THE DREAM

SAMANTHA'S POV

"Hi mom, where's dad?" I asked her when I saw her in the living room. I kiss her on her cheeks and she smiles at me in return.

"Going home," mommy answered with a smile. "How's your school?" It was a question and she glanced slightly at me.

"Nothing new, still a school named Da Vinci Academy," I answered philosophically while laughing slightly.

"Samantha!" When mommy calls my name, she can be heard warning me to adjust my answer.

"Kidding," I said and smiled. "It's okay, it's still tiring," I added after I sighed and I walk to sit next to mommy.

"Did you attend to your History class today?" Mom asked calmly. I was surprised and suddenly looked at her, how did she know that?

"Y-yes mom," I answered shyly while bowing.

"Study hard, sweetheart. Don't choose the subject you're going into, every one of them is important." She said calmly and she smiled at me, "You're the only one we have, I want you to use your life the way you want, but don't do it like this, sweetheart. I'm hurt by what you're doing, Samantha." Mommy said sadly, I could see her impending tears that she was trying to stop from falling.

"I'm sorry mom, it won't happen again." My sincere apologies. She immediately hugged me.

A few minutes later, daddy arrived. He gave us each a kiss on the forehead and asked us to eat dinner.

"Why do you seem anxious? Is there a problem, sweetie?" mommy asked worriedly.

I just sighed and shook my head. I saw daddy stop eating and looked at me, a sign that I should say what I had to say.

I exchanged glances with them before decisively answering, "Nothing mom, I was just thinking about that little girl over there in front of the church earlier." I answered calmly and drank water.

"Why? What's the matter with that little girl? Well, let's finish eating first, and then we will talk about it." Mommy said and continued eating. I just smiled a little and nodded before continuing to eat again.

Our dinner ended quietly. Mommy invited me to the living room to talk.

"What's wrong with the girl you were talking about earlier?" mommy asked first when we sat down on the sofa. How can I say it? Aish.

"Mom, what's the matter..." I started hesitantly. Maybe she won't be angry, I did nothing wrong and it's not bad and what I wanted to do wasn't bad too. "Ahh, I passed by the church earlier and I met a young beggar. She asked me for some money to provide her food, I just fed her earlier and gave her 1000 pesos and said I'll be back tomorrow. Her name is Camilla, she's just 8 years old and raised by no one. I feel sorry for her mom; she has no shelter. I can see sadness, depression, sorrow, and longing in her eyes. So I would like to adopt her and bring her home if it's okay with Daddy and to you of course." I answered hesitantly and worriedly. I don't know but I really feel sorry for that girl.

Mommy smiled a little, "oh, my sweetie," she said while slightly ruffling my hair. "Where are her parents?" Mom asked. I feel that somehow she feels sorry for Camilla too.

I sighed, "We don't know, she said she was left in the church when he was just a baby." I said, rubbing my palm together.

Why am I having such a problem with that girl? Why do I feel like I'm responsible for her? Maybe it's just because I don't have a sibling or it's just out of pity.

"Bring her home tomorrow, I want to see her," Mommy said and smiled bitterly with a sigh. Could she feel the compassion I feel for that little girl? I just nodded and said goodbye and go to my room.

I don't know why I feel sorry for you like this, I don't know why I feel like if I don't adopt you my life will be meaningless.

I immediately jumped up and lay down on my bed. I opened my cell phone to play music, I put the earphones on both my ears and I slowly closed my eyes and found myself thinking again.

Now Playing: Until the Last by SB19 (Hanggang sa Huli)

Note: the song is originally tagalog.

Whenever the heart is alone~

There is a melody knocking at the door of my memory~

Why does my personality seem to be lacking? What or who is missing? Did I forget something? Did I do something wrong? What? Who? Why?

I shouldn't look into your eyes anymore~

Now, only you can see~

From thinking, I was no longer aware that I fell asleep.

Your memory seems new~

In my dream, you are here~

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"M-mom..."

"You don't want to split up with Camilla? Let me just end her life so you don't have to suffer any longer. End Camilla's life!"

"Don't block that girl, Eli!"

"No, mom, if you're going to end the life of the woman I love, you'll also end mine, because I’ll feel like I have no life if I lose her."

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"Aaaahhhhh!!" I screamed loudly from the pain I felt in my heart. Why? Why does my heart hurt? Like being squeezed, like being crushed. Is that a nightmare? Apparently not because they are not scary.

I love you, I love you, I love you~~

I didn't think about the pain in my chest anymore when I realized who they were, who was that mother and a guy named Eli? What do they have to do with Camilla? Is there true? Couldn't Camilla's life be in danger so I had this dream? But it's impossible, I just saw and met the toddler Camilla earlier. I can't understand, I can't figure it out, and I'm even more confused now.

There is nothing else, nothing else, nothing else to look for~

My love is yours, yours until the end~

The last line of the song means I've only been dozing off for a few minutes. I got up and went to the kitchen to drink some water before I went back to sleep, just in case my dream continued.