Chapter three.

They had began the surgery on my mother and with every passing minute my mind was getting out of control I felt like my heart would explode. I didn't know why but I couldn't shake of the feeling that something bad was going to happen to my mother and I would be left alone in this cold and cruel world.

"Clara you have to put yourself together" Jane said bringing me out of my own world which had been created in my own mind. I almost forgot that Jane had come to stay here with me an hour ago because I was slowly losing my mind.

"I can't what if she doesn't come out alive?"I say as I almost break down in tears as sweat pours from my face to my lower back.

"You have to have faith okay? she will come out just fine so calm down."Jane said trying to make me feel better but I just couldn't.

"if anything should happen to my mother I don't think I'll be able to survive it."I say cry more at the thought of that.

"I have already told you that nothing will happen to her so now calm down."Jane said trying so desperately to calm me down.

"okay fine I'll calm down."I say after a while even though I know too well that it isn't possible.

I didn't want to bother Jane by telling her how bad I felt about this because she would drag me to church and all because she is a "Christian" as she calls it,I wonder what that even is.

I and Jane have been best friends right from when we were six year old. we met in school and became quick friends and we got along so well. alot of people would mistake us as twins if not that Jane has a blind her with green eyes and a perfect jawline,while I have thick brown hair with blue eyes and pinkish plump lips with a perfect jaw line too.

When we were small people would always say that we were going to make perfect models.

"Miss Clara?" I was cut of my train of thoughts by a nurse who called my name.

"yes."I say quickly

"The doctor asks for you to come see him in his office". she said and walked away quickly