call it a fantasy

" why do you want to hold my hand?"

"just let me hold you first and I swear I will tell you the reason, so please can I?"

' oh dear, it seems you got yourself a polite young man. do you know how difficult it is to say no to a polite person? we are in for a good ride'

''ok"

"thanks"

he held my hand and we walked towards the road side, as we reached the road side, he told me the reason he wanted to hold my hand

" I held your hand because I wanted everyone around to know you are mine and you are already off the market"

"but I am not yours and aren't you the same guy who didn't care earlier whether I had a boyfriend or not? don't you think there's also someone who would also care less?"

" I know that but I still want them to see it"

"you are unbelievable''

" thanks"

"that was not a compliment"

"I know that but at least you're getting to know me a little"

" you know what? I am already late and I have to go"

and with that I took a taxi to my friends house, when I got there he was already waiting.

" what took you so long"

" I met someone, who delayed me"

" and who was that? is it someone that I know?"

"no but let's not talk about that now we are already late so let's go. I will tell you later"

"ok but we are walking, from my place to the beach they're talking about is not far so let's walk, I want to have a talk with you"

" what do you want to talk about?"

" anything I just want to talk with you so let me lock the door and let's leave".

on our way to the beach, he started a conversation that got me thinking.

" you know it's left with only one month before we graduate. of course you know, that got me thinking about a lot of things, like how life will be like. after school, will I find a job to do? will i be able to meet the expectation of my family? and who will I marry? will I be a good husband or a father? will those close to me say they're proud of what I have become?"

" we all think about these things, you know what scares me is my future and the uncertainties that comes with it but I Know we will do great"

" we? "

" why? you don't want to be friends with me after school?"

" that's why I brought this conversation. lately I have been thinking about you, i mean a lot. I have been thinking about the times we spent together on campus and I don't want it to end even after graduation, please don't forget me"

" I won't"

"ok"

' did you just make a promise? how could you make a promise when you're this afraid of your future?'

' even if I don't get to hear from him after graduation I will always keep this promise of not forgetting him, I will always remember him whenever I remember something from my college time'

just when I was in my own dilemma, I heard him laugh.

" why are you laughing?"

" you know I remembered some of the fun things we did, the gossip and a whole lot. I remember all the guys that approached you, their reactions and yours were so funny"

what's with this conversation I thought since I was not comfortable with it.

' but you told him about them so deal with it'

" yh let's forget about it"

" no I remembered something, that friend of mine that wanted to date you, told me to help convince you to accept to date him"

"ok, so are you going to convince me"

" why would I, you know that is your decision to make"

" ok"

we continued our walk to the beach, we arrived there and a friend of the birthday boy said they are yet to start the party but we can join the others and wait a little or to walk around the beach for a while like others are doing and he will call us when the party starts.

we decided to walk around as the people at the venue were people we do not know.

as we walked around my Friend slowed his pace and me without knowing move ahead of him only to hear my name being called.

" eve"

" yes, since when did you fall behind"

" I was watching you, eve, you still don't have a boyfriend right?"

that look on his face, was like someone afraid of hearing this answer.

' so what are you going to tell him? are you going to tell him about the guy that is courting you'

' I am...