Chapter 30 - The Limitations of Comfort

How can you tell to your boyfriend that at the moment you felt the intense fear, the person you thought of desperately for relief was your ex?

I couldn’t face Jeremy after the ordeal.

We were supposed to have fun and we were having such a good time if it wasn’t for the butterflies.

Why did it have to be butterflies?!

We cut our trip short and head back.

In my fear, I ended up losing consciousness so Jeremy decided to go back and let me rest.

I couldn’t speak even as we headed back to his penthouse.

Our silence felt awkward.

I wanted to do better with him, but I don’t know why these things keep happening. I know that I never got to tell him my fears. I didn’t think things would play out this way and I didn’t seem to have any opportunities to talk about my fears.

As comfortable as I am with his presence, the topic never seems to have come up.

Even then, I couldn’t help but blame myself.