Chapter 6 : Regret
“What am I doing, why do I kill those people? Am I... right to do this?”
This immeasurable sense of regret keeps popping up, gathering and overflowing. I... want to cry but I don't know why I can't let my tears to come out. My body are shaking, not because I’m scared. Scared being a bad guy. I’m very anxious, my mind are suddenly filled by hatred, despair and sorrow, tormented by the gazes of these undead. now I can feel nothing but fear. My body, I can’t control it. My hands just move to kill almost all of these undead, I’m laughing but nothing is funny. Suddenly after I’m feeling despair, I lose my mind while walking through these undead.
I can sense the spirit are flying behind me, looking at my with his mimics are showing he felt guilty for what he’d done to me, but I’m ignore him. Until I reach that industry again. With the blood that covering my body. I’m walking while whistling quietly as if I'm enjoying everything. Suddenly, a small chunk of this building hit my head, at that moment I start to realise. I see all of my body covered with their dark blue coloured blood. I’m start to being panic, I start screaming in fear and pain that my legs can’t stand up. Then, I cry loudly. I hit the wall and bowing down to the floor while keep crying, I hear the spirit steps walking to me. Not long, he pats my head. And says.
“Easy boy, easy...”
“Hey... *sobs* me, how long have *sobs* you *sobs* been doing this thing?” I ask with my tears won’t stop falling.
“You know my age my lord, then you know how much I’m feel despaired.” He said while he holding his voice a little bit like he’s trying to hold his tears.
“Are you feel ever feel scared? Or maybe now you feel that feeling?” I said with a weak voice.
“Sometimes, I feel it.”
“But the first time, yea. I... feel so scared to kill people.” “Same as you when the first time I killed people I’m vomiting and cry at the same time. Because the first guy that I killed is the good peoples.”
“Both of them was raise me, saw my progress. The loved me at the time until... *deep inhales* when my age was 30.000 years old.”
“I-I... *sobs* I want to repay them. But then, they’ve said ‘Okay, then... kill us! This is how to repay us... just kill.. us’ they were crying but they’re hoping they would’ve killed by me.”
“When I heard them saying that. My body. Was... trembling, trembling.. so hard.”
“I said ‘That’s it? Are you sure’ while trembling and... I was hold my tears. Just like now what am I doing.”
I see his left eye are dropping his tear continue with the right eye. He cry for maybe 3 and half minute. I’m feeling bad for asking him like that, Then I pat his left shoulder with a sad expression then say.
“I’m very sorry to hear that, then... lemme guess. You killed them back then, right?” He close his eyes, clench his fist and says.
“Yep... I did. And then I'm feeling guilty.”
“This is my true story okay, but keep it secret!”
He said with his face looks very fresh after he talk to me. Weirdly, I’m feeling better too. Then, suddenly I’m feeling such a same feeling like I’m on my own body but controlled by that spirit. I can feel such a power, streams from the centre of my body. It keeps growing, more and more. My vision suddenly become brighter like the sun is above my head. My body feels very light also feels harder than a stone.
The spirit feel that extraordinary power and looks behind. He see the vessel’s body almost covered with a blue and shining light. That light just comes out from the bottom of his feet with a small radius, but it’s quiet strong enough to erase 3.000 of hollow agent.
“H-hey... can you explain what is triggering you to summon that shiny things?”
“I don’t know, but it feels like when I'm copying a little bit of your power back then.”
“This is the first time I see a light element user. That’s cool!” The spirit’s said while suddenly eyes are suddenly sparkling like he is very excited.
“Your face are too close! Move a bit...” the vessel said with a low but heavy voice.
Both of them are walking up to the stair slowly while recovering their stamina and mana. The spirit give him a food that looks similar to a bean but the colour is slightly clear green-golden. The vessel confuses and thinking “what’s this? Well it seems I should’ve eat it.” He then take that bean and open his lower mask in order to hide his face. After he ate that bean, suddenly he feel his stamina are recover like he eat some food and sleep. He then try to make the wind ball and activate the blue tempest at the same time without inscription.
“Woohoo, this kinda epic. What’s up with that green-golden beany thing?”
“It’s the Ræmourgh bean in this world there are so many type of this beans. Each type have it’s own speciality. But this one is for restoring your own stamina. For us, mortal even if you are stronger than the other mortal still you only have to eat one bean at the tight situation.”
“Then, what happen if you eat it above your limit?”
The vessel tilt his head to the left a little bit. And then the spirit answered with a scary and heavy voice.
“If it’s overdosed, you will die or else you will mutating into a gross being!” The vessel’s feels goose bumps after hear it. But not long after it, he just suddenly smile and then laughing like a villain.
“Hmm, that’s kinda interesting.”
He said raising his hand posed like holding something. The spirit now feels the goose bumps, he feel scared seeing the vessel like that and says.
“What... are you thinking right now? You didn’t thinking about you doing it rig-.”
“Of course I will! I’m finally realise that on this world the most important thing is not money and a good-looking...”
“It’s power! Yes it is, so I will use this immortal body to make me be the most strongest human... no, THE STRONGEST OF THE TIME AND SPACE! MWAHAHAHAHA!!!”
The vessel said, his face are glowing up by the sun with the wind blowing so strong that makes the spirit pushed a little bit while the vessel don’t, that wind just blow up his hair. The wind are getting stronger and stronger, the vessel raise his hand and pointing his palm towards the wall on his left. Then, the wind push the vessel towards the wall. The vessel are pushed until he crash into that wall and also pierce through another wall. The spirit try to chase him, but the puff of smoke produced by the vessel are then blown away by the wind whose direction can be ascertaining from the vessel. The spirit then see him stepping on the wind ball that still charges.
“Hey! What are you gon-.”
“Hahaaa!”
The vessel laugh and then he throw up by that wind ball. The spirit only stay in there while the vessel are throwed until he reach the final floor and creates a bow from water. That water comes from the place that he visited back then. The water makes the vessel hand’s wet but then it creates a blue ocean colour bow with a flows from the bottom up and creates a small net made of the water under high pressure so that the water becomes a little bit solid. He then pulling the string and suddenly the wind merging and creates a blue colour arrow caused by swirl reaction by wind that absorbing the water from the bow.
He floats waiting the arrows charged. After it charged, he points the arrow to the beast’s eye and then with the wind blowing from behind makes him concentrates more. He took a breath from inside his mask and then he take of the strings. The arrow shot straight into the beast's eyes silently. When the beast begin to realise the arrow of the wind carrying the water he is too late to protect himself because when he realised, that arrow are right in front of his eyes and then the arrow was stuck and instantly the arrow disappeared. He’s screaming in pain and then he fall towards the highest floor and be unconscious for a moment.
“GOTCHA! HAHAHA.”
The spirit said with so happy and then he fly down to the third floor, the spirit who see it then also follow him by flying to the third floor. And then says.
“What are you doing up there?”
“I’m just shooting his eyes with this bow, that’s it!”
The vessel said proudly.
“Dang, you’re awesome my lord.”
The spirit praise him while patting his head. The vessel move his hand slowly and says.
“Let’s go to the highest floor. You, carry me up using the stairs to the fifth floor! Because I’m using my stamina to use those skill and magics!” He said while pointing his finger at the spirit.
“T-then, why I should use the stairs I can fly using my mana...”
“I need you to use magra so that’s why to must use your stamina for now.”
Then the spirit sigh, he look around and find an elevator entrance.
“Hey, maybe we can use it!”
The spirit said while pointing his finger at that door. The vessel are petrified after looking at the elevator door for a while.
“Ahem! let's try the elevator."
Then I'm walking to the elevator with that boy. I’m walking slowly with him stand by when that monster suddenly appears and spit out his deadly liquid. When we hiding our step sound, suddenly the ground is shaking like there is a small earthquake going on. After that, we heard a growling sound from downstairs. We’re getting more cautious a little and ask ourselves what the hell is happening. Not long a horde of undead, evil lich and a special mobs from this world called Laorzokh a monster that looks same like lich and undead which can strongly resist the power of darkness even suck it which can only be defeated by light and sound rushes towards us.
“Ohh, fuck now what? A tons hungry flesh are going for paparazzi? We’ve gotta outta from here.”
That little boy said while touching a sensor to open the elevator. After he opened the elevator while those hordes are almost reaching us, we enter that elevator quickly and close the door. When the door is almost clos five of undead hands block it. The blood spit out from one of those mobs. Then I kick those hands the result two hand of undead drop and the door closed. I grab those hands and figured out something. I put it on my jacket and the boy are just like ‘Ugh, that’s super gross’ that word are just written on his face expression.
After I take it, we just standing without doing a conversation. The atmosphere turning from intense into the awkward situation. I don’t like this situation so I open the conversation with.
“D-Do you have any girlfriend? Or someone you've like?”
I said while looking to his face. He close his eyes and coldly says.
“No, you?”
“F-For now, I don’t have any. But I’m fall in love with someone... do you wanna know who? I-Its not like I want to make a proud of myself so if you do-.”
“Just tell me...”
He said with a flat face but I think he a little bit curious about the person that I love, but then I close my eyes says.
“Her name is... Rohesia. She is... perfect, my type. She has a shiny brown skin, her hair is red as rose as her name. She has an elegant aura, calming carnelian red eyes and sharp nose. Her lips is red same as a red wine. For the body well... I won’t tell you so much but her chest are smaller than Alicia Michelle’s che-.”
After I open my eyes I see him sleeping while I’m explain about my crush. But, not long before I’m almost get mad at him, but then he open his eyes and says.
“Haha, gotcha. I’m not sleeping...”
Then he then sit with his leg crossing and put his palm on his left cheek and then he continue his conversation.
“Ohh... so your type is an elegant woman, am I right? Well, I’m a little bit interested with that type of girl. But, my type is an innocent but a little bit badass girl. Also strong outside but weak inside.”
“I’m a little bit surprised but well... it’s you that choosing your own type. Okay then, let’s move... we have no much time for a chit chat right now.”
The door are open. We walk through a door and that boy break that door. That beast’s are just suddenly awaken and he raising his wing. Then, he’s growling and it’s makes my feet shaking until I falling down and I can’t even stand up for awhile. But, that kid... I don’t know how he can stand still and without shaking just a little bit. His red eyes looks glowing like my crimson wind ball. From his eyes gesture it looks like he just smiling.
“Is that all you’ve got?”
“SHUT... UP! HUMAN!!”
Then he open his mouth and the toxic that he was spit out earlier are comes out from his mouth and it raise up more and more. He then close his mouth and he stops his wing’s movement. After that, a blue fire comes out from his wing and the fire spreads to his mouth. The fire keep going into his mouth like it’s absorbs by the beast's mouth. Not long after it, that beast throws a blue semi green colour fireball repeatedly from his mouth towards Zein. He dodges all of it but unfortunately, one of that fireball hits me.
“HEY! Can you regenerate yourself?”
He said while I'm in pain. When I see my stomach, there’s a big hole at it burns by the fire that beast created. It feels so hot, I can’t resist it! I’m screaming a bit holding my pain for awhile. Not long, that fire disappeared slowly while my stomach regenerate along with that fire keep fading out. I see my red ruby blood are merging and then I feel the warmth from my blood filling the hole from my back. My stomach are start to regenerates, I’m waiting my back regenerating while saying.