chapter sixty eight

Joan was angry because of what she heard but upon reaching mid way she turned and run back

"I shouldn't have said those things, I shouldn't have....,... I can't hurt him with words I don't mean. he said he loves me , that's what I wanted to hear, even if it's not real I can make it real, I can't lose Nick" she said as she run back to Nick but when she got there Nick was no where to be found, she went to Fred's place but he wasn't there

"what happened, didn't you meet him, why are you looking for him" Fred asked

she told him everything

"how could you Joan, how could you say such things" he said and stormed out to look for Nick.

"it's been two days Kimmy and I can't find him, his phone is off and he's not home"

"why are you worried fred, Nick is an adult he can take care of himself"

"no Kimmy, you don't understand"

"then make me'

"Nick is not that strong, I have watched Nick suffer from abuse since he was a child, I have watched Nick suffer from emotional abuse, I was there through it all."

"what?"

" when I was a kid I was close to one of Nick's cousin. I used to go there at times to play and Even my parents were sometimes invited for dinner. I saw them treat Nick like an outcast Everytime he went visiting their grandparents

Nick was just a child when the tortured him with words of abuse, I was there when his grandpa said those mean words, he told Nick he was an unwanted goods and that no one would ever like him, the abuse was not done once but several times that I became sorry for him some times I used to think he was brave to withstand it all because every time he kept on coming to where they made it clear they didn't want him, I knew he was doing it for his parents but it was too much. I followed him because I was amazed at him.

one time his parents came for a long vacation and that's when I noticed he was a child after all, it got to a time those words got to him,

I saw him play with knives, ropes and it was strange to me because he was just a child.

but one-day I didn't know what his grandpa told him I saw him running and crying until he reached the river, I saw him jump into the water and I understood what his sudden interest was about, he got tired, he was tired and he wanted rest.

I called for help and he was rescue when I visited him at the hospital he said something

"let me go, why can't you take me, please free me" he kept on saying that I approached him and we became friends because I swore to keep an eye on him, to make sure he becomes better and he did when Joan grew up to be his smile but she became the sadness today and I am worried what if he dies" Fred said and Joan heard it all

they searched and searched and they couldn't find him, his parents couldn't find him either and Fred told them what he said to him about his parents

"silly child how could he think that" his mom said sobbing

3 years gone and no one knew where Nick was. maybe he did really die