My helplessness

Coming here was the biggest mistake of the life . I am still in the car waiting for Serena and others . Seriously , Why did I agree to come here ? Not to mention its the longest day of my life . I am bored . I should have brought something like a remote to open . Sam , is still on his phone . Seriously one day he is going to turn into a mobile zombie .

" Stop staring at me . ", Sam .

" So , you can stare at me but I can't . " , I said .

" I know I am handsome but you should not stare at people like that . " , Sam while looking at me with serious face .

Wait a minute , keeping aside his weird comment . Why are his eyes red ? Probably because of mobile phone . I knew he is going to be a mobile zombie .

" Your eyes are red . ", I told him .

" Oo , its probably because of snow . ", Sam replied .

" What do you mean ? "

" Too much exposure to snow affects your eyesight . And it doesn't help that I am affected too easily . "

I didn't know that . Its new .

30 MINUTES LATER :

" We are back . ", Claire .

Claire , Serena , Lucas and Lily have returned . They did a lot of things . Why did I come here ? Probably to sit in the car and have a chit chat with Sam . Oh , no I have to tell Serena about the call . But what should I say .

" I think M should sit on the front and give your crutches to me I will keep them in the trunk . ", Claire .

I got out of the car and sat on the front .

Oh no , I have to inform Serena about the call .

" Serena , someone called you . ", I said .

" Okay , I will check my phone . Where is my phone ? ", Serena .

" Wait a minute , it must be somewhere in the car .", I said .

Oh no . Where is her phone ? I have to find it . I am a horrible person .

" Well , you very grateful person M . Not only you used Serena's phone but you also lost it . ", Lily .

" Relax , it will be here . We just have to find properly . " , Claire .

AFTER TWENTY MINUTES :

We still are unable to find it . I am a horrible person . I lost her phone .

" Why don't you check your pockets ? " , Sam still on his phone .

" But if it ...Yeah here it is . ", I said hesitantly .

Well , now everyone is glaring at me . And I feel like a small person who is cornered by people around her .

Finally , we reached home and I am exhausted .

" You are back sweetheart . ", mom .

" Yeah I am , mom . ", I said .

" Perfect . ", mom.

" Mom , can I have some warm water ? ", I asked her .

" Sure , my dear . ", mom and she gave me glass of water to drink .

" Listen to me Myra . We have decided to hire a physiotherapist for you . ", mom.

" Physiotherapist ? ", I asked .

" Yeah , that way you will recover quickly . ", mom .

" But doctor said I will alright . Then why do I need physiotherapist ? Mom you are not hiding anything from me , are you ? " , I asked .

" No , no dear . Of course you will be alright . ", mom .

" Okay , I will be in my room . Serena don't come into my room . I need some time alone . " , I declared .

" Okay . ", Serena .

I came back to the room where I was temporarily living . Somehow my normal life seemed to be a dream right now . My whole life I have trained to be independent . Dad even took out supports out of my cycle when I was child to be independent . I always strived to be less dependent on others . I hate to ask for help . I hate to take things from others . Now I can't even walk on my own . I have become weak and so dependent on other things . I have to use lift instead of stairs , I can't walk in snow , I can't go anywhere on my own . I hate this ...I hate this feeling . My ego is hurt . I want to throw away my crutches and walk on my own . Maybe , I can walk on my crutches . I just have to try .

Okay , I am sitting on the bed . Ok will keep these crutches and try to walk on my own . Myra its all in your head . You can do it . There is nothing that I can't achieve if I work hard . I am Myra ....Myra Rishaan .

Here we go . Damn I fell on the ground . My legs . They are jelly . What is wrong with me . No I can do this . Let us try once again . I put my hands on the bed to stand up . I am putting my all pressure on the bed . I am up for a second then back on the ground .

Damn ,damn . What happened to me ?

" Serena ! Serena ! ", I shout .

" What happened ? ", Serena .

" Help me . I fell down . ", I told her .

She looked at me with pity . Damn , I hate sympathy . I hate this . I hate myself .

MORNING :

We don't know how important water is until we are on the desert .

We don't know how important mother is until she is dead .

Similarly , we don't appreciate our body parts until they stop working and make you handicapped .

Yes , that is what I am right now . A weak girl who has can't even walk on her own .

NEXT DAY ; MORNING :

Someone knocks on my door .

" May I come in ? ", a young woman.

" Who are you ? " , I ask her .

" I am your physiotherapist . You are Myra , right ? ", she .

" Yeah , come in . ", I told her .

" From now on . I will come here every morning and we will have two ours session .

", she said .

" Alright . ", I simply said .

I noticed that she has a brown hair with sharp features . Damn, she can kill someone with her sharp nose and jawline .

" Stretch your arms like this . ", she stretches her arms to show me .

" Now stretch your legs as well . " , she extends her legs .

Though I want to I can 't stretch them .

"Wait a minute , I will help you ... "

AFTER TWO HOURS :

I am so tired . I think my body has become more weak because of the session . Wow , amazing ...

" Myra come let us have a breakfast on the dinning table. ", Serena .

" No , I will eat in my room . ", I informed.

" Myra , something is bothering you . You are behaving strangely since yesterday . ", Serena .

" No , I am fine ...", I said .

" Myra , you will be alright . Just give your body sometime . ", Serena .

I want to shout at her but I know that I will regret it later on so I keep my mouth shut . Just clenching my jaw in anger .

" Myra , here is your breakfast . ", Miss Maria .

" Thank you . ", I said .

" Myra , do you remember ? When you were a child you used to sing a song for me ....? " , Miss Maria .

" You were a cheerful kid . You used to talk a lot but then you became more and more reserved . Since you started taking your experiments seriously . But your pranks increased with time . My favourite prank is the one where you messed with Mr Rishaan's trimmer and his beard was shaved funnily . ", She ranted .

" Maria , maria . I love you maria . Mariaaa, since you came in my life . My life exploded ....", I started to sing the song suddenly and Miss Maira laughed .

" My young lady . I used to tell you that you are a bad singer . You shouldn't sing . But now I think you should . You need to express yourself . You are still a child . So don't so independent that you will forget to love people and cherish those who love you . " she said by holding my chin while I just nodded .

I didn't know that she knows so much about me . I never knew that she cared about me . Perhaps , I should notice people more about people without judging them .