My life is becoming a living hell

Warning !there is talk about suicide if you don't/can't handle this topic please do not read this chapter

After that night nothing happen like that again my end up adopting Josh as his mom just gave him up for one bottle of pills my gave him what he never had before which was a real love from a real mom he was finally free from the fucked up life he lived before. I didn't bring up the shower incident as nothing like that never happened again. I won't ever forget about it but it'll be to much trouble to do anything and it's not like anyone will ever believe me they never did and never will.