Chapter 5

I woke up the next day with this swollen eyes of mine and last night incidence flashing into my mind, I can't believe that Jack would have done that to me, how could he possibly think that I didn't love him and that all I wanted was being the princess, he broke my heart and shattered me, But it's okay, it's fine , if that what he thought of me has then I would be who he thinks I am and I wouldn't change cause he made me do it....I guess he didn't actually loved me cause if he ever did then he wouldn't have said what he said last night and am not going to prove to him that he was wrong , Am done proving that I am the good guy here , now I know what am going to do and I didn't care...

I stood up from my bed and quickly freshen up putting on something lovely and also adding make-up on my face not because I wanted to but because I needed to in order to hide my swollen eyes ... I matched in the court room where the king was , You must be wondering why, I was going to do something I would regret for the rest of my life and Jack caused it.... I was going to tell the king that I have accepted the marriage with prince James and that I was ready to marry him , Why? because what was the point, what was there left, My love had already told me he hated me and broke up with me , he didn't even listened to what I had to say and didn't trust me, So what was there to live for , and I think it would be best that If I just get married to prince James and i knew that I was forever going to regret this but if there was going to be anyone to blame , it was going to be jack, he made me do this.... I could feel tears slowly gathering in my eyes because it just hurts when the person you love and care about doesn't even trust you... I quickly wiped the tears away cause I didn't wanted the king to see , Slowly I walked to the king and told him that I was ready to marry prince James and what did the king do, he didn't even ask me twice whether I was sure about it or not he just stood up happily and left to inform prince James and his family...

I could feel tears gathering in my eyes threatening to fall making the whole place look all foggy, why was my life so bad like this , Now that I had accepted the marriage out of anger and frustration , I was going to have to marry prince James who I know nothing about and I don't love , Was it because I was a maid that Stephanie thought she could use me like that and ruin my life, l was never going to forgive her for this , She caused this, she cause everything that was happening, She caused Jack and I separation...To think of it, she was just like her dad, wicked and evil...

I broke down crying in the court room, I knew that I had to put myself and stop myself from crying unless someone might just see but no, I was weak and heartbroken....

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The pass few weeks have been torture....The king had already arranged my marriage for me and to be sincere, it seems like time is flying and my marriage is drawing closer and closer... To make matters worst the prince has tried coming close to be many times, I think he thinks that I agreed to marry him out of my free will and I liked him or something, he is just so irritating and I just can't stand him and I guess maybe it because I was still in love with jack even after all he had did to me and even if he hates me now.... Speaking of jack, I haven't seen him in quite a while, and I think maybe it because he doesn't want to see me anymore and that just me extremely sad at the very thought of it ....

I laid on my bed still thinking and wondering how my life had gone from bad to worst within a few weeks, But I guess my life wasn't met to have an happy ever after like how fairy tales do and to had to my pain, what kept on annoying me was the fact that my mind constantly flew to jack and the moment we had spent together...Oh why can't I stop thinking about him when he must have longed forgotten about me , I guess that I have become so attached to him , my life sucks and there was nothing I could do about it... I still so much love him, maybe I should see him, maybe he has something to say, maybe....No I can't , he loves me no more and I should just accept that... I kept on battling with this thought and it was eating me alive, I had to see Jack, I needed to or else I might just run mad ... I concluded on seeing him even if he doesn't want me to in order to have peace of mind....

I stood up nervously from my bed and walked to the door and went to met him in the place that we secretly use to meet.... it was dark and scary and I was having second thoughts about the whole thing, maybe I should just go back, I should have never came here.....I was about to leave when my eyes spotted a figure in a corner and it looks like Jack's, Thank goodness he was here , Slowly I came to clearly see the figure well that I assumed to be Jack's and with every step that I took, the figure became clearer and it looked like he was with someone which made me a little scared, who could that possibly be and with jack at this hour? fear gripped me and I slowly moved closer with my legs shaking to find out who it was....

There stood the one and only Jack with somebody else, a "MAIDEN", They stood there holding hands and laughing, she was light with orange hair, having the same green eyes as Jack...., I recognized her, she was also a maid too And when she saw me, she immediately became frightened and left quickly , maybe because she scared because I was the "Princess" and was going to do something to her...With jack possibly confused about why she left , turning to look at me...I could feel tears not gathering but already flowing down my face without me realizing that I was already crying.... How could Jack do this to me, No this must be a dream, I can't believe this , But at last my worst nightmare was the reality, Jack turned back and stood there facing me with a emotionless casual look as if nothing was going on.., I stood there crying and looking at him but he did nothing....My head was spinning and I needed to speak because I needed answers...

"How could you do this jack" I said with my voice shaking...

"Huh! Really you could ask me that, After all you did to me, Really?...Am the one that suppose to be asking you how could you do this to me , You are getting married to him, to that prince right? he said and my eyes widen, Did he not know that he was the one that mine me to do it...

"Oh! Surprised, well you shouldn't be and you dare come here asking me how could I? You chose wealth over me remember? So I chose her over you, At least she is willing to leave everything behind just to be with me...He said looking all pissed off and I knew I needed to tell him that it wasn't true

"Jack, it not true...I love...

"Save it" he cut me off

"I don't need it... Really I don't, I thought that you really actually did love me..Alexa, I really did, I gave my heart to you and what did you do, You broke it into pieces and it still hurt , it really does"...

"No stop, Stop! , Stop it please just stop, Please" I said pleading because I just couldn't take it anymore, he was indeed hurt but was hurting me to, So much, I just didn't want to hear anymore...

"Okay, if you want me to believe you then run away with me, he said with love in his eyes....

"We would start a family and have beautiful children together, he said now with a sad look...It breaks my heart to see him like this but I just can't run away with him

"I...I can't Jack, I said looking away

"I don't want a innocent child to become fatherless, I don't....

"You know what, Just forget it okay, He said with tears in his eyes and left and I ran away, I was broken into pieces from the inside....

The rain was pouring hard, It was a cold night, I laid back on the floor in my room and cried myself to my misery, how could Stephanie ruin my life like that, I was getting married to a person I barely knew and I don't love while the love of my life was busy breaking down all because of me ....Who am I? am a monster, all I wanted was to save the life of a innocent child from being fatherless but at the same time, I wanted to be with jack, my love , I wanted to live and start a family with him, I was a total mess and all I could think of was Jack and how he didn't understand.....

I felt my head aching, it was hurting, the rain was pouring inside the room, I weakly stood up to close the windows in order to stop the rain from entering inside the more , When I saw jack, he stood there just standing in the rain looking up to me , I felt dead, I wanted to go out to meet him, to hug him, to tell him that I was sorry, that I was willing and ready to leave everything behind just to be with him, But he left and I couldn't meet me , He knew that I wanted to meet him but he didn't wanted to see me so he left....

I closed my eyes and laid back on the floor, Remembering the moment we spent together, l let out a cry, A cry of pain and regret and I knew that if I continued I was going to fall sick but I didn't care, All I wanted was happiness and my happiness lies with Jack and Before I knew it, everything went blank...