chapter forty two

Every day after River came to visit me while I was awake I have been trying to bite down my disappointment when my door opens for the next visit and it's not him who walks in.

I should have known the truce we made that day for the sake of my illness was as short lived as the joy I felt after spending a whole hour with him in my hospital room.

The positives that have happened in the last two days since he left are so drastic that I sometimes blink my eyes to adjust my vision,– Feeling like I've been dreaming all along.

My hands are almost free from all the tubes that were sticking into me, Eva and I counted eight the last time they were hooked up, now I have only one that's responsible for adding the blood hanging over my head into my system.

A nurse told me I had had two colon surgeries but the bleeding that caused the corrective surgery was due to a rapture in my small intestines that had not healed yet days after the surgery.