Chapter 36

~Lan's POV~

Dinner was great but a warm bath and tucked away in my soft bed would be wonderful.My entire body is sore and my limbs are tired. I climbed up the stairs trying to walk in steady steps through the hallway to my room, cause my legs are tired from all that walking I did today.

"Hey Lan?" Nate called out. I turned towards him confusion dancing in my eyes.

What does he want now?

He looked to be deep in thoughts. I cleared my throat earning his attention.

"I-if you have a problem you'd tell me right?" He asked. Various emotions I couldn't read passed through his eyes quickly.

"Is their a problem?" I asked skeptical.

He smiled and shook his head.

"Nope. Just wanted you to know that you can always talk to your big brother"He said and stepped into his room.

I stood their in the hallway confused, shocked and surprised. What just happened?

Did he just--

I shook my head not ready to think about him. An involuntary yawn escaped my mouth alerting me on how tired I was. I walked towards my door and turned the nob pushing the door open.

I locked the door, ready to get a quick bath and some much needed sleep. Immediately I turned around, my eyes glanced at my bed like usual but this time it was different. A gasp escaped my mouth. I clasped my mouth immediately in shock.

For the first time ever my heart beat could be heard in my head. It was that loud. I could feel every rapid drumming, every flow of blood to my chest.

I felt out of breathe. What is happening?

I held my chest and shut my eyes trying to steady the fast beating of my heart.

I opened my eyes forcing my mouth to be my new breathing space. My eyes connected with his sleeping form on my bed again.

It felt like something was pulling me closer towards him. I felt drawn as my eyes stuck to his form not ready to tear away.

What is he doing here and why am I happy??!!

I walked with slow step towards the bed trying not to wake him although I should be doing the opposite but somehow I felt like I shouldn't. He look so peaceful and---innocent when he sleeps something I'm sure he definitely isn't when he is awake.

I sat down on the floor beside the bed staring at his face. His breathing was slow and steady. The tiny breathes he took coated my face.

He looked so different.....

His hair was cut in a different style and more shorter.

He was dressed in all black and a leather jacket on and has a piercing on his eyebrow.

I folded my arms and rested on the side of the bed staring at his face. He looks so different while he sleeps.

A soft sigh escaped his mouth as he changed position leaning more towards me.

His hair fell over his eyes drawing my attention. My fingers itched to pushed them away.

What is wrong with me?

I fought the desire to touch it but the more I stared at his face and the hair covering his eyes the more my desire to push it became stronger.

Alas my desires won.

I slowly pushed the soft hair away from his eyes watching his features more closely.

His jawline was sharp, his eyebrows full but yet it soothes him. He had sharp nose but closer I could notice the little bump it had. His eyelashes were long like that of a girl and his lips were thin but pink.

Indeed he would not make out to be soft looking prince charming but rather an assassin.

His features were distinct. A warm feeling I couldn't understand encased my heart as my fingers ran carelessly through his hair.

I held the tip of his hair using it to tease his nose and pulling it back immediately. He'd scrunched up his nose and rub it, earning a giggle from me. My lips pulled up as I watched his hair and ran my fingers through it.

This is madness but somehow I'm happy he is here..

"What are you doing?" His raspy voice came to my ear.

My eyes widened as it snapped towards his eyes. He looked confused. His eyes scrutinizing me.

Oh no... I'm a creep! This is embarrassing.

I quickly pulled my hand from his hair but his hand caught my hand in a firm grip mid air.

My eyes connected with his. Somehow that regular color of his eyes suddenly looks fascinating.

He placed my hand back on his head despite my reluctance all the while still looking deep into my eyes.

"Don't stop" He said shutting his eyes back. He held my other hand and snuggled closer to me.

Oh Good Lord!!....

What's happening to me!!

"Continue.." He said not opening his eyes.

I should be pulling my hands away angrily and cautioning him for his inappropriate act but I am the creep, I am the inappropriate one who watched him while he slept.

Why aren't I walking away right now, I should be but ---- I don't want to. I somehow can't get myself to.

My fingers ran through his hair slowly. Every pull and feel did something to me.

My heart was speaking a language I couldn't understand.

His soft breathing made me know that he'd fallen asleep.

My heart warmed at the fact that my fingers did that to him.

I touched his face with shaky hand. My fingers became wild as I felt every stubble on his face.

I touched his sharp chin watching his expression. His face didn't change, no sign of him being uncomfortable nor did he catch my hand.

I touched his nose and made my way to his eyes. His eyelid shock under my fingers but he did not open his eyes.

Feeling brave, my fingers thralled down his face towards his lips. I don't know what I'm doing but the tightness in my throat was all it took to know my nerves were high.

I touched his lips lightly trying to get a feel of them. They were soft under my touch not how I imagined it'd be.

My eyes watched his lips as my finger did justice to it by feeling it.

"You seem bold today." He said in a deep sleepy voice. His eyes still looked sleepy as he watched me. My breathe was stuck in my throat.

"W--why aren't you stopping me?" I stuttered afraid and scared. Of what? That I don't know.

My finger were still on his lips as I sucked in a breathe waiting for his response.

His eyes flickered to the finger on his lips then back to my eyes.

"Why aren't you stopping?" He asked. His eyes swallowing me in.

This is bad!!! Sooo...bad!