I didn't tell him about my trip abroad and when he comes to my place he wouldn't see me. why didn't I tell him, it was because of this, I watched my friend through the cars mirror and he was waving while smiling, that smile I wanted our maybe Last encounter to be happiness, I wanted my maybe last moment of seeing him to be him smiling. I guess this was it. this was a final good bye.
Moments
As our car drove off I watched my campus very well. this place, I got to know true friends and fake ones. I meet great people here. I reminisced the moments I spent with my friend and Manuel. the happy moments, sad moments, joyful, angry moments and a whole lot of emotions. I meet these two amazing people who loved me in their own ways and I was glad I met them.
memories
I remembered how I encountered my friend how he moved from just a friend to someone who will always be a part of me, someone who became a breather for me when I was suffocating. he taught me how to be a better person and how to look at things, he became my strength when I was broken and he tried to make me feel better about myself and I was really grateful for that. I remembered his words and later his love confession towards me and this was going to be a memory that will stay with me when I am asked who was the first guy who loved you for the longest time during your college days his name will always pop up.
Manuel was the second amazing person I met in my life, I remember the moments I first met him from talking bad about him to him becoming a love one was a really great memory, I could say that I had one of those movies encounters of first love. he loved me with everything he had and I remembered all the happiness,fun, anger, jealousy and annoyance feelings from him. he will always be a memory, whenever I am asked who was the first guy you really dated and gave a little of yourself to, his name will always be remembered.
Sadness
I was really hurt for leaving like this for ruining their happy memories of me. I am definitely sure that from today onwards when ever they will remember me it will be full of pain, regrets and sadness.
I hope one day they will forgive me for every moment of pain I caused them, deeply in my heart I was sorry.