Will vs Wonder

“Moon?" Aroha looks at me with her eyebrows scrunched in confusion.

"Are you alone?" I blurt out.

Her face changes from confusion to pure fluster. Her eyes widen as she frantically looks around the condo and adjusts her oversized blouse, as if she's unsure if she is alone or not.

"Uh-yeah. Yeah, I was just....um....whatever, just come in."

I stand in the middle of her living room. My eyes drift to the 'Light in Shining Armor' painting in the distance. This time, instead of regret and remorse, I feel yearning.

"What's wrong?"

"Huh?" I say, my focus still on the painting.

"You seem a little dazed. You know, the way you always look when something is bothering you."

I turn around to see her grinning at me knowingly as she pours herself a glass of red wine.

"I don't think I should stay here," I force myself to say this out loud.

Aroha stares at me blankly. Perhaps her processor is still sorting out what I had just told her. "What do you mean?"