23th Chapter

Finnja

Monday ended once again with an hour of art in the last class of school. I usually really look forward to it, but my creativity wanes a bit in these projects. School was okay, even though we have math test next week and no one really understands the material.

Lukas seems to be getting more and more trustful, because even Jessica is starting to notice that he might be interested in me. But today something really strange happened. Before the break started, me and Ariana were standing together with Jessi and Sandy, making small talk. All of a sudden Lukas stormed past me and I had the suspicion that he might have touched my break time snack. Why did he go straight past my place, after all, he could also have swished past the benches in front of me. He had his head all the way down, like he was trying to get away in a hurry. Sandy noticed something was going on and her reaction was just childish. As usual. She insisted on going home with Jessi, even though that was a completely different direction! Complete insanity, my Latin teacher would now say.

At the moment, things seemed to be getting more complicated again with Ariana, too. Eren didn't answer as often as before and a week ago he seemed to be sick as well. At that time he apparently wouldn't have had time to chat. Even though Ariana doesn't want to admit her feelings for Eren, she still feels something for him. Even if maybe only minimally.

For Jessica, it was apparently the best art lesson today. Jannik let Sandy lend him some paints and I watched him strictly from behind. He made an effort not to look at Jessi, until he now also did not succeed and already he looked at her. But not like others or for example me. He looked down at her and grinned teasingly. While his eyes were focused only on her. If you ask me, everything is just obvious. Jannik has a full-on crush on Jessi and there's no doubt about it. After Jessi started talking to him too, he looked at her like they were already a couple. I could have really screamed.

This week brought some mind-glimpses of itself, which also made me think. From the beginning there was a girl who did not like me. Only I didn't understand why. Evelyn. She was my double, so to speak. We had almost everything the same, even character traits, except that she was very shy. At least that's what I thought until English class started. Our teacher divided us into groups and asked us to mark any assignments in English. Evelyn sat upside down right in front of me so we could both look at each other. I watched her and also felt jealousy again. She was somehow perfect. Pretty and intelligent. She was concentrating on talking to the person sitting next to me, even though her eyes were somewhere else. She kept looking at the back row, where Lukas and Jannik were sitting. It was these looks that radiated something of affection and I recognized, immediately, that she was 100% in love with one of the two. I now felt anger and confusion, since she now also wanted to get my guy around! What was she imagining!? I had nevertheless the assumption that their looks were directed at Jannik. This was not indifferent to me, but at least better than the other. I became even more suspicious, however, when she really started staring at me conspicuously. I couldn't identify Evelyn's thoughts or the expression on her face. Was it jealousy? Or longing or whatever? I had no idea what was going on.

Thank God we had French in the next hour and I had enough time to talk to Jessi. She understood me right away and yet I couldn't tell what she was feeling when I told her. We watched her for the whole hour. Bull's eye. She was staring at me so conspicuously that me and Jessi kept having a laughing fit. Where had we landed here? But the thing that really threw us for a loop was when Evelyn's seatmate also checked us out conspicuously and then gave Evelyn, Jessi a stern look. It was clear. Evelyn thinks I'm into Jannik because I was watching for Jessi all the time and after all, there's never room for two girls.