rumors

I laid on my bed I didn't feel like eating so I didn't had lunch or dinner I was both angry and scared .

no matter how hard I tired too keep it cool I know this was gonna stay in my heart it bothered me big time the fear the worries everything fears could ever offer I had no worry's about what life had in store for me but I was scared I felt lost I felt like crying, coming too this school had me realized something that I wasn't strong, I am not emotionally.

I thought I was pretty but pretty girls don't spend Friday night alone in the kitchen, I thought I was funny but funny girl don't lock themselves in room too cry it doesn't matter how many friends I have the truth is I wake up at midnight and the only face I see is me if only people could understand introvert a bit.

the sad truth is I can't sleep everything is overwhelming.

the next day I woke up before the bell we did our normal routine before class. I ate half of my breakfast because I had Lost my apitite since yesterday I wore my black hoodie and uniform and since it was a bit cold the authorities didn't ask for me to take off my hoodie and I had low tolerance too cold I was a bit worried too go to class today but I had no other choice assuming I was at home now I wouldn't have been in school for a week i walk into the class room head down as I sat down we had our history class again for revision then professor Black came up with our script he called me and gave me my project and ask me too meet him up later after class was over I checked my project and I had 51% that wasn't bad at least I pass I sat back as I arranged my bag pack when chole came up too me and snatched my project she opened it and show the whole class " class she had 51% even though she slept with the senior he still gave her average marks " she said laughing like a lunatic " she such a dumb head class "

" shut the fuck off Chole she is not like you would sleep her way through everything " providence said from behind which shock me why was he standing up for me I don't need him too defend me I am capable " I agree I sleep my way through everything but am not like her who sleep for just an average marks she is such a cheap whore " Chole said

he literally wanted too say something when I cut him off " stop trying to defend me I not a baby that need your support," I said angrly and stormed out

everything and everyone sucks in this school how did I end up here were did I go wrong my life is all in a mess now because of that jerk I walked downed the hall way as I made my way too professor Black office when providence rush up too " Kelly I know you are angry but please can you hear me out " he said breathing heavily " I don't need to listen to whatever you want to say" I said fasting my spaces " please listen to me please I am sorry" he said as he suddenly grab me by my elbow I looked at him and he let go of my elbow " am so sorry" he said as he lowered his gaze " there nothing sorry can do in this case " I said " I know am so so sorry I shouldn't have said those word truth was I really really liked you and I was so jealous I was stupid I shouldn't have said those word I am really sorry please if you don't forgive me I can't forgive my self " he said as his eyes watered a bit .

maybe I was soft in heart because as soon as I saw his watering eyes i felt his pain I searched his eyes too see if he was joking or lieing " did anyone force you too apologize?" I ask him looking at him but he scoffed before he said " yes my heart force me I was so restless that I couldn't sleep please forgive me " he said talking my arms on his " I....I..... am not offended at what you said and I have forgiven you before now " I said too him as he smiled " thanks thanks " he jumped happily " can I have a hug please ? " he ask as I pull him in a small hug .

we chatted and for the first time in the fast few weeks I was relieved but I still had one mission to accomplish I knocked on professor Black office as he gestured me too come in since the door wasn't lock I greeted him " good morning sir" he look at me and ask me too have a seat across him, I sat and for some seconds he didn't say any words too me he kept looking at me with disgust before he said " I did had assigned you too your group right ?" he asked giving me a cold glance, I inhale sharply realizing where the conversation was leading too but I decided too be calm too avoid unnecessary drama " yes sir "

" and what did you do ? " he ask in a tone of disgust but I never replied " girls like you are cheap whore who run after boy for their money " he continued " and as a matter of fact you are under my black list I don't care what ever you do but trust me when I say your days are numbered in this school so watch your back " he said while adjusting his glasses " you can leave but bear in mind what I told you " he said in a threatened tone as I bowed my head slightly in respect and left .

I wanted too hit something invent all my anger in any thing I could hit maybe I would be relieved when I had done that but it was of no use everything here scream money if I broke any thing I would be punished for the rest of my life it just sucks, it all his fault and now he couldn't even defend me against this rumors what was I expecting he has his own reputation too protect.