over slept . That was actually evident that it was actually room service.

"Coming ." I shouted. But of course I had to first get down with teeth brushing and washing my face before I could appear at the door before someone.

I quickly jumped out of the bed into the bathroom and with in a few minutes I was done and running to the door to see who was there.

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