And definitely be careful

It's been two boring days of thinking about him, I manage to spend some time getting ready for uni. I went shopping for some new clothes and bought myself lots of autumn outfits for September. And a new leather jacket that's fitted and looks cool. I wake up in my room on Thursday morning desperately wishing Matty was here, or that I was somehow with him so that I could kiss his lips and run my fingers through his hair.

He has the sexiest chest, broad shoulders leading down to his tight abs. Dragging myself away from fantasising over him I grab my phone.

I have 2 messages. One from Rhea saying to meet her at 11 by Starbucks. I'm already thinking about my hot chocolate. It's cooler today and that means I can wear my new leather jacket.

The next one is from Matty sent last night.

Have a nice sleep babe. See you tomorrow let me know what kinda time you want me to pick you up xxx

I send him a quick reply.

Morning wish I was there with you, can you pick me up at like 1? If that works for you? Xxx

He doesn't reply yet he's probably still asleep, it's only half 8.

Weve spoken on the phone every night since we met, normally about random stuff, it usually ends with me sleeping and him hanging up. I've been falling asleep listening to him, I hope he isn't offended he wasn't boring I just felt so comforted listening to him. I'm still in shock that we're going out to have food together today, how quickly has this escalated?

I get out of bed and grab some breakfast in my pyjamas. Mum has left already for work, she's left me some money on the side (bless her) she still thinks I'm her little girl. Even though I literally have my own bank account and card, I'm a saver I don't touch my money I let it build up.

I will need it for when I go to uni and wanna live on anything but pot noodles.

After breakfast I go upstairs and decide what to wear. I pull out one of my longer dresses which has a low back, it's burgundy. I'm going to pair it with sheer tights and boots and my new jacket. I prefer autumn/winter clothes and I love darker colours.

I get myself ready, curling my hair and putting on a little bit of makeup. I usually go with just mascara and blusher but today I'm going to use my new lipstick too. I just hope I don't smear it everywhere whilst eating.

I grab my small black clutch fill it with my phone, keys and card and my lipstick for touch ups and I'm ready to go.

I check my phone whilst leaving the house. Matty has messaged to let me know he will be there. I smile and put my phone back into my clutch. I grab my headphones and start listening to music whilst making my way to see my bestie.

***

After sitting down with our drinks I decide to ask Rhea about Malachi first.

"He's really thoughtful, he brought wine to my house for our dinner. He's so grown up and mature you know ?" She says going on to list all of his good attributes.

She really likes him, I've never seen her fall for a guy like this. I can tell he makes her happy as her eyes twinkle when she talks about him.

"I was thinking you know we haven't gone all the way yet, but maybe soon..." she trails off

"you want my advice?" I say, she knows that me and Tom did it once.

"I'm sure he is committed to you, he looks at you and only you. When you feel okay and the moments right then you should take that step with him" I say

"You're right. We're both losing it together too, it would be his first time ever" she says reassuring herself. I know what she means, I have felt my own embarrassment at being less experienced than Matty.

She catches me looking into space.

"so what's your news" she asks sipping her coffee.

I smile.

"Matty and I are going out for some food later" I say, best to just come out with it.

"You're what? I thought you were taking things slow being undecided and all" she remarks

"I know, but he called me up and invited me out and said all this stuff about wanting to give things a go" I say

"That's a bit nuts- in a good way. Maybe he wants commitment" she says

I smile and nod.

"What you gonna say to Ross" she asks

"Im definitely going to talk with him, he's a nice guy he messaged me too actually. Asking me to let him know when he'll see me again" I tell her.

"Lucky girl" she laughs

"Just be careful. Don't put to much of yourself forward before you're sure. If that makes sense." She warns.

"That's the thing Matty openly told me that he was dating Jen and that they just left each other not long ago. Ohh do you know Jen by any chance?" I ask hopefully

"I do she's loud, bossy-you wouldn't be able to not notice her. She's your opposite. Bit of a skank but can be a laugh" Rhea sums her up.

Right I was expecting her to be that type. He seems to always go for that type of girl.

"He told you they were through?" She asks

"yes he said he wanted to be truthful and let me know. He even brought up his reputation and how he wasn't proud of it and that he wanted to try to do things differently" I say, red flags suddenly popping up in my head- I can change, I'll do better next time etc.

"Okay so that's good right? He told you what you're getting yourself into. Sounds like he wanted to protect you" she says

"Do you like him?" She says looking up at me.

"I'm already at the stage of thinking about him every waking minute and dreaming about him in my sleep." I say laughing

"So that's a yes" she laughs back.

"Okay so go eat together see what your heart and most importantly your mind is telling you after that." She advises

" and Ross?" I dare ask

"If Matty isn't seeing anybody else you need to respect that and do the same. I think to know that though you're gonna have to do the unimaginable and ask him if you are indeed exclusive or just seeing where things are going. Iron out the creases and get the details" she says

I know this is solid advice, I can't imagine asking him but I must do it.

"Ross is head over heels he won't move on too quick don't worry. I've got the feeling he'll forgive you of almost anything" she smiles.

"I saw him yesterday briefly actually when I was with Malachi at the park. He did ask about you" she says.

"just don't take too long deciding. And definitely be careful" she continues.

We finish our drinks take a look around a few of the shops and then hug each other goodbye. She asks me to call her later with updates. Her and Malachi are going to the skate park later so I tell her that we might join them anyways.

I head back home to wait for Matty. I can't help but notice the butterflies in my tummy. And how excited I am just at the prospect of seeing him again.