ITS HUMAN NATURE TO BE SELFISH

NOAH

I backed away from Ariel. I couldn't believe she was the one saying this to me .

"What ?" I asked in shock .

"You were going to commit suicide anyway. Please just go ahead. Let me go to hell , please"Ariel said in tears.

I scoffed. "unbelievable. I don't need your help anymore to prove my innocence, I'll do it on my own and since you don't care if I die, I don't care if you live in agony anymore.I won't be commiting suicide. Find a way to live with yourself."

With that said , I walked away as I heard her cry behind me.

When I got home, I went upstairs to my room and slammed my room door shut. How could she say that ?

I understand how she must have felt after seeing what she saw but her words telling me to commit suicide hurt.

Why ? I don't know. Maybe because I thought we were the same and she understands me or maybe because I thought for a while we'd become close.

Even now, I'm worried about leaving her all alone out there after she'd told me to commit suicide.

I opened my room door and ran out of the house back to the spot I'd left Ariel but I didn't see her .

Where is she ?

"Ariel!!" I shouted as I looked everywhere for her. I shouldn't have left her . No matter what she said , I was the only one who could help her and I left her.

"Ariel!!!" I shouted. I heard someone sobbing behind a building and when I looked I saw her with a lighter and petrol.

My eyes widened in shock "Hey , what are you doing? Put it down "

Ariel sobbed" I will create my own hell"

"Are you insane!??"I shouted" why are you so quick to believe whatever Lucifer shows you . Do you really believe you could hurt your sister?"

"I don't know!!" She shouted back "I can't remember anything, do you have any idea how annoying that is ?"

"So let's find out the truth together. Put it down , huh?"

She slowly dropped down the petrol and turned off the lighter and I ran to hug her .

"I'm sorry for leaving you all alone "I said

She sobbed loudly and hugged me back " I'm sorry for what I said too "

Then it occurred to me the real reason I wanted to so badly prove that what Lucifer had shown her was false, The real reason why I had ran to find her despite what she had said, The real reason why what she said had hurt me.

It was because I liked her and I was afraid that I would have to die for her to find peace with herself.

It wasn't even peace she was going to find if I die , she'd be going to hell.

It's human nature to be selfish and if it turns out that what Lucifer showed her was the truth, I'd made up my mind that I won't commit suicide.

I was going to be selfish and keep her by my side whether she likes or not.

That night, I took when home with Ariel.

As I opened my room door , Mom rushed up to me and hit me.

"Where have you been?!"

"Just out "I went to my room and locked the door.

I sat by Ariel's side "Do you want to talk about it ? What Lucifer showed you, I mean "

She shook her head " No "

I nodded my head. I understood what she was going through" First thing tomorrow, we'll go and find out the truth"

She shook her head hurriedly"No. Let's clear your name first "

I sighed"If you are still doubting yourself-"

"That's not it. You've helped me out alot and I want to repay you back before I'm not able to have the chance to again"

I nodded my head. That was a relief to hear because I actually thought she'd forgotten about my own problem.

"Okay. Do you sleep?"

She shook her head "I don't even think I can close my eyes tonight after what I saw "

"Then do you want to talk till you are tired? To keep your mind busy from thinking about it"

"Talk about what?"

"Tell me about how you were when you were alive "

Ariel sighed"There's not much to tell. I just got bullied at every chance they get. My life was a living hell" she looked at me"Sometimes , I envy you "

"Why?"

"God cares about you enough to send someone to stop you from commiting suicide but it wasn't that way with me. There was no one to save me till the very end "

I held her hand.

I could save her now. I could save her from this pain now but that would mean me commiting suicide and her going to hell.

But was that really saving someone?

"If things get difficult for you, tell me. I'll save you"

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