Chapter 67

GABRIELA

I knew I'm behaving like a bitch, but apparently it wasn't clear to them I didn't want to talk to anyone, I want them to leave me alone, the only thing I wanted to focus on now is Ana and for her to get well. The rest is nothing compared to that.

I had taken Ana to the room because after eating she always drew or slept, which I'm more than sure she would do since she hadn't slept well tonight.

"Mommy." Ana said looking at me "Tell me honey." I said, focusing my gaze on her. "Why don't you go for a walk with Alex?" She asked and I denied "Because I have to be with you princess." I informed her, "I'm fine." she replies

"You're not and we both know that." I responded, "You're not ok either." She assured and I raised an eyebrow. "Of course I am, can't you see it?" I asked, "No, you're always looking out for me, mommy, you have to rest." She informed and I denied once again "No need, I'm fine." I assured, "I would like you to go out and get some fresh air."

"Now that you are going to sleep much less I'll leave, and there will be no more talk." I said, ending the conversation. "I'll be fine." Ana assured, "I'll take care of that." I said seriously, "I can stay with Carlos or Marcos."

"The ones you don't talk to? How do you expect them to understand you when you want something?" I asked, crossing my arms. "I'll talk to them." She stubbornly said, "Now are you going to decide to talk to them?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. "Isn't that what you want?" She asks in a confused voice. "Of course that's what I want, but I'm not going to pressure you to do it."

"It's been a long time without talking to them, I think it's time." She muttered the last thing to herself, I think, "It'll be time when you're ready to talk to them." I responded, sitting next to her and caressing her face. "I am." She assured, "Well, after you wake up, if you want, let's talk to them, ok?" I asked, "I want you to go for a walk, mommy."

"But I don't want to leave your side, I'm going to stay here." I said, "I can be alone, I'm six years old, I'm big." she informed with a snort at the end, "I used to say that at your age, and for my parents I'm still a little girl." I responded, letting out a small laugh. "Mommy, I want to spend time with my brothers."

"Is it that or is it you don't want to see me? Don't you want me to be your mommy anymore?" I asked, confused and a little hurt. "It's not that, I want you to be my mommy, but like you told me once, I can't stop talking to my brothers." She said, repeating my words, "Ok, if that's what you want, I'll call your brothers to come."

I'm not sure if that's what she wanted or if she wanted me to get out of the house for a while. I knew she's intelligent realized things that perhaps others didn't, but I could take advantage of it to buy her a gift. A couple of weeks ago she had told me she would like to play guitar, and that's what I'm going to do, buy her a guitar.

I left the room and as soon as I got to the dining room where everyone was, they stared at me for a while. I noticed Alex is still there, but I ignored him a little to be honest, I didn't want him to worry more about me, because I'm more than sure he would notice not everything was fine as everyone believed, or that's what I thought. I grabbed the car keys and the jacket and told Marcos to go to his sister, which at first seemed weird to him, everyone had the look of thinking something is wrong with me, which it's not the case, not on the level they could know, so I told them it's because she wanted to spend time with him and when Carlos got off work, which wouldn't be too long, he should stop by the house and spend time with him.

With that I left the house and headed to the car and I'm about to get in when someone grabbed my arm, someone I know well and I hoping he wouldn't, but here he is, behind me with a worried face.

"Beautiful, we need to talk." said Alex's voice from behind me, causing me to turn around and stare at him for a couple of seconds. "Alex, I know I owe you an explanation for everything that's happening between us, and I would understand if you broke up with me in this moment, I stopped..." I started, but it didn't take long for him to approach me and interrupt what I'm going to say. "Hey, my queen, don't say that because I'm not even going to do it even dead, I just want to know what's wrong with you. How can I help."

"In a sense you already did." I informed him "I didn't, I should have stood at your door much sooner." He assured and I denied "No, it's ok, I love you the same." I said with a small smile on my face, "Well, me too, I don't know how it crossed your mind I was going to break up with you."

"I don't know, I would understand because I left you aside in a sense, and I hate myself for that." I assured "You shouldn't hate yourself, all I want is for you to be well, that's the only thing that worries me." He said, hugging me and giving me a kiss on the temple. "You shouldn't worry about me, I'm a bad girlfriend right now."

"You're not a bad girlfriend, you're the best, you're just going through a bad time." He responded and I nodded, because why lie "Bad and complicated, I never thought all this would happen. I'm being a bitch to everyone."

"But they understand, I'm the first who understand it, and you're not behaving like that." He said, letting out a small laugh. "Alex, I know I do, especially with you." I responded seriously, "I don't think that way, but tell me, where are you going to leave Ana alone?"

"I'm going to buy Ana a gift, and I'm taking advantage now because she told me she wanted to spend time with her brothers." I informed him, "From what I understood, she doesn't separate from you and doesn't talk to anyone other than you."

"I know, but she told me she would talk to them, told me I had to leave the house, go for a walk and the truth is that's what I least want to do." I assured, "Well, I'll accompany you, so you feel like it a little more, don't you think?" He asked and I nodded, a small smile appearing on my face. "I couldn't say no to that, and you know it."

"Well, come on, if you want, I'll drive, you look tired." He said and I denied, because I wasn't, at least like I had been these last few days. "I'm not." I assured him "Ok, if you're not, I'll drive so you can rest for a while from your tasks of being a mother. How did you not tell me you were Ana's legal tutor?

"I forgot and it's not easy to understand why Jack did what he did, both Carlos and Marcos would be there to take care of her." I said, being more than clear, "From what Carlos told me, and don't tell him because he'll kill me, he told me he would leave if it weren't for leaving you alone with Ana and for being there for his siblings."

"Did Carlos want to leave?" I asked, now confused and upset I didn't know any of this. "Don't tell him, but that's what he told me and I'm sure it's something his father feared." He said, "I will kill that man." I murmured more to myself than to him, "He didn't do it and that's what counts, and we all know Marcos is a little careless with everything, so he had no choice but to put you. Besides, Ana adores you and has you like a mother, she won't be as well taken care of by anyone as she is with you."

"I try that." I sighed and closed my eyes for a few seconds. "But I'm sure you'll make it." Alex said convinced, "I hope so, because of going to buy her the gift, maybe that helps."

"Well, come on, I'll take you if you want, well, rather, I'll take you, I want it to be your afternoon of rest." My boyfriend said with a big smile on his face and intertwining our fingers. "Won't you stop insisting?" I asked despite already knowing the answer "No and you know it, beautiful."

"Ok, let's go, the store is a little far away and I want to be home for dinner." I informed him "And you will be." With that we don't head towards his car. Along the way we talked about everything a little and honestly, I haven't felt calm in a while, ever since what happened to Jack, I tried not to think about it because I'm more than sure it would make me feel bad and it's something I can't afford now, I had to be ok for Ana and so the others wouldn't worry about me.

When we found a place to park, we got out of the car and headed towards the music store. "What are you going to buy Ana? Because here you only go to the music store a couple of meters away." He said, "It's just where we're going, she told me she would like to play the guitar, and if she wants to be a singer it might be good for her."

"I could give her one of mine." Alex said seriously, and I stopped dead and looked at him. "Do you play the guitar?" I asked, surprised, "Yes, my grandmother was excited for me to play it and I ended up liking it." He said as if it were no big deal "Why hadn't you told me?"

"The topic hadn't come up, and it's not like I'm always playing the guitar. I picked it up again a couple of days ago." He informed, "Well, just know I want to hear you play the guitar." I said with a small smile on my face "You were going to do it one of these days, I had to show you something I composed."

"Well, I want to hear it when you finish it." I informed him "I have finished it. What do you say if we go to my house later and I show it to you?" He asked and I nodded. "Sounds good to me, but since you know about guitars, you'll have to help me pick out a good one."

"I'm no expert on guitars, beautiful" He responded, laughing, "But you know more than me, I'll settle for that." I said "Ok, I'll help you." With that we arrived at the store and spent about an hour looking for the perfect guitar until we found it. During all this time I managed to put aside what happened a month ago at Jack's apartment and smile sincerely, not like I have been doing this month, and Alex did all of that in a couple of hours. I don't know how he did it, he always managed to make me be in a better mood and calmer, because of things like that I can't understand how Paula managed to separate us, but that's the least important thing, the only thing that matters to me is we're together and I'm the happiest girl in the world for forgiving him for everything that happened.

On the way to his house, we spent chatting and he told me he had a guitar case he could give to Ana, which wasn't necessary, but he won, so we would give her as a gift from him. When we arrived at the house, we got out of the car and as he always did, he took me by the hand to enter the house and went to his room, which I already knew quite well since the week I spent at his house I had stayed in it, I didn't go out for much else until he got home from college.

"Well, beautiful, sit wherever you want. I hope you like it." Alex said, "I'm more than sure I'll like it, but I still can't believe you play the guitar." I said with a small smile. "It's something not too many people know if it comforts you."

"Well, everyone should know." Alex had been walking around the room grabbing things, until he sat in front of me with the guitar in his hands. "First of all, know I was inspired by you and how happy you make me, beautiful."

With that he started playing and to my surprise he also sang, and I loved it. I had been gawking at him, if I was in love with him before, now I'm even more in love with him. The lyrics were beautiful, and I could tell he's singing it with feeling, and it related everything we had experienced until now.

When he finished, I was still looking at him, I'm really surprised, I didn't even have words to say to him. "Hey beautiful, my intention wasn't to make you cry but to make you feel better. I don't want you to be sad, beautiful."

I hadn't even realized I had started crying, but I am happy. It didn't take long for him to come over to me and hug me, but I ended up sitting on his lap and hugging him. "I'm not sad." I said wiping away my tears "So?"

"I am happy, so happy that I have no words to feel what I feel right now." I said, "I was starting to get scared." He said, letting out a small laugh. "Well, I'm better than ever, I loved it, darling."

"I'm glad about that." He responded "Really, it's beautiful, I adore it and now it will be my favorite. I love you, love." I said, "I love you too, beautiful." We started kissing and I noticed how he ran his hands down my back, and got closer to him, for me I would never leave his lap in my life, it's wonderful there and it would become my favorite place, rather, any place. The one he is in would be the best.