65. EXAM ANXIETY

" You have no right to be alive . ", Serena .

Oh God Serena is angry .I should stop her .

" Serena ---", I try to stop her but she doesn't listen .

" But you also have no right to punish yourself on your own accord .Do you think if you kill yourself your sins will vanish away ? Do you really think it will be enough ? Let me answer you ...No , it won't be enough . It will never be because the person who is dead can never be alive again. She will never be able to experience many things that you will . But don't you think instead of escaping like that you should take responsibility ? Don't you think you should live with this regret so as to change yourself for better ? Don't you think instead of punishing yourself by committing suicide you should punish yourself by living a better life for others ? By trying to make this world a better place for others ? ", Serena .

Wow , that was really intense .

For a while both Serena and me were quiet while Cera cried a lot until she gathered courage to speak once again .

" You are right . I think I know what to do now ? Can you leave me alone for now ? ", Cera .

" Fine . ", I said as I left along with Serena .

AFTER A WHILE :

Finally I am home . I have to make an assignement then study . I wonder when they are going to release the datesheet for exams . I should check my phone . There are many messages from school group .

NOTICE : Datesheet is released . Your half -yearly exams will be conducted within a week .

Oh my God . I haven't even prepared anything for exams . I have to study a lot . I don't know what to do ?

I should try to study . Let us begin with Physics .

Let us see ...I have to study dimensions , Vectors , dynamics and electromagnetism . Oh my God , its a lot more than I can handle .

No I am Myra and Myra can do anything if she wants . Let us start with dynamics .

" Miss Myra , Maria says you have should eat your dinner . Its already 9 '0 ' clock at night . " , some servant .

" Yeah , I am coming just give me a minute . ", I say .

AFTER 40 MINUTES :

" Miss Myra , you should have some food . Don't torture yourself like that . ", Maria .

" Miss Maria , exams are going to start within a week . I haven't even prepared anything . Please leave me alone . ", I say.

" Miss Myra , if you don't eat anything . You can 't write in exams . Please eat something healthy . Health always comes first . ", Miss Maria .

" Fine , let us go ...", I say and head towards dinning room .

Man she is so annoying sometimes like a real grandmother . But its kinda comforting that someone is there for me besides my mom to take care for my health .

" I have cooked your favourite dish , Miss Myra .", Miss Maria .

" Its garlic chiken . Thank you Miss Maria . ," I say cheekily .

Now I am full . When I am stressed I always forget that I to be hungry. I lose my appetite for a long time .Man, what am I supposed to do ? I

have to prepare for exams in less than a week .

I should -- Someone is calling me . Who is it ? Its Claire .

" Oh my God Myra . Do you know that datesheet has been released ? We are bound to die for good . ", Claire .

" Relax , its nothing new . You always say that ...", I say .

"You are right . Ok , I also have to call other people.", Claire .

That is right , Claire always behave like that in exams : calling bunch of people , getting exam anxiety and bothering me all the time .

Now let us focus on studies . Oh God , who is calling me right now ? Oh , its Amara .

" Hello , Myra . What should I do ? Exams are in a week and I haven't prepared for exams . I have many doubts . Can you help me to clear those doubts ? ", Amara .

Doesn't she ask questions all the time ? How can she still have a doubt ?

" You can . I will try to help . " I say .

What the hell ? Why did I say that I don't want to help her ?

" Can you explain third law of motion to me?", Amara .

" Yeah it says that every action has a an equal and opposite reaction . ", I say .

" Then when I throw a ball on the wall why doesn't it come hit me back with the same force ? ", Amara .

" What ? Amara in real world there are many factors which affect our actions like : friction , gravity , torque etc ", I explain .

" Ok , then it means these laws of motion won't work in practical life ? ", she asks .

" They kinda work but in a way that normal people won't be able to understand . ", I say .

" Ok , what is the difference between distance and displacement ? ",Amara .

" Distance is a scalar quantity and displacement vector . ", I say .

" I know that ....But that is not what I want to know . ", Amara .

" Then what ? What do you want to know ? ", I ask her .

" I want to know what is the point of giving displacement direction ? ", Amara .

" What ? ", I ask

" You know I want to know what is the point of giving direction to quantities ? ", she ask.

" Why not ? I mean displacement can give you information about where the object is headed to ...? ", I answer .

After teaching Amara for a while she starts to hang up .

" Ok bye Myra . Thanks for helping me . ", Amara .

Finally I can study on my own . Oh my God its already 11 'O ' clock time has passed by with the speed if light . Then again it has always been like that . Its like I was child until yesterday and couldn't understand a thing . Now I know about time and make projects . Project ? I forgot about it . How can I forget that I was going to make a toy car ? What the hell ? Now I can't even work on anything because of exams .Its all because of that stupid club . That's it I am going to quit anti- bullying club . I have to talk with Serena . I can 't take it anymore . Ok , let us study .

" Myra , wake up . You are going to be late for school . ", Serena.

" What ?! What happened ? Damn it , I slept in instead of studying ! What --- ", I was about to say something when Serena interrupted me.

" Relax Myra , everything is fine . ", Serena .