5. First kiss

Three weeks later

There had happened a lot in these three weeks, not with the boys they still hate me, but at school. I like it now a lot better when they're not messing with me every day. I have the girls now and Brian is almost every lunch hour with us, which Shelly hates. But I begin to like him, and he made it clear he likes me too. He had asked me on a date. But Rob can not know about this, it has to be all behind his back and from Chris, I don't know what he will think when I come home with a boy.

I'm almost seventeen but still, his own boys can not take girls at home, why could I?

That day after lunchtime, I stood at my locker and see Brian coming to me, again asking if I don't want to do something after school. It's not that simple because Chris still picks us up, and I don't know how I can get home without him. I can't buy a car or can learn to drive without money. Rob has just started with his driver's lessons, but he will never help me out. And I don't think that Chris with his monthly Payment can buy lessons for us two. Brian had a car I have heard from Shelly, but what will Chris think when I come home later in a car with another guy?

"Another time, Brian."

He looks disappointed but accepts it. He takes me in his arms when he looked if there is nobody around and kisses me. I look at him with my hand to my lips, this was my first kiss. And it doesn't feel right to have to do this all in secret. When I want to try it again, I see people coming out of the cafeteria, and we go back to class. I like Brian a lot, maybe I have to go talk about it with Chris. When we are home that day, I want to ask Chris about it in the kitchen. Rob pushes me aside and goes into the kitchen, taking me away from Chris, with his driver's license in his hands waving at his dad enthusiastically.

"Good son."

He looks at his father with a look that wants to hear another thing.

"Your car will be here tomorrow, it's not a new car, but it drives very well."

I see Rob happy, smiling at his father. He didn't care if he gets a second-hand car. He's happy he can go where he wanted to. I'm jealous, I wanted it too, but I didn't dare to ask him.

"Oh, Rob, now you can bring your brothers and sister home."

This was not what he expected when he gets his driver's license, he wants to answer a sneer back, but his father stops him.

"Now I can do more jobs and then there is more money for your guys and the house."

We nod at him and I let my questions behind and go to my room. This could be the outcome of my problem, now Chris is going to work, I can finally meet Brian after school. Rob didn't like his father's plan, and his mood goes from bad to worst. He screams more and more at us when we walk next to him when we are too close, name it. At the diner, the father tells the news to the two brothers, that neither is happy with this new arrangement. On the face of Rob, can we read enough?

"And maybe I have at least enough money to let Rachel go for her driver's license. Then must Rob, not to drive you all."

Thank you, Chris! Now they are mad at me. I take their chances to get a driver's license. He looks angry at the boys, and they look again at their plates, but my hunger is gone. When we are upstairs and Chris is still watching TV downstairs. I am writing in my diary when I feel somebody watching me.

"If you think I will drive you everywhere you want, then you are crazy!"

What have ever done to yourself? I didn't ask him anything! I lost my father, it was almost four years ago, but I had never chosen to live here, he has to stop this behavior towards me.

"Rob, I didn't ask your father to live here! I loved my dad, if he was still alive, I wouldn't be here!"

With tears in my eyes, I looked away. He looked at me, and I was crying, running out of the room. I feel that there is somebody walking towards me. I feel the warm hands and the smell and I know it's Marc.

Happy he is here, he always feels when I need him the most.

He didn't ask questions, he was only here to support me.

Not long after that talk with Chris. Rob had his car and was almost all night gone. Rob drove us to school and home, with an angry face, but he did it. It ends almost every time in a fight between us and that he won't want to drive for me, or that I had to break up with Brian.

Yes, he had asked me as his girlfriend. I was also accepted at a ballet dance class after school. Where Rob was against it and didn't want to drive me.

I'm so happy that my boyfriend is driving me and picking me up without any complaints. I'm so happy and Chris is also very happy for me, he had bought me a whole new outfit for the classes, he thought that Rob drove me, but I had not the guts to tell him the truth.

At school the next day.

I meet Brian at my locker, where Shelly Is looking disgusted that he is kissing me. I'm so happy with Brian, he made me finally feel the love, that I lost when my dad died. It was long ago that anybody really loved me. He takes me in his arms, and I see everybody looking at us. He is a popular guy, they think that I'm not good enough for him.

He self didn't care what anybody thought, he was almost all day with me on my side. Rob was always looking with a face that can explode if we say something to him. Brian says to me, I have to let it go, that Rob always had a temper, and not is going to stop now. But I have to come clean that it makes me uncomfortable. Absolutely, to live with him in one house, where he can make my life more difficult than I want. He can tell his dad, did he not do it yet?

At lunchtime, I'm sitting next to Brian, and next to Brian is one empty seat. The rest of my friends Natalie and Beth and Marc are sitting on the other side of the table. I know he is three years younger, but we didn't care about it, he is taller than all the guys of his age and nobody dares question us about it. I feel there is going to happen something and I see Rob is going to sit next to Brian.

"Did you have sex with her? "

What's this? Is he really asking if we had sex? Is this one of his tricks again?

"Shut up, Rob. That's none of your business." He starts to laugh, and I can fall to the ground out of shame.

"Oh, now I know what Heather is talking about."

He leaves without further explanation, alone, Brian looks a little pale now. Who is Heather, and what is she talking about? Shelly looks angry at her brother and throws him looks that almost can kill. What is happening here, can I not be happy for a month? What is he talking about?

"Who is Heather?"

Brian didn't say anything. Shelly did the talking.

"An ex-girlfriend of Brian that is still after him! What did you do, Brian!"

I hear the voice of her chairs scraping on the floor when she stands up and almost hits Brian in his face.

"I didn't do it on purpose, please Rachel, believe me, it was foolish."

I run crying to the lady's room, where I lock myself in one of the toilets when I hear somebody coming into the restroom.

"She is so stupid that she believed everything from Brian when he is still in bed with me."

I hear a girl, and I know certain it is Heather, and I walk out of the toilet where I was hiding, and I hit her right in her face.

I see the blood coming out of her nose and her running out of the restroom with a friend whom she was talking after her with some tissues. It feels better, but did I do it to the right person? Brian did fool me, too, with that girl.

When I go out of the restroom, every girl in the hallway looks at me with respect, and a couple of girls are about to cheer for me.

"Finally, that girl gets what she deserves," Says a girl right from me.

"I'm Jennet, she has stolen my boyfriend too a year ago "

I look at the girl that introduced herself as Jennet, and we speak for almost a whole hour. We had ditched class, I'm not the kind of girl that ditched lessons, but I don't want to see his face.

"Can we talk, Rachel?"

Looking at Brian standing before me in the parking lot where I was waiting with Marc and Pieter.

"How dare you, Brian! You are a cheating bastard!"

Marc wants to protect me I know, but I had to face him myself and I walk with him.

"She tricked me, Rachel. I didn't want her! We had no sex if you are thinking that, she had only kissed me."

I don't know what to believe, can I trust him? I know him for almost a month, what if that's not enough to know somebody that good? But I give him a chance and step inside his car, where he did drive me to my dance classes. I dance all the pain in my heart away in class. I feel the music in my veins and everything disappears, and I'm all alone in my dance room at home in the mansion.

When the dance teacher says the class is over, I'm always disappointed. I want to dance for more than one hour a day. But I must do this, to get a scholarship and can be the dancer that my mother was.

Outside, Brian is standing beside his car waiting for me. When I step in, he waits for something. When everybody is away he took my face and kissed me harder than before, I try to push him away, but he is stronger than I am.

He goes with his hands under the dress I was wearing and wants to touch me. I try to scratch him, but he is still there with his hands.

"Stop it, Brian! I don't want this!"

When I feel his hand in my panties, I'm trying to scream, but he holds his lips to mine. I bite him on his lip, but he doesn't make a move to let go of me. Then I feel somebody pull him out of the car, when I'm back calm and feel my heart rate calming down, I step outside the car. And I see him fighting with. That can't be true!