EPISODE OF LIFE 5

Title: The Picture of Memories

I am Sam and i am 20 years old, i have this normal life like the others, we search for what we want and what we like, we seek attention and love, respect and gentle.

We want to find the person we like, to respect and to love them.

We all want to find that feelings; being loved, respected, gentle and paeceful that no matter what the problem is, as long as that person is there, you will not think lowly of yourself and not be depressed.

We want to find this person who will understand us, love us, respect us and be contented of what we are and what we have.

We want to find that person that we can trust and tell our worries.

I my self want to find one, but unlucky she left me, alone, in here, in this unfair world.

4years ago...

I am Samuel Santiago, i am learning yes, but it was rather not fun but stressful and boring, it makes my head hurt and stuffs.

I met this girl online, i don't know what her intention was, all i know is she is my classmate who's asking for a math subject, her name is Kristel she is really not that good at math in our room, so i decided to help her when she ask me too.

it continued until she understand math that nicely, then after the months has passed, when we all was celebrating our last day in school, Kristel called me and says something that i didn't hear, its like "i hate you" or i thank you" just like that, i don't know what she meant and just nodded my head, and then she tell me something else and i just nodded, we were about to go home and i didn't see Kristel around, i think she went home early or what, i thought she was asking me to wait for her for more lesson or something.

When i went home i charged my phone and sleep, but to my freaking surprise when i opened my phone the theme of our conversation is Love and my nickname is Babe and hers are Baby, i, i don't know what to say or react, i was too stand to speak and specially i just woke up, i chatted her and ask whats happening she told me i said yes last night and i did but i don't know what shes saying, i just ask her what she told me last night and she told that she liked me and if i can be her boyfriend and i, the stupid one nodded without knowing.

I told her it was a mistake but she just pouted and i felt terrible about it so i just told her okay okay i am you boyfriend now.

2years has passed but we are still together, she was really cheerful and i myself is trying to understand her more and more, we stop celebrating our monthsary and wait for our anniversary, we just playing the games we both liked and watching the movie we both love, we also took picture every time we went outside or just playing.

It was fun, for the first time in my life, study is not that bad anymore, its rather more fun because of her, she was there for me when i needed her, when i have a problem and when i miss her, i was feeling bad because i couldn't do that to her, i said sorry for that but she told me it's okay because she understand my situation, i mean my family situation.

3 and a half year has passed and we are still together being stronger day by day, but it was difficult because she is always absent minded this few days, i don't know why she won't tell me the truth and i just let it be, maybe she wants space or not want to talked about it, but to my worry, when she left i spied her and to my shocked she go the hospital with her mother and went out looking devastated, i wonder why but decided to not tell her that i spied on her, i know she will be mad, really mad.

I wanna ask her but couldn't, so ask her mom and she told me that Kristel is not feeling well this days and wants to be with me all the time, i am so concern so i ask Kristel what she wants to do and where she wants to go, but she told me she just wants to be with me so i hugged her, tap her head and said okay okay fine i'm here.

And now 4years has passed i did found the person that i wished for, she told me she wont leave me she told me that we will say that bow in front of Jesus, she told me that this picture of us will not end, she told me that this life, our life, we both will be happy with our future kids, she told me everything that i wished for, and i trust her that she can and we will, but why.

Why are you lying there and not waking up, you told me we will be together be happy together, be sad together even die together.

Why didn't you tell me that you're already dying?

why didn't you tell me that this picture will be just our memories?

why didn't you tell me that you are going to leave me?

Kristel, why did you leave me?

All you leave me is this picture full of you and me, where you were still with me.

I know that you are happy now, at least you are not suffering anymore, baby don't worry, i will be fine i might suffer because of losing you and missing you but thankfully the picture that we had will be my precious memories with you in it, no matter where you are right now, i wish you won't forget me.

I love you Kristel.

I will be holding The picture of our memories