chapter forty nine

I silently turn away from him, trying my level best to rein in my wild thoughts.

I can't indulge thoughts like this. I can't just think to let go and give in to his push about us dating.

He might have mentioned a marriage in the future if things went well between us but I don't want to live in hope of someday.

The chances of things not going right between us are higher than us having a happy ever after.

And it's not even for the lack of the both of us trying everything in our might to make it better.

When I was younger, maybe in high school, being asked countless times by River to be his girlfriend would have been a dream come true.

But even then, I knew we couldn't be serious like him and the numerous heiresses he hang out with.

I had let myself indulge that idea because we were both young, had a whole lot of time before us and we were too juvenile to have anything serious bind us from fulfilling our future when the time came.