I can see why he wants you back

***Taylor's POV***

I don't really know why I invited him in, if anything I'm supposed to be distancing myself from the whole situation. And sorting myself out.

My anger for Tom was completely unavoidable, I'm quite shocked that I was unable to rein it in at all. His stupid face, pulling that expression of disbelief at me dismissing him plays in my head. Like I was the one in the wrong. I quickly check what he said in the message he just sent me whilst waiting for Matty.

Some shit about not believing how quickly I've clearly moved on and how that's not like me.

I delete the message and consider blocking him. I'll decide later.

Matty comes through the door. It is absurd to me how this guy wants to to stick around right now after witnessing that slanging match.

He closes the door behind him, I take off his leather jacket and hang it up for him for when he leaves. I almost forget that he has been wearing only a T-shirt, doesn't he get cold?

I decide it's safest to invite him into the kitchen, not the bedroom. I mentally go through where the pictures of Tom are in my bedroom, I know there are some group pics of me and Rhea and he is in them.

I make a note to get rid or cut him out where possible. He really has annoyed me this time.

I offer Matty, who is casually sitting at my dining room table looking like heaven, a drink. I don't even know what he likes.

I give him a coffee upon his request. He's watching me, I can feel his eyes as I move around my kitchen. I glance over at him and smile, he is perfection and I feel like crap right now.

I sit down with him at the table waiting for his inevitable questions about what just happened.

"That is just what I needed" he says sipping his coffee. He seems relaxed sitting there as if he is completely used to being in my house.

I think he's waiting for me to bring it up.

"That was my ugh ex" I say addressing the elephant in the room.

I decide it's best to be fully truthful about the whole thing.

He just smiles at me and waits for me to continue sharing. His smile makes me see light in the situation and I laugh a little. His smile makes me disregard my bad mood.

"We have been distancing ourselves from each other for a couple weeks, or so. We're not right for each other as you can see" I say and leave it at that for now.

Not sure if he wants to know more.

I drink my water. And wait for him to say anything back.

There's an ashtray on my dining room table, my mum smokes and so does my older sister. I never tried. He indicates to it and asks if it's okay to light up. I nod.

"You want one too" he says

"Please" I say.

He rolls up two and I just watch him. His fingers moving. He hands me mine and lights me up. Second time around I'm much better at this. I've got the hang of it. I stand and open the windows, my mum will ask me if I've been smoking her cigarettes otherwise.

"I can see why he wants you back" he finally says.

I'm shocked by this, of all the things he could have said this isn't what I expected.

"What do you mean?" I say curious.

"Are you kidding me, that guy was out there for how long? For all you know babe he could have been there all night" he jokes teasingly

" and yet you still cannot or refuse to see how beautiful you are" he says and let's it sink in.

My tummy flips. I can't believe that Matty with his dark green eyes, perfect skin and dark hair called me beautiful. He is the epitome of beauty to me. I don't think I need to tell him that he knows the effect he has on me surely. I feel so average next to him.

I finally look up at him, I can feel the heat on my cheeks and I'm sure I've turned red.

"Im not and that's besides the point, he's an idiot" I say instantly regretting it.

"Oh now we're getting to it" he teases me

"so what did he do?" He asks humour shining behind his eyes.

"Doesn't matter, he's an idiot." I close up and smile.

"Now I'm interested, how could any guy in his right mind do anything to lose somebody like you" he says.

"If you keep talking to me like that I'm going to have to come over and sit in your lap" I tease him.

"Point taken, I will not stop." He challenges me

We laugh together for a second. The atmosphere changes in the room and suddenly i am so aware of him. His eyes watching me, the way he pulls his hair out of his way. His tanned arms that I want around me holding me.

I decide I want Matty to know about everything, I feel like I can trust him and I hope I'm not mistaken.

"He moved on pretty soon, he started posting up pictures of himself with other girls on social media. And posing with them. I have a feeling he just wanted to get what he wanted and then move on" I blurt out

"Like I wasn't anything to him, he continually lied about stuff like I wouldn't find out the truth. He saw another girl whilst using me, I felt like nothing" I finish and then my head tells me to shut the hell up before I start crying in front of him. You look ugly when you cry I remind myself.

I look up at him, and I can see in his eyes he is really registering what I just said and that I am not mistaken in confiding in him.

"Come here" he whispers to me.

I walk to him and straddle him on the chair. He holds me.

"You are worth more than that, more than me even. Don't ever think you are nothing. Because you are somebody special to me" he says

And before I can protest he kisses me.

A kiss that has all of the passion of before but is not merely lustful. There is something more urgent in the way he kisses me, it is deeper. I briefly wonder how I can feel so attached to somebody I don't yet even know.

Had I of had some warning before he walked into my life perhaps I would have been better prepared for his charm. And more able to manage the intensity of the feelings I have for him, already, he draws the kiss to a close and the only thing I can think is that I need his lips on me again.