"in between"

Dear to whom it may concern,

What am I feeling?

I do not want to fall and I do not want to be empty and alone. It's like I have to control my emotions and sometimes I do not want to be in control. I have a problem...God is supposed to be in control. To trust blindly and not be worried with what comes next. Life is funny like that. The "in between" is also a funny way of living. I do not fit anywhere but the "in between". Picking a side is harder than a 'neither there or here but always somewhere'. I wanted to do something — write tonight and why not drop a gem.

God save my soul. Don't forsaken me. Jeezus show me the way. Open those doors and hold it open until I get there. Remove and break away anything and anyone who is not good for me.

Allow me to see that I am loved and honest.

Amen

Wednesday, August 24, 2023

6:27